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A/N: I heard this song and well I thought of DC ok it's a one shot fic at this point. Basically it's set five years since the finale. Pacey doesn't run Civilization he never graduated H.S. He left Capeside the day of graduation to pursue a music career this is Pacey's POV after coming back to Capside after being gone for 12 years. Read and review if you hate it fine if you love it great.
" flight 218 from Capside will be landing soon, please fasten your seat belts and have your trays in an upright position and prepare for landing." the flight attendant announces over the intercom
Pacey walks off the plane his hair is a bit longer than he normally keeps it. He's unshaven he walks over to the baggage claim area and picks up his bags.
He places his things in the cab and gets in
" where to kid?" the cabie asks Pacey
" 29th and Vine please." Pacey replies
" ok." the taxi drives away and Pacey is sitting in the back and pulls out a photo from his pocket it's one of him, Joey, and Dawson when they were 16.
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head
Pacey stares at the photo and then looks out the window.
Flashback to junior prom
" I've been meaning to ask you something all night." Joey walks up to where Pacey's sitting
" what that might be?" Pacey looks at Joey
" will you dance with me." Joey holds her hand out
" sure." Pacey takes her hand and they begin to sway to the music
" why does this feel so right?" Pacey asks holding her close
" I don't know maybe it's all those dance lesson we took." Joey shakes her head and smiles
" where'd you get those, they're not you." Pacey asks taking her ear in his hand and looking at the diamond earring
" why cause Dawson gave them to me, or because I'm just poor tomboy?" Joey ask offended by Pacey's question
" neither. See this is you, it's not showy or gaudy just simple." Pacey runs a finger through the bracelet
" it was my mom's" Joey says quietly
" I know." Pacey says
" how did you -"
" you told me about six months ago, you were wearing that sweater the one with the snowflakes and I was giving you a hard time and you said look Pacey I just found my mothers bracelet will you cut me some slack." Pacey describes
" you remember that?" Joey says in almost a whisper
" I remember everything Jo." Pacey whispers in her ear.
" this it kid." the cabie tells him
" huh?" Pacey shakes his head
" your stop, we're here." the cabie tells him
" oh, thanks man." Pacey hands him a twenty and walks out of the cab and takes a deep breath.
And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out
Pacey walks up to the door and goes inside he walks up the stairs and sits on the bed and leans back.
" man this place has changed so much. I always thought I'd be the one to sweep her off her feet, I guess I was wrong." Pacey closes his eyes
flashback to True Love
Joey comes running as fast as she can towards True Love looking for Pacey
" Pacey! Pacey! Pacey! Pacey! ( Joey climbs aboard the boat and looks inside) Pace! Pacey!"
" you want something Jo?" Pacey comes around from the other side of the pier
" I want to talk to you!"
" nope, no it's a bit late for this now. I'm leaving, you can't stop me, so don't even try."
" no, that's not why I'm here."
" So why are you here?" Pacey climbs aboard the boat " maybe you want to rub it in a little bit, huh? Pacey jumps off the boat and unties it from the dock
"Look, I don't want to stop you, Pacey. And I don't want to stop Dawson, and I don't want to be stopped. Not by either of you, not by anyone. See, I mean, that's what this whole year's been about. We've been trying to stop each other from moving on and from growing up. But not you. You're different. And you've challenged me every step of the way and you've been there every step of the way."
walking past her " Jo, departure time is in T-minus 30 seconds, so if there's a point, I suggest you get to it." he climbs back aboard. Joey thinks for a second, then turns around
" I think I'm in love with you."
with his back towards Joey "You think or you know?"
" I know." Pacey turns to look at Joey "I've known it since the moment you kissed me and maybe even before that. As scary as it is, I don't want to deny it anymore, Pacey. I don't want to run from it and I don't want to let it run from me."
" So… what are we going to do here, Jo?"
" I want to come with you."
" What? Are you crazy?"
" I want to stop standing still, I want to move forward, I want to come with you."
" What about Bessie and the B&B? They need you."
" Not as much as I need you, Pacey "
He smiles at her, she smiles back. She takes this as a yes and tries to climb aboard.
stopping her "Uh uh uh uh!"
smiling, raising her hand up to his "Permission to come aboard?"
" Permission granted." he takes her hand and she climbs aboard. They kiss. "You can swim, can't you?"
" man that seems like a lifetime ago." Pacey remembering the time on True Love Pacey walks towards the house and goes inside Pacey looks at the pictures on the wall
" there was a time that she used to come to me, now she comes to you." Pacey walks up the stairs and goes inside a room and opens the closet door he pulls out an old photo album and sits on the bed and looks through the pictures.
