Disclamier: I own nothing, cause really if I did I would so have these boys locked up in my bedroom. Err, I mean it would be for innocent things only like playing Uno & Monopoly. Pst. Get your mind out of the gutter.

Part. One.

He and I, It's somethin' beautiful.
But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last.
loved him so but I let him go.
Cause I knew he'd never love me back.
-A Fine Frenzy

I watched him with curious eyes knowing if someone was watching me -Yeah right- I'd be giving off a serious stalker vibe.

Reid Garwin was a son of Ipswich. Bad Boy Womanizer extraordinaire all rolled up in those piercing blue eyes of his. Yet that wasn't why I watched him, I watched him because there were these fleeting moments where his masque slipped and you got a glimpse of someone who was more then that, more then what he pretended to be.

So here I was sitting in class with dozens of other students watching him with such an intense gaze that I could almost forget my surrounding.

"Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you… Miss Thomas-" Ah crap. My attention snapped to the our teacher Mr. Novak who was watching me with a smirk on his face. "Tell me Miss Thomas, Who said that?"

"Nietzsche" My voice cracked, I heard a few chuckles from my peers.

"And Miss Thomas what do you think he meant by this?"

I swallow hard and took a breath, I really hated talking in class.

"Well I think it can mean a lot of things, there are a lot of different perspectives of it"

"And your perspective would be?"

"Well, When Nietzsche said 'Battle not with monster, lest ye become a monster' I think simply he was saying that you take that chance of becoming what you fight-"

"Explain"

I looked up knowing my face was bright red hating the attention, though I was happy to see that Reid wasn't paying attention to me.

"Well-"

I stared then paused not believing I'm going to say this…

"Think of batman" Mr. Novak raised and eyebrow at me smirking, the peanut gallery chuckled again. I'm such a loser. "The whole time he's fighting crime he's walking a thin line of good and evil, black and white. While 'fighting' these villains he's taking a chance of making himself into a villain."

Mr. Novak smiled and said, "and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you"

I looked up once more only to my surprise to find Reid eyes on me. Getting a dash of courage I didn't know I had I looked into his eyes as I said, "Once you experience something so horrible it changes you. It becomes apart of who you are and there's never going back"

-*-*-

"Ell" I turned around and saw my roommate at Spenser walking towards me. I gave her a small smile, "Hey Kim"

"Did you hear?" She said smiling when she reached me at the top of the steps, "Hear what?" Her face fell for a short second replaced by another smile "There a party tonight at the dells"

Oh.

"Oh" She waved her hand ignoring my 'oh' "Your coming right?" she sounded so excited that for moment I almost said yes.

"I can't I have to get home." She gave me a small sad smile and patted my shoulder, "Well, Call me if you change your mind. See you later roomie" She said before bouncing down the steps.

I sighed wishing I could be that carefree and happy.

It was really hard not to like Kim. She was opens arms when I arrived at Spenser at the beginning of the year. No matter how many times I turned down and invite to party with her friends she was still there smiling and trying again.

I took three steps before my cell went off causing me too stop, the caller id read 'dad'

"Hello?"

"Hey pumpkin-" I smiled at my dad's nickname for me

"You haven't left school yet have you?" My smile fell, "I'm just leaving now, I'm still on the steps actually, Why what's up?"

"Well" I could hear the uneasiness in his voice, "It just er, Lisa seems to think this dinner should be more formal"

"So I should bring a dress?" I asked wishful, though I knew what he was getting at.

"Well, Er. It seems she thinks you kids shouldn't come" I shut my eyes keeping back my tears. Ever since my father remarried he all but kicked me out of his life.

From sending me to Spenser to the 'maybe it's better you don't come back this weekend' excuses that Lisa his wife, my wicked stepbitch of mother came up with. I hadn't seen my father in a month.

I tried my best to sound pleasant, "Sure dad that's fine. I have a lot of work to get caught up with anyways"

"Good good." His voice was more happy then it had been before.

"Anyways Dad' I have to get going"

"Oh sure, well I love you Gabriella. See you soon"

Click.

"Love you too dad" I said to no one knowing he had already hung up.

I sat on the steps of Spenser not caring that I was getting my skirt dirty, I looked up at the hazy sky. The mist of rain that fell felt good against my face.

"Hey Sis" I jumped putting my hand over my scared heart. I didn't have to look up to see who it was, The sarcasm in his voice said it all "Do you have to be such a jerk?" I asked looking at anything but him, "Can't help it just my natural charm."

I rolled my eyes, "Charm. That's a new name for it"

"You ready to go?" He asked amusement laced his voice, I looked up at him and frowned, "Go where?"

"To the house?" he said it like I was a three year old.

"Dad called me and said that we weren't allowed" He raised an eyebrow at me, "Well my mom just called me to make sure I wasn't late"

Of course.

"Yo Aaron" I looked up and saw Paul Roberson won of Aarons groupies calling to him Aaron looked at me then back at Paul with a wink he was gone.

I shook my head and got up wanting nothing more then to just leave this school and this town. Not only had Lisa took my father from me but she also had the audacity of giving me Aaron Abbot as a stepbrother.

Another week alone and working on my music.

Yup. My life was just peachy.

Gah. I know I have other stories that need working on *pouts* I just couldn't help it. Darn these boys for being so irresistible
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