Come In With The Rain

I've been trying to get my mind off of him. He's been gone for months, he might never come back. I sure hope he does.

I've replayed every memory we've made together in my head at least a dozen times each. I think that may be driving me crazy.

I thought going into his cabin and seeing his stuff would help, but it just made me miss him even more.

I've tried asking my mom for wisdom and strength, but so far nothing has come yet. Chiron has been no help either. He says I should concentrate on training. Not happening. Not until we find him, at least.

I'm getting tired of sitting around and waiting for him to find his way home. I know he'll find it, but it won't be soon enough.

We tried looking for him for two months. Since then, we've sorta figured if he wants to find his way back, he will. The negative ones meant if he's alive, but I sort of hope he's trapped somewhere, because if he is, he'll find a way out.

Clarisse has tried helping me the way she helped Silena when Beckendorf... Well, you know, but it hasn't helped any. Everyone's trying to be supportive, but I guess I just seem like Silena all over again to them. Or at least that's how I feel.

Rachel has been as inconsolable as me when got to camp for her school break. She had a thing with him for awhile, but she ended it when she became the oracle. I guess since they were so close and all she would be upset, but I love that boy. I don't really like it how she can't get out of bed sometimes.

I could write a book on all of the things I know about him. He's rude, reckless, and relentless, and any other r's you can think of. He's smart and quick, but thanks to his ADHD, he makes decisions without thinking about it for even a second. He's my best opponent, and even though I beat him every time, I think sometimes he lets me win.

I wrote a poem. I don't write poetry ever, but I think it's a sign Apollo is watching over me and assuring me he's alive, even though he's not supposed to.

Thalia has come to camp twice since he's gone missing. According to her, the hunters are asking around as they travel. It's more than we're doing. It's like,"Hey. We just stopped in town, are you alright? Oh, hey, you haven't seen this kid have you?". Every time she's visited, it wasn't with good news.

Where are you Percy? Why haven't you come home? Please come home soon. I miss you. We all miss you.

Love, Wise Girl.