Disclaimer: I'm still in high school so I own nothing but books I wish I was talented enough to write and all the poems I have written including the one listed in this story.
Poem
"Speech"
Flashback
This is just a short one-shot I'm putting up before I start working on Behind My Smile. I may be tempted to make it a two-shot if I get good reviews and requests. Enjoy.
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Taught you how to love
Harry Potter was sitting on a window remembering the first time he told Severus Snape he loved him. The two had become close friends during the training for war and even now three years later they remained friends. Severus was talking about one thing or another and all Harry could think about was kissing those smirking lips and making him his.
"Albus wears the most horrid robes, I think I've become blinder every day just looking at him," said Severus, smirking to hide his smile and affection for the barmy old man. He looked over to Harry who had obviously not heard a word he said.
"What has you dazing about and staring as if you have no manners?"
"I love you," Harry blurts out while looking around and blushing.
Of course Severus didn't believe me at first, it took me a rather long time to prove to him that I loved him and that he was deserving of it. After that we were off. I showed him how to love and to open his heart up, we were the happiest couple.
Showed you how to smile
Severus never smiled, wouldn't allow himself to. I helped him, showed him it is okay to smile and laugh. It took him a while to learn; he feared being hurt so he kept everything that made him happy inside so no one could take it away. Eventually Severus was there, laughing at my blunders and smiling at those he cared for. Those were my favorite times, watching him smile.
But you gave it to another
Twinkling eyes included
After a while I noticed that his smiles didn't quite reach his eyes when around me anymore. He laughed less and was gone longer. I was worried and didn't know what to do so I followed him one night. Imagine my surprise when I saw them together, arms linked together and laughing, he had a twinkle that I hadn't seen in a while in his eyes while he stared at someone that was most definitely not me. Remus Lupin with Severus Snape, who would've thought?
I was always there for you
Through thick and thin I stood by him, always there when he needed a hand.
A shoulder to lean on
Sometimes we would just sit. Severus would rest his head on my shoulder and relax and all our problems would melt away. It was just the two of us and we were happy.
And a pillow to catch your tears
When we both discussed our childhoods Severus cried, for the loss of his childhood as well as mine. I just held onto him and told him it was okay to cry and wiped away all his tears.
Woke up at night just to soothe your fears
"Harry!" Severus shouted in the midst of another nightmare. "Please no, don't be dead, no, I need you!"
"Shush it's alright, I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere, it was all just a bad dream," says Harry, trying to soothe Severus. "Everything is alright, I'm right here and I'll never leave you."
I love you
And I know you must've loved me
I could see it in his eyes and hear it in his voice. The first time he told me he loved me I knew it was true.
But after seeing you with him
I don't think our love was meant to be
All I can picture now is them laughing together and talking as if they've known each other forever. There was a definite bounce in his step when he came home that night. I just smiled and acted like it didn't pain me to see it.
So I guess this is goodbye
My heart can't take the sorrow
I'm packing my bags because I don't want the light to leave his eyes tomorrow. I love him so much and I just want him happy. Even though my heart is shattering I'll deal with it knowing he'll keep on smiling even if I'm not the one causing him his joy.
Maybe one day we can meet again
And reminiscence about everything that made us laugh
Maybe one day, not too soon, we can hang out again over a couple of beers. We can talk about the past, the silly things that made us laugh. He would talk about my famous mishaps while in school and I would laugh and talk about a scary greasy bat that was always there to protect me.
Taught you how to love
Showed you how to smile
Wiped away your tears
Helped chase away your fears
Maybe it wasn't enough, or just a bit too much. I guess I'll never know because I'm leaving. Leaving while Severus is away, I don't think I'd be able to do it to his face. I'll write a goodbye letter and leave it on the desk. No one will notice until I'm long gone.
Dear Severus,
I love you, I truly do, so I must walk away from this and let you have your happiness. I saw you with Remus and it tore me up inside, you smiled at him like you haven't smiled at me in a while. I won't stay in a relationship with you if it is making you unhappy. You are my everything but if Remus is now the one that makes your eyes twinkle and your toes curl I shall never be angry. Promise me you'll think of me once in a while, I know you'll never leave my mind.
Yours always and forever,
Harry
Taught you how to love
Showed you how to smile
"Goodbye Severus"
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Please R&R! This is my first fanfic ever and I'd appreciate some insight on my writing. I might write another chapter about what was going on with Severus and his reaction to Harry's letter if I get enough requests but until then I leave everything up to your imagination. I currently have no beta so all mistakes are my own.