A.N: I started writing this a while back and a lot of things happened so I never got around to finishing and have now decided to rewrite it all. Most of the story won't have changed but sorry guys that its taken me so long.

Some background information for this story that you should know:

Bella Swan is Emmet's younger sister; 19 years old, currently single, ex- boyfriend is Edward

Emmett Swan is Bella's older brother, 21 years old, currently dating Rosalie

Alice Cullen is Edward's adoptive sister, 19 years old, currently dating Jasper

Edward Cullen is Alice's adopted brother, 20 years old, currently dating Tanya, ex- girlfriend is Bella

Rosalie Hale is Jasper's twin sister, 20 years old, currently dating Emmett, ex- boyfriend is Phil

Phil Dwyer is 22 years old, currently dating Renee, ex- girlfriend is Rosalie

Jasper Hale is Rosalie's twin brother, 20 years old, currently dating Alice

Bella's POV

I blasted my music to help drown out the thoughts of my sucky life. My life is shit I said to myself. Blasting my music only helped so much, to blare out all of the thoughts running through my brain. I glanced around the carriage only to receive several dirty looks from people on the subway, they were quick to turn away when they noticed me glaring back, giving them a look telling them to fuck off. So here I am on the subway, I'm running away from my home, running away from Renee and Phil. As I thought of Phil I shuddered, I never want to remember him again or see him, I've decided that I'm going to some run-down town in Alaska to live with my brother Emmett, I hope he's ok. I hope he doesn't mind my surprise visit, well to be honest I actually couldn't give a fuck if he minds that I'm going to be moving in as we aren't exactly on the greatest of speaking terms, well to be completely honest with you that's a huge understatement, he was so pissed off at me, last time we saw each other that he took Rosalie's side of the argument.

Flashback

Rose and I had gone to 'the party of the year' with my brother and our group of friends. I can remember that party so vividly I still remember the last friendly reaction I had from Rose was when she referred to us as "the two hottest bitches at this party" we toasted our drinks and laughed until Rose turned to me and said "I think Phil is cheating on me" I must have looked so shocked, "There is no way that he's cheating on you Rose I can see the way he looks at you, he loves you." I said believing it to be true. A statement I will forever regret, because that turned out to be so wrong.

"You're right" Rosalie agreed but I could see the doubt held in her voice. "Hey love" Edward said as he approached us, and gave me a kiss on the forehead. "I love you" I said to Edward, at that moment I completely forgot Rosalie was there.

"I love you too" Edward said. He kissed me, the kiss was intense wrapping us into a bubble that burst when Rosalie cleared her throat. I pulled away blushing violently and muttered "Sorry" to Rose. Edward was the most serious boyfriend I've ever had I loved him so much. We had been talking about taking our relationship to the next level yet I still didn't feel ready, I was still a virgin.

"Hey Phil" Rose said and kissed him on the cheek, I've never seen Rosalie fall so head over heels for a guy before she started dating Phil. He was so good for her. "Hey babe, hey Bella & Eddie" Phil said and sat down next to us. "Hey" I said and Edward put his arm around my shoulders before turning to Phil glaring at him jokingly "It's Edward not Eddie". I felt my phone vibrate I'd gotten a text, it was from Phil. Strange that he was texting me when he was sitting with us.

Hey got a gift for Rosalie want 2 cum with me and get it?

I texted back.

Sure

"Babe I'm going to go get a drink I'll be right back, Bella do you want to come?" Phil asked.

"Sure" I said leaving with Phil to get Rosalie's gift. We pushed through the crowd of people; the music was way too loud to hear anyone. "It's upstairs" Phil screamed but I barely heard him, I nodded my head and we went upstairs. We went into this bedroom; he closed the door behind us so I gave him a puzzling look silent questioning him why.

"Where's her gift? I bet you got her a bracelet or-" I was cut off by Phil kissing me; I shoved him hard to get him off me. "What the hell?" I screamed anger filling me. "Come on babe lets have some fun".

