My first Glee fanfic, so please be gentle. I may continue this but I'm not sure. This is basically the result of my women writers lecture and the fact that I learn nothing in that class other than the teacher has a horrific taste in novels. So anyway enjoy and let me know if you think I should continue it.
It wasn't hard to see why he would want to spend time with Sebastian instead of him; he was handsome, confident and knew about the world. Everything that Jeff wasn't. He looked on, stomach turning when Sebastian's hand found Nick's bare forearm. The casual flirting had been building up for weeks, starting with shared jokes until it developed into casual touches. Jeff attempted to pull his attention back to Trent's latest theory.
"…So personally. I think you should go over there, grab Nick, pin him against the wall and have your wicked way with him."
"What?" Jeff asked, brain still struggling to catch up with the conversation.
"Well, let the rest of us get out of here first but I still think you should mark your territory, would Kurt be backing off like this?" Trent continued, unfazed by Jeff confusion.
"I have no idea what you are talking about." Jeff insisted, adamantly looking away from Nick and Sebastian.
"We're not still playing that game, are we? I'm not an idiot, Jeff." Jeff stood up abruptly.
"I'm going to go do my reading for tomorrow." He walked to the room he shared with Nick. He'd have at least an hour to pull himself together before Nick would peel himself away from Sebastian. Jeff went into the bathroom, splashing his face; he squared up to the man in the mirror.
"You are not in love with him. You don't care if he wants to be with Sebastian. You don't care." Every sentence caused another tear to slide down his face. "Stop this! You don't love him."
"Jeff? Are you in here?" Nick's voice floated in from the main room. Jeff quietly wiped his face clean; thanking whatever was out there that his face wasn't read.
"Yeah, in the bathroom."
"You okay?"
"Fine, just tired. I think I'm going to have a nap." He replied, moving around to make it sound like he was doing something.
"Jeff, would you come out of there and please talk to me?" Nick asked, Jeff sighed, moving into the main room. "Finally, you've been weird lately. So what's up?"
"Are you and Sebastian dating?" Jeff asked. Nick's reaction was all the answer he needed, he blushed and looked down. "He'll hurt you, Nick." Nick's head shot up, a stirring of anger coming into his eyes.
"You don't know that." Nick's voice rising from his previous gentle tone.
"Look at what he did to Blaine! Look at all the different men he has been with!"
"Why can't you all see that he has changed, he's trying to be better."
"You deserve better…"
"Yeah, like who?" Nick's voice exploded. "No one else wants me! Sebastian is the only the person who looks at me like that."
"Idiot." Jeff muttered.
"Oh, so I'm an idiot now, am I?" Nick's voice going dangerously quiet.
"Yes, you are! I want you! I have always looked at you like that! You never noticed; you never even gave me a second look. I love you. I've loved you for years but every time I tried to tell you, you never understood." He looked down, a few tears dripping down from his eyes. He only looked up when he felt a hand clasp his.
"Is that all true, Jeff?" Nick asked quietly.
"Yes." He felt a hand turn his face, he saw Nick move towards until he had the common sense to close his eyes. He felt Nick's lips meet his. It was everything, everything he had thought it would be, well a little wetter than he imagined, in his fantasies he had not been crying.
"You have got to be kidding me!" Sebastian's voice drifted through the room, causing the two boys to spring apart. "And everyone thought I would be the one to hurt you. I tried Nick, I really did." Sebastian turned around and stormed away from the room.
After Sebastian left, Nick deflated, his head going down.
"What are you going to do?" Jeff asked him, trying to keep the nerves out of his voice. Right now, Nick needed his friend, not more confusion.
"I don't know. I like Sebastian and he is really trying to change but…"
"But?"
"He isn't you." Nick stated, looking up into Jeff's eyes. "I don't want to be the reason he becomes horrid again. What do I do, Jeffy?"
"Nick, I can't give you answer. I know what answer I want to hear but you're the only one who can decide. But no matter what you choose, I'm still going to be here." Jeff pulled Nick into a hug. "I'll give you some space, if you'd like. So you can decide without me breathing down your neck."
Nick nodded slightly, he had no idea which one to choose, he loved Jeff but Sebastian was really beginning to change. He didn't want to hurt either of them.