Name: Letters from an EX-SOILDER
Characters: Zack/Cloud a bit
Rating: mostly pg 13 to be safe
Disclaimer: I have no claim over Zack or cloud, or any of the features of final fantasy 7
My name is Zachary Fair. That sounds stupid to begin this story with my name, but ya know names are important. But more than anything events and feelings are. His name, was, is Cloud Strife, and he was a cadet, I say was because Im guessing we've been given discharge from the army. Yeah it sucks when I think of him in the past tense but some times it slips and I do it. His eyes stare dully, comatose. What the hell am I writing…I think I'm loosing it no ones gonna find these words. But it sucks always being on the run and as much as I love Spike he's not much of a conversationalist. Hell even when he was perfectly fine the kid was always so shy, when I first met him I thought he was going to pass out from embarrassment. But sometimes I would get him into these conversations and he would light up like a Christmas tree. Now I can't even get him to stutter and try and shy away from my affections. Mako poisoning, that's what's wrong with him, though that's all I can tell, he, we were exposed to it for so long, we were exposed to a lot for a long time. But he was always so susceptible to the damn stuff, Mako that is. I guess that was the main reason he was never accepted into SOILDER although the fact that he wasn't very strong, or big, ok so maybe he didn't have much of a chance, especially being that pretty. I mean guys aren't supposed to have such big eyes, eyes that are the male feature on a very feminine face, hell not even Aerith had eyes that big. It's a wonder he was never raped in the Shin-Ra company halls. Hell I bet even if he had been raped he wouldn't tell anyone in fear of getting kicked out or being considered even more of a failure than he already was. Not that I thought he was a failure, a coupe more years and maybe I would have been able to have him up to so SOILDER standards. But none of that matters. The kid was so determined to let nobody in, he was so fragile, so scared, yet in front of people he would shy away, the first time I had touched his hair he flinched acting as if I had tried to kill him I finally managed to let make him let me in pushing and pushing until he cracked and let me into-----FUCK!
~tbc
so what did you think was it worth posting? (my beta has not seen this so please forgive me for any problems)