CHAPTER 1: 'Mixed feelings'

So.. my very first fan fiction.. Ideas started to pop in my head like crazy so I finally convinced myself to start writing. And this is the result! I'm planning on making it a series, just I am not completely sure yet where I want to take it. It is rated M for safety for now, who knows how much smut I feel like writing later xD.

Of course, it is about Hodgins and Angela, the couple I will ship and love until I die. The beginning of the story is set around early season 2. Yes, that was 6 seasons ago, but it just seems right, also taking in the real story a bit here and there. I've had some great responses from my betas, so I hope you like the plot too! Have fun reading ^_^

DISCLAIMER: Bones and every character coming out of the TV show belongs to FOX, Hart Hanson and Kathy Reichs. Although I wouldn't mind borrowing TJ and Michaela for a while :)

He placed his moist lips on her silky skin. Ever since they got into bed, the love continued to be spread through the air. The air which, to them, seemed like a thousand degrees. The lips which were able to make her moan every time he kissed her, those lips she longed to every moment they were not on her. As he started to make his way down, he palmed her perfectly shaped breasts, knowing that such would make her even happier. A whimper, a smile, a loud scream through the morning air, calling out his name like she did many times before, every time realizing more that this, this was what she wanted. She gave him a kiss, on the spot behind his ear that made him go crazy, slowly making her way to his mouth, where their tongues started to battle like their lives were in danger.

~~~~7:38 AM, the Montenegro residence~~~~

As her alarm went of for the fourth time already, Angela decided it was time to get out of bed. Her dreams made her go crazy. For days, if it were not weeks or months, he would come up in her dreams. And not just come up in her dreams, he'd love her, kiss her, make love to her and cuddle until they fell asleep in her dream again. Many times she would wake up, trying to fall asleep again, wishing the dreams were real. She knew, she knew long before, that she could have this all. Many guys had offered themselves to her, but it never felt right.

There was something about this guy, something all the others did not have. The brown curls, which seemed so heavenly soft. The muscles, oh how much she wished she could feel those. And then the sparkling, bright blue eyes. Every time he looked at her, it felt like the world was fading away, like she was drowning, in the sea of his eyes. And he knew her, more than anyone else. Anyone but her best friend Brennan of course. But something, something about him made her go crazy.

Was it the conspiracy? Was it the way he could comfort her, or just the way he managed to always make her smile? But ever since Kurt died, she lost faith. She lost faith in having that one thing so many longed for. Love. She would like love, but something told her that just was not meant for her. Not with Jack, not with anyone. She even was too scared to admit to herself that she was madly, madly in love with him. Jack Stanley Hodgins IV. She was in love. But was too scared to admit.

All the thoughts rushing through her head almost made her cry. What was wrong with her? Yes, she had noticed Jack had been more careful around her lately. And, as a bonus, he had been complimenting her. For everything. Her work, the way she cared for everyone by bringing coffee during the early mornings or late nights. But especially, the way she looked. Either it was her clothing, her hair or her face. He never seemed to be able to choose.

But this, him complimenting her, was what scared her. She had always been the free-minded spirit. SHE had been the one, wanting to leave for Paris as soon as she could. SHE had been the one dating several guys, trying to find one to push Jack out of her mind. But it did not help. It absolutely didn't. Wherever she was, anything could make her think about him. Like the flies bumping against the windows, trying to get out. Oh how cute he was, talking about his bugs and minerals like they were his own babies.

STOP, she thought to herself while doing her morning routine on auto-pilot. She had to stop thinking about him. 'Move on', she told herself. It will never happen. It should never happen. Jack will never be hers, and she will never be his. This dreams is over, done, finito.

~~~~ 8:05 AM, the Hodgins residence~~~~

'Coffee, I need coffee' he though to himself. As he walked into the kitchen, he greeted Katy as she placed a plate in front of him. "Thanks Katy, I was already hoping for pancakes." He said. "I know you like pancakes Master Jack, you would never deny them." She replied while leaving him with his breakfast. It was not until then that he spotted the coffee and the newspaper in front of him.

Opening the paper, page 2 brought nothing but bad news. The economy was still in bad condition, and a girl had been killed because of jealousy. Page 3 was not any better. A university had been closed because of lack of financial support, leaving all the students helpless. And then, just as he wanted to close the paper, escaping the bad news, he spotted an advertisement. It was hard to miss actually. With bright red, pink and orange colors, roses and heart shaped figures made him smile.

'Are you just as madly in love like many other fellow Americans? Mail us with your and your loved ones information and we will help you get the love you deserve!'

Again with the love, it bothered him lately. All happy couples around him made him furious. He wanted love, and he deserved it. He was in love, and he deserved the love. But how? And when? Telling someone you loved them is not something one does on regular basis, at least not when…

His thoughts were broken of by the sound of a phone ringing. It was his, but it was the ringtone he had for just one person. 'Truly, madly, deeply' chimed through the room, waiting for someone to answer the call. On his way to the phone, he sang along.

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy. I'll be your hope, I'll be your love, be everything that you need. I'll love you more with every breath, truly, madly, deeply do. I will be strong, I will be faithful, because I'm counting on a new beginning, a reason for living, a deeper meaning, yeah. I want to stand with you on a mountain, I want to bathe with you in the sea. I want to lay like this forever, until the sky falls down on me.

Laughing about how much he hated his singing voice, he answered the call without looking at the caller-ID. He knew who it was after all.

"Hey Ange!" he smiled through the phone. She could hear him smile.

"Hey Hodgins." She answered, still not sure about her feelings.

"What's up Ange, you never call before work. Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine, don't worry. Just, my car gave up just as I wanted to head for work and Brennan is already there so I wondered.."

Cutting her off, he answered: "I'll pick you up Ange! I have to stop by the Diner anyways so it's on the route, no problem."

"Okay, thanks. I'll see you in about half an hour then?" she replied quickly, not sure what to think about his quick respond.

"Half an hour will do fine, see you Ange! Bye!"

"Bye."

Their phone call ended, and Hodgins had a grin on his face from ear to ear. Katy came to collect the dirty plate and coffee mug, carefully watching her boss. He walked towards her and gave her a hug, something he did not do regularly, knowing he shouldn't. But she was okay with it, he had saved her from living on the streets, so a hug was very welcome.

"Oh Katy, what a beautiful day must I say!" Jack almost sang through the room, heading towards his study to get his items.

~~~~8:45 AM, the red Mini~~~~

HONK HONK

As Hodgins honked, Zack came running from the garage and quickly hopped in the Mini, well, as quick as a man could. "We will be picking up Angela on the way, her car broke down." Hodgins said quickly, leaving the grad-student with no choice but agreeing since he had no car of his own. They headed to the Diner, picked up some coffee and made their way towards Angela's apartment, Hodgins knowing exactly where it was, since he had brought her home sometimes after she had a few drinks.

Soooo? You liked? You hated? I would be VERY happy to know what you thought, it always makes an author happy. And ideas for the story are more than welcome! Like I said, I don't even know where exactly this will go :)

And about the ending: yes, I know, not the best ending ever. I've always had trouble ending stories, I'll do my best, I promise!

See you at chapter 2!

xx