El bite back her tongue to keep the tears from spilling down her cheeks, she was devastated. No, wait, devastated couldn't possibly describe the way she was feeling within this moment. So many emotions began filling her that her breathes became unsteady and turned from slow to fast. She began hyperventilating, all the memories of her and Mike began flooding her mind in one swift motion that her back had collided hard with her closest door.
She remembers the day Mike told her he had first loved her. Mike had been teaching El how to swim, she was delighted. She loved when Mike taught her things, she loved it especially when a look of pride began edging its way onto his face. They had been so happy back then, now it was as if all those memories were a distant fog. The salt water had clung on to his jet-black hair, his lips looked even more pink and full that it took everything in her power not to reach over and grab him right then and there. There was a mischievous look in his eyes that she remembered how fast her heart was beating that day, how he looked at her as if she was the whole reason for his entire existence. Like she was his universe, and she loved it, she loved him.
Before those three little words had left his mouth he lazily reached for her hand before he grasped it tightly, pressing a feather-like kiss against her palm. El watched in a daze as there entwinned hands fell in the crystal water in front of them, her heart had beated three times, the same amount of times he had squeezed her palm. Her mouth hung open as her eyes quickly locked with his frantically, he re mouthed the words as he squeezed her hand for the second time. She remembered her last thought, that she couldn't care less who was looking at their shared moment. She flung her small arms around his neck so fast that she hurled both their bodies into the water. She grasped Mike's neck so tightly as they kissed fast and desperately underwater as they sunk further and further down. Nothing else had seemed to matter within that moment except for Mike, he would always matter, he was the only thing that mattered to El.
For once in her life, El was scared. And just like that she broke, painful sobs had wedged from out of her throat. She sounded as though she was drowning, sinking deeper and deeper down from herself and from Mike. Once she learned the truth off Nancy, she knew she could never forgot it. Never forgive him.
Her name is Emily, she moved to Hawkins with her older brother. She was only a year younger than Eleven. She should've noticed, Mike and El had always planned to leave after graduation. But everything seemed to change once the news spread around the small town of a new girl, a beautiful one. El hadn't seemed to of cared, why would she, she had been with Mike ever since she was thirteen. She knew that they loved each other so she had felt no threat. Until everything seemed to brim to the edge and now El was the one left with the broken heart, not him.
"El, sweetheart? Are you okay? Please, talk to me. Open the door," Mikes voice shook with worry as she heard another faint "Please." escape from the other side of their bedroom door. El shut her bloodshot eyes and counted to five to steady her crying before opening them, Mike had taught her that, to be able to help her control her powers and from losing herself whilst she was in her own element.
As El reached for the knob of the door she soon realised that this could be the last time she'd ever see Mike. If he could cheat, then he didn't deserve her. He didn't deserve her pure love, and my god she loved him with all her might. She couldn't ever love any other man as much as she did with this boy, with her Mike. Determination began filling her broken heart and mind as she pried the door open fast, in one stride he had her pressed against his warm, tight body. "Don't you dare scare me like that again, do you hear me?" he instructed, rubbing his nose with hers. The act alone almost betrayed El's body from her mind, she could do this. If he could cheat, then she would leave. Simple. It had to be right?
It had taken all of El's strength to hold back the look of disgust that was ready to wedge itself onto her delicate features.
"El, what's wrong?"
She looked away, already beginning to feel numb. He stepped even closer if that was possible and grabbed her roughly by the arms, making her eyes swiftly land back on him. His lips were parted, ragged breaths escaping from them but its what his eyes were laying out in front of her that made her whole body tense up. Adoration swirled in them that El bit back a wince. Most of all he looked scared, utterly terrified, and she knew the exact reason for it. Because of her, because of Emily.
"Tell me, was she worth it?" El snarled up at him, but still let his hands wonder on her skin.
"Eleven," he barely choked out, his body going still. El ignored the way her heart broke just by hearing his desperation, he could suffer for all she cared. "I- It isn't what you think," Mike muttered, "I could never be with anyone but you El, I wouldn't."
"But you did, you fucked Emily. Don't even lie to me, I have loved you for years. You were the only boy I'd ever let touch me, to ever actually get the chance to love me. And you know what Mike? You fucking blew it, you blew us." El spat out, letting her tears spill over. It was easy to cry in front of him, he had seen her at her worst before. But for the first time in years, he was the reason for her soul breaking.
El launched herself in the direction of their bedroom door, fumbling for the knob until she harshly pried the door open. Before she could shut it in his face, his hand roughly swung the door back. "Get out, Mike," But he stood there, so achingly still. He looked lost, like if he moved the act alone would kill him.
Good, now he felt the exact pain she had when she found out the news. "Leave! Don't ever come back, I'm done with you." She was screaming. Pounding her small fists against the doorframe.
The tears were starting to burn El's cheeks but nothing could compare to the sting her heart felt at the sight of Mike in front of her. His black hair was dishevelled, his messy curls splattered across his forehead. Almost as if someone had run their fingers through them, almost as if someone was roughly pulling at them while they were being fucked. His lips looked red and swollen, like someone had been wanting to leave their mark on him. Yet it was his eyes that gave everything away, they screamed cheater and she knew that these marks were all from Emily, not her.
"You've got to calm down, baby," he told her, catching both her wrists in one hand. "It was a mistake, if I could take it back I would. You've have to understand, I love you El. I always have." She traced the line of his hard jaw and she watched him drop his cheek to her hand, brushing against it slowly. She knew what she was doing would tear him apart, but he had to learn his lesson, cheaters don't get second chances.
El pulled her hand back so fast that all that could be heard was the sound of her slap echoing in the empty hallway. His head shot back sideways as he took a few steps back in alarm. "Don't you dare say that you love me. Tell me, did you think of me when you were fucking her?" El screamed out, her hands hitting every part of him she could reach. Angry claw marks made their way onto his pale skin, but he stood their letting her take out all the pain and anger. That made her even more furious. "Say something! Did you think of me when you fucked her in our bed? The bed we both lost our virginities to each other in? Let me guess, her pussy must have been what made you forget all about your wife." El spat out the last word as if it was poison to her tongue.
His gaze finally met with hers, and he gave her a sharp shake of the head before he dropped to his knees and sobbed. She let him reach for her, Mike rubbed his face into her clothed stomach, murmuring words that couldn't reach her ears. "What were you thinking? I don't want to be alone, how could you do this to us. I have loved you since I was a little girl. It's all ruined now, I hope your happy," El's voice broke before she continued on. "Because you lost me."
"God, El. No, no, no. You can't leave me. I won't let you." Mike cried out, hugging her even tighter than before. Her top was completely soaked from his tears, she almost believed he was genuinely sorry. But it wasn't enough.
Her heart jerked so fast in her chest, then began to pound as she knew it was time for her to let him go. "Mike, stop." The word's broke from El's throat like pieces of shattered glass were cutting her from the inside and out.
Tears continued to stream down his face. "But I love you," He trembled so hard that his whole body shook with his next words, "Isn't my love enough for you anymore?"
El shoved him so hard that his body sprawled out onto the floor. El's chest began heaving, her eyes burning from the unleashed tears. Words were desperately trying to claw their way out of her throat, her heart hanging heavy in her chest that she knew if she didn't leave soon she'd forgive him.
"You lost that right to love me the moment you decided to let another girl in our bed and into your heart."
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Hey guys! I'll be making this into a short story, yes there will be some smut later on throughout the chapters! I hope you guys liked this so far, let me know what you enjoyed the most. Thanks for reading!
L xo