I am so sorry that I haven't been able to post anything lately! Summer is about to end and I still have some homework to finish. I have like three writing projects in progress right now including a second chapter for a chanced meeting so more will come. I just wrote this because I had some time to kill and it has no dialogue so it was a quick write. I apologize if the story isn't all that great I was just writing on a whim and was simply using my past relationship experience as an outline. Without further adieu enjoy...

Words can make a huge difference. Whether we are waiting for news or trying to tell someone something, that's all it boils down to; an arrangement of letters that when enunciated a certain way can form a phrase, a word, a lecture, anything we want really. One story in particular comes to mind when I start to think of this: the time I fell in love only to get my heart broken by just a few words.

Usually when a relationship goes bad or is starting to go bad the two people involved try to work things out before even thinking about ending it. That wasn't the case for me; instead I let myself think that Draco Malfoy would never even dream of wanting to break up with me. Of course, I probably should have seen it coming. While I, Hermione Granger, usually have some sort of confidence, when it came to my love life I knew that there was no confidence there whatsoever. That feeling was multiplied seeing how I was dating the most sought after bachelor in England. I know it seemed silly that I should fret over something like that but not a day went by when I wouldn't think 'why is he dating me in the first place? He could do so much better than me.' Some days those thoughts were frequent but most days I kept those thoughts near the back of my mind.

Now that I look back on the time we were dating I realize that there were a few warning signs that the relationship wasn't going well. The first one is that we barely fought. While most people would say that's a good thing and my imagination is just on overdrive at the moment in reality that was actually a bad thing. Any of our friends would say that before we had started dating we would fight like a married couple. As soon as we became boyfriend and girlfriend that stopped. Soon the relationship became way to calm. Throughout the duration of that time we probably fought about 3 times which is really worrying. The second sign was that he rarely showed public affection. While I am one of those people that like to keep PDA to a minimum I wouldn't mind if every once in a while he just grabbed my hand or kissed my cheek. I mean it wouldn't have killed him. Then again it wasn't like we showed much affection when we were alone as well. At those times it felt more like we were just best friends that weren't allowed to date anyone and that was frustrating. I think the third and final sign was that he never really talked all that much to me. That may sound a little bit like I'm super clingy but I wasn't being clingy-at least I don't think I was- I always had to initiate the conversation and there would be times when he would just stop responding. Sometimes he wouldn't even hear what I was saying and I would need to repeat it, then because I had said it so much he would just yell at me to shut up. And let me tell you something: it hurt when he would say that. If I had the choice to go back in time I think I would have ended the relationship before I got too invested into it because once that happens there is no going back and the end hurts even more then it would have.

The words that caused the most pain were the words he said when we broke up. He sent me a letter that said to meet him by the lake. By the time I was there I was convinced that this was the end of our relationship. That was the one time I wished that I hadn't been right. As soon as I walked up to him he simply said 'it's better for us if we just stay friends.' I am not going to lie, when he said that I felt like someone had stuck me in the gut with a rusty knife and had started digging around. I kept a brave face though and simply nodded with whatever he was saying had I spoken I most likely would have broken down. As soon as he left I kept the brave face on long enough to make sure he was out of earshot before I let the waterworks start. I changed from a strong somewhat confident woman into a blubber pile of flesh that thought happiness would never come her way again. The sad thing was is that from day one I had been prepared for this breakup but when it had finally come I didn't want it anymore. Throughout the week I heard other reasons why he had so abruptly dumped me, one that came up constantly was that I was boring. That hurt just as much as the break up. Had he told me maybe we could have fixed that or I could have changed whatever it was that I was doing wrong. Instead of telling me first hand I had to hear his words from other members of the student body, my friends included.

People say that words hurt more than fist and they are absolutely right. It felt like those words had been picked out especially to destroy me and make sure that I stayed down. After that experience I was changed. Now I'm afraid to tell people I love them-even my family- because all it does is bring back all the memories of when I had said that same thing to him.

Words were my enemy for a while. I would stay away from any books I knew that he liked-and he liked a lot of books. Eventually it was words that helped me. The very thing that was used to break my heart helped piece it back together. I do admit that there are times when I break down but for the most part I stay strong and remember that I am a worthwhile person. Now I use that relationship as reference for mistakes that I know not to make. In a way Draco's words made me a better and stronger person then I originally was. I had my heart broken and lived to tell the tale. Everything was going to be alright. Now I knew that happily ever after was going to be hard to reach but when I get there it will be so worthwhile. I have him to thank for that.

Just as they can be used to destroy things words can also be used to fix things. Ideas are formed with words that get written down and eventually turned into accomplished works. These words in turn inspire more to express themselves with words and this inspires more people! It is like an endless chain. Words are something that will always be around. They are eternal. They can also tell stories-like what my words just did to you.

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