A GaiLee fanfic, written by GaiLeeGaa-Luvr1/ShoulderDevil ('Sensei'), and X-Panda-Chan-X/VampyWillSuckYourBlood ('Vampy')
Summary: "I never thought it would hurt this way. Love is not supposed to be like this...Is it?" Lee realizes that he has made far too many mistakes, but can a certain bushy-browed sensei right his wrongs? GaiLee, LeeGaa, NejiLee-ABUSE
Warning: Abuse, Emo, Suicide, Romance, LeeGaa, GaiLee, Hurt
Kill Me, Heal Me
I've had enough Lee thought, tracing his index finger over the fresh bruises on his toned abdomen. A soft sigh left his lips as he heard the front door to his house open. Hastily, he pulled his tight long-sleeved green shirt over the injuries. Green... Once, his favourite colour - Now a mask over his true pain.
"Lee!" Called a familiar voice from the hallway.
Neji.
"In the bathroom." Lee replied in a monotonous voice. It was already dusk. The black-haired male opened the bathroom door, and then stepped out in the hallway, meeting Neji's cold grey eyes. He had to tell him today - he had to tell him that enough was enough - that the abuse could go on no longer.
Being beaten up on a daily basis made him feel weak, it made him feel submissive and vulnerable - pathetic, even. The pent up anger inside him made him no better than Neji himself – as when his boyfriend, Gaara would come home from work, Lee always fucked him. Sometimes without lube or stretching. He would fuck him so hard that it caused horrible pain, yet Lee needed to feel dominant.
He felt like a monster for hurting the poor redhead, yet he couldn't stop inducing pain upon him. Their relationship wasn't getting any stronger either. They argued almost every day, and Gaara would walk out, not returning for days. They were going to break up soon, and knowing that broke Lee's heart.
He took a deep breath and tried to speak, but no sound came out. How could he tell him? How could he ever turn his best friend away? His only friend?
"What is it?" Neji asked, eyeing Lee thoughtfully.
"N-Nothing…" Lee averted his gaze to the window, noticing how the black clouds, heavy with rain swirled together in the sky and blocked out the sun. There was a slight rumbling of thunder in the distance. He felt worried all of a sudden. Gaara was terrified of storms, and he wasn't back from work yet. A slight pain in his wrist brought him back to reality. Neji was squeezing his arm painfully hard. Lee winced.
"You're lying." The Hyuuga hissed. "Tell me what you were going to say."
The leaf-nin trembled for a moment, before holding his breath. "I've had enough." He attempted bravely.
"What do you mean?" He spat.
"I've had enough, Neji! I've had enough of your abuse! You are ruining my relationship with Gaara-kun! You are making me feel weak! I just can't take it anymore!"
Neji was silent for a moment before he brought his hand to Lee's face, leaving a red mark. "Fine. If you don't want to be my friend anymore, fuck you. I couldn't give a shit. Just don't come crying to me when you're all alone!" And with that, the Hyuuga turned on his heel and stormed out. Lee felt like a huge weight had been lifted from his chest. He could finally breathe again.
Coming to his senses a few minutes later, Lee noticed the storm becoming considerably worse and decided it would be best to pick Gaara up from work, to spare the redhead having to walk home on his own in fear. He planned to apologize, and try to patch things up between them. He wanted to start their relationship anew, and made a promise to himself to treat his boyfriend better from now on. With a smile, Lee left the house and started to walk down the street, heading straight for Gaara's workplace. Everything seemed so much better now. Of course, he had lost a friend, but with the way Neji treated him, it was for the best anyway.
Lee walked into the reception area, before taking the elevator to Gaara's floor. As he waited outside the office door for his beloved, he caught a glimpse of Naruto inside through the tiny window. He was talking to Gaara, and both of them seemed oblivious to Lee's presence.
After a few moments, however, a horrifying sight met Lee's eyes.
They kissed.
Naruto kissed Gaara. His Gaara.
Anger boiled in his chest. He expected the redhead to push him away, harshly tell the blonde that he was in a relationship with Lee and Lee only. But to the leaf-nin's horror, Gaara kissed back passionately, lovingly, before they pulled away and stared into each other's eyes. Gaara blushed and giggled shyly, before locking lips with Naruto yet again.
It was with great, stomach-lurching fear that Lee realized how Gaara was acting: smiling and giggling. Something he'd not done in front of Lee for at least three months. It soon became clear that there was nothing left for them anymore, nothing left of their relationship that was worth salvaging. His heart shattered in his chest and tears welled up in his eyes as he sent a death glare to Naruto, the person who was supposed to be his comrade, and Gaara's best friend. It was sickening. Truly sickening. Unable to watch any more, he ran out of the office, out of the building and straight back to his house whilst sobbing uncontrollably.