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All For You.
Chapter 1.
Dougie's P.O.V.
Here I am, sat in our flat, the one we bought when we had to leave, when we had to get away from it all. Away from all the pain we had caused to the ones we loved, away from all the people whose hearts we'd crushed. We wanted to start all over again, just me and you, no one there to judge us or keep us from each other.
That day, the day I decided to choose you over everything and everyone else that meant something to me. I left the perfect life, I had the most amazing friends ever, the most beautiful girlfriend in the world and my dream was coming true. I was absolutely stupid that day because I had only you to rely on and I believed that you would be all I would ever need, all I would ever have. All of the pain seemed to leave when your lips touched mine, when I looked in to your deep, deep blue eyes.
But I wasn't the only one who lost everything was I? You did too. You just tried to be strong for me, to show me that you believed in everything we ever were, you kept your doubts hidden inside to protect me, to keep me from hurting. You made me believe in things that I never thought would happen, things that made me feel like the happiest man on Earth. You said that everything that we had done was worth it because it would hurt so much more to lose me than it did to lose them; you said that's why you choose me.
But I know you were lying, weren't you, Danny Jones? Of course you were, otherwise you would still be here now. You wouldn't have left me the minute things became a tiny bit difficult, you knew I would be crushed inside but you made me think that it was for the best. You fucked with my head, you messed me up and then left me, left me when I was at my most vulnerable.
You say you were hurt, bullshit. You have no idea what pain feels like Danny Jones.
Danny's P.O.V.
All of the songs that were playing on the radio reminded me of you, reminded me of your smile, your laugh, your eyes, that's why I had to turn the radio off because I couldn't see, my eyes were watery and full of my salty tears. The only problem is, even when it's silent, I can think of nothing but you. You gave me the one thing that everyone else had failed to provide me with. I can't even begin to explain how sorry I am for leaving the way I did, how sorry I am for leaving at all but I swear on my life, it was best for everyone, you, me and everyone else.
I just couldn't bear to stay, I knew I would end up cracking from the pressure that would have been weighing down on me, the pressure of all the pain, we had caused, well the pain that I had caused mostly. I knew that I would end up hurting you a thousand times more than I would ever hope, want, need to but it had to be done. I know the question that will be on your mind. Am I going back to her? I'm truly sorry to say this but I am, I'm going back to her but I promise that I will never forget you and how happy you made me for the rest of my life. I will always keep you with me for as long as I live.
I know that you're going to find out where I am eventually but you don't have to know yet, not straight away. I just want to tell you one thing, please don't come after me Dougie, no matter how much you want to, don't come after me. Forget about me. Actually, no, don't forget about me but just forget about us, don't hold on to the memory of us, hold on to the memory of me and don't ever let it go. I hate to be the one to cause you this heart-break but again, I'm sorry.
I know there is no way that you can hear any of this because you can't read minds but remember, I will always love you, Dougie Poynter.