"EW! No I'm going back downstairs then I'm telling Rosalie what you just did!"

"Come on, it will be fun, you're way hotter than Rosalie." Phil said.

"NO!" I said walked past Phil to the door but he grabbed my arm and turned me to face him. He kissed me angrily and threw me on the bed. I struggled to get up so he pinned my arms at the front.

"Stop" I screamed but all I got was him smiling at me, I struggled harder against his iron grip. Trying desperately to free myself. I won't go into details but let's just say that no matter how much I said no, how much I fought to get away from him, he refused to stop. He raped me! He stole my innocence. Next thing I knew it was morning and I was a mess. Rosalie walked in as I was getting up. Her expression looked so shocked and hurt.

"Rose! Rosalie it's not what it looks like." I started before being cut off.

"You- - you backstabbing slut!" She screamed at me.

"Phil was cheating on me with you! You're a cold hearted bitch! Bella wait just you wait until Edward hears out about this, I can't wait to tell him how much of a whore you are!" Rosalie shouted, with tears streaming down her face.

"I thought you were my friend Bella" Rosalie said sadly before grabbing a couple of water bottles and pouring them on Phil and me. "What the hell?" Phil shouted glaring between me and Rose.

"We're through" Rosalie said to Phil she left crying. I started to cry silently knowing that this was the end. I practically ran out of the room never wanting to see Phil's face again but just before I left I heard him say "You know you wanted it. Your mine now; you're a dirty slut who will ever love you." I cried as I did the walk of shame home.

I attempted to make myself appear as though nothing had happened. I didn't want Emmett worrying and questioning me. Thankfully Emmett was still sleeping. I scrambled into the shower putting it onto the maximum temperature. I began trying to scrub the dirty feeling off me but it didn't work, not even after I had scrubbed my skin till it was so red I was almost bleeding. I still felt like a dirty whore. I got dressed in my comfiest clothes and longest sleeved sweatshirt I owned so that I could hide the evidence of all that had happened, I had bruises in every part of my body. I collapsed on my bed and cried into my pillow. I would do this for a long time.

End Flashback

I got off of the subway. I glanced at my reflection in a mirror. I was dressed in black fitted sweat pants and a long sleeve dark blue almost black shirt. My hair hung down past my shoulders, dull and wavy. My brown eyes were filled with pain. I hated that I could still appear pretty-ish even in sweat pants. I was nervous of what Emmett's reaction would be to me. I got a taxi when we arrived at the address, my jaw dropped open. Wow, the house was huge. I double checked the address to ensure that I had arrived at the right address. I had there was no mistaking that this was the right house. I rang the doorbell hoping that it would be Jasper who opened the door. However luck wasn't on my side it was Emmett who answered the door, the first emotion that flickered across his face was shock. He wasn't expecting me. He probably didn't even know that I had gone missing. Renee and Phil probably hadn't noticed yet. I saw Rosalie and Edward with some girl I hadn't met before, I was drawn back into a flashback.

Flashback

I thought about telling Edward what happened to me, but I knew he wouldn't believe me. Phil had set it up so perfectly, that it would appear like I was lying to cover that we were having an affair. The text messaging, the going alone places with him, ugh. Stupid! So fucking stupid! Bella and you call yourself smart. I cried harder every time I attempted to stop I closed my eyes and the memories of what had just happened to me would replay on a loop in my head over and over. I saw Emmett in my doorway, luckily he hadn't seen me crying.

"Good morning Bellsy" he said as he came and gave me his famous bear hug. I cringed away from him. Attempting to calm myself, so that I wouldn't hyperventilate.

"Morning Emmy" I said with no emotion in my voice. Praying he wouldn't notice the changes in me. "What's wrong?" Emmett asked, damn me and Emmett for being so close, that he always seems to know when I'm upset or when something's up.

