AAAHH! *runs* FIRST FIC!

So.. You might wanna know a little more about this before ou read it, huh?

AHEM.

Summary: Break ups are never easy. Especially when they were the only people keeping you alive. Aoi's POV

Warnings: Yaoi, Angst, Swearing, Self-Harm, etc etc _

Pairings: Uruha/Aoi, Reita/Kai, Aoi/?

Disclaimer: THE GAZETTE ARE MINE! Just kidding. They're not. But if they were... *evil smile* c:

The only thing I own is the story okay? ^_^

now it's time to read! If you want to. It'd be nice. Please. 3

Prologue

You told me you wouldn't hurt me.

You told me you loved me.

You told me you'd protect me.

So why are you doing this?

I call out your name as you walk away from me.

I try to grab your shoulder but I'm too weak.

"Please.. Uruha.. I'm sorry, I-"

I'm cut off by you, who turns around and looks into my eyes.

You're crying.

I watch you silently as tears flood down your cheek.

I watch you wipe your eyes, taking a deep breath.

I watch you stare at me, your expression unreadable.

"Aoi.. Don't." Is all you say as you turn around again and start to walk.

You become a blur as my tears start to fill my eyes.

I must not give up.

I blink, and a tear falls down my face.

I run up to you.

Grabbing your shoulder I force you to turn around.

I'm getting impatient as unwanted tears fall heavy.

Despite everything, you stop and gaze into my eyes.

I try and talk to you.

"I-.. I love you, Uruha.."

You sigh, your eyes swelled from crying.

I knew this day would come, but I never knew it would happen like this.

"Don't tell me you love me. You shouldn't mean it."

Your voice is raised as your breathing gets more ragged.

You take a deep breath and continue.

"Aoi, I don't love you anymore. What we had.. is all over.

Find someone else."

The words I've been dreading, you finally speak.

You grab your bag, and head to the front door, slamming it as hard as you can.

You're probably going to find someone new and get over this, right?

I'm not.

I collapse to my knees on the cold, wooden floor.

I shout as loud as I can, hoping he hears me.

"URUHA! I'm sorry! Please, can you forgive me? This once? I promise I'll be better! I promise.. please.."

I start to cry louder than I did before.

He's gone.

The love of my life.

Gone.

Forever.

I can't take this.

I feel myself becoming numb.

I pick myself up, blinded by my tears and head for the kitchen.

You're the only hope I had..

I take out a large knife.

I cradle it in my hands, admiring the sharp edges.

You don't love me anymore..

I'm smiling.

My old addiction has returned, larger than ever.

I hold the knife in my left hand, and examine my right arm.

It's covered in scars.

I did these because of you, Uruha..

I start to laugh.

I can't control it.

My body's shaking and I almost drop the knife.

A few minutes pass before I regain control of myself.

I grip the knife firmly.

I hope death's better..

No one's here apart from me.

No one cares either.

I think about leaving a note, but it would take too long.

I want to get this over and done with.

Uruha.. Why can't you understand?

I raise the knife slowly in the air.

I slowly count to three.

Then, I hammer it onto my right arm, as hard as I can.

I'm dying for you..

I fall to the floor.

The pain is agonising but it will all be over.

I look around me.

Blood is pouring out of my wound rapidly.

I love you, Uruha.

I hear a scream.

It's either me or someone else, but..

Who would care about me?

I drop the knife on the floor, already too weak to hold it anymore.

My body is becoming more, and more numb by the second.

Counting my last breaths, my vision slowly goes black.