As Emma woke she couldn't help but see his smile and remember every word he said the night before. She got out of bed and did the same thing she did every morning: Took a shower, brushed her teeth, got dressed, ate her breakfast and left for school. But this morning was different some how. She had a smile on her face the whole time until she arrived at the front steps of Degrassi and saw him. He was with that girl. The one who took her place. The one that has everything she can't have. The one that gets to put a smile on his face when he's down and they looked as happy as ever...
"Why is he still with her?" "I thought he meant what he said?" "Why did he lie?" "Why do I always fall for him?" These were the thoughts running through her mind as she held back the tears and put a smile on her face as she walked by.
Then he spoke. "Hey, Emma!"
Sean was groggy this morning he woke up and put on the same dirty T - shirt from yesterday. He drank his orange juice out of the carton and grabbed a piece of toast. He picked up his backpack and walked out the door just as Jay pulled up to his apartment. Sean got in the car and as they headed to Degrassi Sean was quiet and obviously distant. Jay decided not to say anything because even though Sean didn't say it or even allude to it, Jay knew exactly what happened the night before. Jay parked his car and they both walked to the front steps of Degrassi and saw Ellie waiting.
Ellie looked so happy Sean had to smile. He couldn't hurt Ellie the same way he had hurt... Her. The girl of his dreams. He never thought he was good enough for her but she came when he called. He didn't know why she came but he knew why she was always the first one he would call. So many thoughts ran through his head that he couldn't help but smile. Ellie probably thought Sean was happy to see her but that wasn't it. He was thinking of the perfect girl. The one he had hurt too many times. He could never get her back, at least that's what he thought. Then she walked by and he saw her smile.
"Is she smiling because of me?" He thought but he hesitated at that. "No it has to be something else." he thought again as he pulled away from Ellie. And as he said "Hey" she turned.
"Oh. Hey, Sean!" She had the biggest smile then she saw Ellie glaring at her. "Hey, Ellie!" She averted her eyes and Sean could see she was hurting. He could always tell when something was hurting Emma.
"Sean. We should get to class." Ellie said as the first bell of the day rung. It was apparent to everyone but Sean that Ellie didn't want Emma around. "Nice talking to you, Emma." She said with the fakest sincerity.
"Yeah. Ummm... Talk to you later, Em." Sean said in an unsure tone as Ellie grabbed his hand and they walked to class together. Jay stood there as did Emma who just watched Sean walk away with that girl. But Emma didn't look upset. Ellie had faded away in her mind. It was just Sean and she could still hear the way he said her name. "Em" Something about the way he said it made her melt. As she was drifting into her own little world that was her and Sean together, Jay said something.
"Huh?" Emma said oblivious to what he said. She was too busy daydreaming to hear or see anything but Sean.
"I said you're going to be late for class" Jay said a bit louder to get her attention as Emma came back to reality and her smile slowly dissappeared.
"Oh... Thanks!" She walked up the steps with her head down. Jay noticed she was hurt and he knew why. It was the same reason Sean hadn't said anything in the car. The same reason he was surprised when that Sean looked so happy to see Ellie and the same reason Ellie didn't want Emma around.
"Hey!" Emma turned back as he ran up towards her. "He really did mean what he said last night." Jay flashed her a smile and walked into Degrassi but Emma just stood there. She thought hearing that would make her feel better but in reality it just made her heart ache with even more intensity. She sat on the steps and started to cry. No one was around so she just sat there. Alone, thinking about Sean and all the chaos that is their relationship and how she can't help but love him regardless of all the things he's done.