Ok I took my break. A whole 9 hours! I'm rested up and ready to start the sequel. Now this story has lyrics in it mostly from Evanescence (bcuz I happened to be in that mood while writing it) so if you have the cd "Fallen" by Evanescence, listen to it. It really helps with the mood of this story. ;)

After I finish this story, I am doing it from Edward's pov bcuz a lot happened to him without Bella there so plan on a...threequel? Is that what it's called? Well whatever.

Now onto the the sequel......preface! Just a taste of the mood to expect. Please leave a review despite the short length. Thank you.

Song used: My Immortal - Evanescence

"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew."

What is death? Death is losing something close to you, whether it be a part of yourself, a friend, a past life, a memory; all equally painful in their own way. But how painful can death be if you don't remember life? How painful can death be if you want death? If you crave for it to come and take you away from the real pain. Life. How painful can death really be then?

I often thought about death while laying in my cell, staring at the stone ceiling. Death was an easy thought, unlike life. Life was filled with endless questions, but death was simply...dead. Nothing to question, nothing to talk about. Like a dead end, you don't look for a way out of a dead end except back the way you came. But it didn't work that way, life. No, a dead end was a dead end. You can't reverse life, you can only hope it's not what it seems. That it is, in fact, not a dead end, but a hidden path, but that was rare in any circumstances.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

I would do anything for a reversal on life. I would apologize to all the people I hurt, I would never have thrown that rock at Adam's window, I would never have said goodbye to Edward. Because of all that, Adam was dead and Edward, my Edward, was gone. Not dead, no, that was too easy a way out. He was a new person. He had no idea who any of us were; not Jasper or Alice...or me. He was gone. He now wore a black cloak and his once golden, beautiful eyes, were crimson red. He was Edward, member of the Volturi.

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

That thought brought my knees to my chest in a fetal position every time. I didn't plan on living long now, anyway. It was only a matter of time before they grow tired and kill me.

Only time. That's all I had, time and memories to fill it with. Memories I had plenty of of, but I never ventured into them. They were too painful. Jasper, in the cell over, would try desperately to calm me, rarely succeeding.

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

There were only two emotions I felt these days: misery and nothing. Nothing was becoming the dominant emotion, soon even despair would cease to exist within me, just like my hope. That was the first to go, right after joy and love.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Even though I never visited my past, I knew it was there. And knowing that gave me the air I breathed every day.....