"Nothing, I feel sick" I lied keeping my eyes closed, stopping any tears. Emmett left I could tell he was worrying and didn't believe that I felt sick, that he knew there was something deeper. I thanked god that he just shrugged it off not questioning it. A while later I heard Edward and Emmett arguing outside my door.

"Dude she's sick I think you guys can last one day without seeing her." Emmett said wait Emmett said guys who else is outside my door.

"Dude listen I need to talk to her." Edward said

"Emmett let Edward talk to her." Rosalie sneered when she said her I always thought that Rosalie would always end up with Emmett they were best friends. There was a knock at my door

"Go away I don't feel good" I said and my voice broke twice but Edward came in regardless and shut the door behind him when Edward shut the door it instantly reminded me of when Phil shut the door and locked me in the room my breathing was ragged. My head was still on the mattress.

"Bella" Edward said his voice full of anger and pain I sat up and looked at him his emerald green eyes were smoldering into my brown eyes.

"Yes" I said my voice was surprisingly calm I thought my voice would be in hysterics now

"Did you?" Edward asked and I instantly knew what he meant he was asking me if I cheated on him. I didn't say anything I just looked down to ashamed to tell him about my rape and he wouldn't believe me if I did tell him.

"Slut" Edward yelled at me

"What?" I asked

"Slut that's what you call someone who cheated on their boyfriend. We're done I never want to talk to you or see you again." Edward said and left slamming the door in the process. Tears in my eyes were threatening to spill over.

Apparently Emmett had gone out to dinner with Rosalie and Edward and took their much for family loyalty I remember the argument that followed how Emmett screamed at me yelling about how could I do this to my boyfriend and my best friend he blamed me for Rosalie being sad. Over the next couple of weeks Emmett and Rosalie were boyfriend and girlfriend. Emmett and I grew distant as him and Rosalie grew closer he didn't even look at me. I felt like everyone I needed abandoned me at my time of need I started getting deeper into depression and self harm as I began cutting myself and doing drugs. Although Emmett doesn't know about that. I think he would've killed me if he knew that I cut myself or did drugs. My wardrobe drastically changed to I wore black all of the time. I could tell that Emmett wanted me gone and out of his life. So I decided to leave I packed all of my stuff I ran down the stairs and I could hear laughing. The laughing stopped when I walked in the room I saw Emmett with his arm around Rosalie's shoulder, Alice, and Jasper, and what I saw that made my heart drop was Edward with another girl she had strawberry blonde hair. Everyone was glaring at me and I looked away and was about to walk out the door with my suitcase when Emmett asked me "Where are you going?"

I was taken aback by his words because, that was the first time he had talked to me in what seemed like months. I just ignored him and walked out the door heading to my beat-up truck I could hear his footsteps behind me, he was following me. I was just about to put my suit case in the back of my truck when Emmett grabbed my arm.

"Bella where are you going?" Emmett asked and I saw everyone listening to us at the door

"Hmm I'm surprised you know my name because, you've been ignoring me for so long." I snapped back at him.

"Bella what is your freakin problem?" Emmett asked I didn't know what to say I'm sure I looked stupid standing there speechless. Emmett took my suitcase and threw it in the back of my truck.

"Fine go I don't care you can come back when you can tell me what is wrong with you!" Emmett screamed at me and I got in my car and drove from Forks to Phoenix to live with Renee. Living with Renee was eventful I barely said a word to her but she talked to me for hours. I lived with her for about a year. She gushed about this one guy she started dating she said his name was Phil I didn't think anything of it until she asked him to move in and I saw Phil it was the same guy that raped me. I panicked when I saw him he beat me for a while but he made sure Renee wouldn't find out like he wouldn't punch or slap me in my face. One night it got bad and I packed a backpack of stuff climbed out my window and got on a plane to Alaska to run away from Phil so here I am now outside Emmett's house.

End Flashback

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