And this is where I went to school
Most of the time I had better things to do
Criminal records said I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times
He looks at a photo from when Andie left Capeside
flashback to Leery's Fresh Fish conversation between Him and Joey
"You know who that guy you reacted like is going to be in 10 years, Pace? The person who knows me best. Dawson knows my past. My future lies with you. Think about it, you know you didn't even like me three years ago."
"Well, you always tease the ones you love." they smooch
"And you do always have to deal with the ones you used to love." Pacey looks off to the dining area where Dawson is talking to Andie. He nods and Joey kisses his forehead
back to current time " if my future was with you then why am I here and you're with him?" Pacey whispers to himself Pacey continues to flip through the book." I keep thinking that one day you'll realize that he's not the one." Pacey lowers his head " but I know that day will never come." Pacey gets up and place the book back in the closet and leaves the house. Pacey takes a cigarette out of his pocket and lights it and starts to walk down the street he's still holding the picture of him, Joey, and Dawson
Flash back to prom
"You know... last year... I felt like I could give you something that no one else could give you. I could give you that wall to paint your mural on. I could take you away on a sailboat for a summer. I could even give you that night in the ski lodge. But I don't feel like I have anything left to give you now, Jo. I guess I'm spent. I've become a man who hates himself so much he can't even look at his own reflection in the mirror, and I wish that I could tell you that being with you doesn't make that worse, but it does... because the more that you love me in spite of that, the angrier that I get at you... and the more that I stop loving you back."
" How long have you felt this way? " Joey asks
" I don't know, but I know it's not right, and I know that, that my failures and my shortcomings don't really have anything to do with you, but I-- I also know that if we stay together I am going to continue to take them out on you." Pacey shrugs his shoulders
"You know, I've got news for you, Pacey, how you treat me is actually totally in your power."
" You know... our senior year is over now, and you and I are just 2 very different people on 2 very different paths, and for us this summer there is no boat, and there is no sunset. There is just Boston and Capeside."
"But, Pacey, they're less than an hour apart."
" And are more than a world apart, and you know it. You've spent your entire life trying to get out of Capeside, Joey, because you felt like you deserved better. Well, I am Capeside. That's why I didn't get out and you did, and you do deserve better. You deserve better than this place, and you deserve better than me."
" You break my heart into a thousand pieces, and you say it's because I deserve better? Just... leave me alone."
" Ok." he gets up and walks away.
" man what was I thinking I know she deserves better than me, I can't stop thinking about our senior prom and how I made her feel I know that she forgave me but I have never gotten past that we were not suppose to end like that." Pacey take a drag off his cigarette and picks up a rock and throws it.
I wonder if its too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life's better now then it was back then
Oh oh oh
Oh god I
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo albums spread on my bedroom floor
Its hard to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
Its hard to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye
" I know I know I should be over it by now ( pause ) I'm not and I never will be and that's the way it will always be. I guess you could say we got the proper ending I guess my point is we should've never had an ending, you and me always and forever I thought, maybe it was you, ( shakes his head ) no it was me I was too insecure to see that you and Dawson were friends and you were with me because you wanted to be not because you felt pity towards me, what am I thinking here? I know she loved me she loved me more than anyone person could ever love, so why'd she choose him?" Pacey continues to walks down the street taking in the different places and then he sees a woman come out of a store she's tall has long dark hair with her is a young girl about 8 or so Pacey watches as the woman and child walk towards him. She nearly walks into him
" excuse me sir." the woman says to Pacey
" hmmm, no excus...Joey is that-you?" Pacey starts to say
" Pacey?" Joey looks at him in shock
" um...sweetie can you take these to the car for mommy?" Joey hands her daughter a bag
" ok mommy." the girl walks to the car
" so, umm how have you been?" Joey ask awkwardly
" good I guess." Pacey says in a somber tone
I'm miserable without you Jo Pacey thinks to himself
" that's good, well hey it's great to see you I have to get Anna to dance class." Joey says
" yeah I've got to get going to it was great to see you Jo." Pacey says as he walks off
Pacey Witter the man who left you so long ago is back and all you can say is hi damn Joey what were you thinking? Joey thinks to herself and goes to her car
" mommy who was that guy?" Anna asks
" just an old friend." Joey says as she looks out the window with a sad look
Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated ups hanging out
They say somebody went and burned it down
Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when
Pacey continues to walk down the road " of all the people in this town I had to run into Joey Potter excuse me Leery no... Potter she will always be my Joey Potter never will I accept her as a Leery." Pacey looks at Joey's car drive down the street and Pacey looks at the picture " one day soon Joey one day."
Ok I hope you liked this fic I'm thinking about going further, what do you think should I continue any ideas thoughts let me know.