A huge party was thrown at Vanessa's mansion. Yes, she's truly an unbelievable rich chic, thanks to her parents who have always indulged what she wanted. There're no reasons I would be interested in showing up at the party except for Chloe wanting me to. Actually there's nothing for me to do there. I hate being surrounded by all mean lavish chics in such fancy party, they're all bitch around; but the music here was undeniably awesome. I like Van's taste of music.
[Chlo]: Are you alright there?
[Me]: Awesome! Music is mind blowing;)
I looked across the room where my "partners in crime" standing with her new bae who paid no actual attentions to her but her friends. That explained why she texted me.
[Chlo]: Meet me at the balcony?
I grabbed a couple cup of beers before approaching her at the balcony. Handed her the beer and we all leaned at the ledge
– So what's there lovebird? – I chimed in
– Nothing. Just want some fresh air. In there is so packed – She looked at no certain points
– Did you guy have the first fight? – I teased
She shook her head violently "No way! I just think…", hesitantly she continued
– Yeah? – I raised my eyebrows for it. She was barely hesitated on whatever she was about to tell me
– Is it ok with you? I mean, we're together, thank to you…
– You silly! I'm so happy for you. No matter what you do, I'll totes support you!
"No, I'm totally pissed because of the whole thing in here. I'm fucking jealous now! She has everything that I don't. She has fancy car, huge as fuck mansion in the heart of the state, a bungalow right on the coast side, a studio to run.. And, now, she has you. My girl" – I thought to myself.
Her eyes lit in the semi-dark balcony as I finished my sentence
– I know; you are the best! – She leaned on, pulled me into a bone-crushing hug and kissed me on the cheek.
– Hey gorgeous, I've been looking for you! – Van appeared from nowhere, right behind Chloe. "And hey, you are here, too. I'm so thankful that you came along with us tonight. You are my greatest friend to give me such a chance to meet the most beautiful woman in the world here!"
– It's always a pleasure to have friends in relationship! I'm happy for you – I playfully slapped on Van's shoulder
– So, we're going inside to have some mind-blown dance; will you join?
– Oh, thanks. I'm gonna stay out here a little more – I smirked
Chloe blushed as Van leaned on to kiss her, and took her hands leading her back to the party-room
I was fighting with my inner voice to calm myself down, to hold back the tears that were bound to shed.. I'm not crying –Looking to nowhere, I had my thought wander back to the day we first met
It was my birthday, when I invited my whole gang to come around, where she accidentally happened to be near, so, of course, she got invited, too. We had great party at my favorite restaurant. It was so weird that I invited her to my birthday party; I'm kind of "anti-social" that time I don't really into getting to know new people.
She was standing alone enjoyed the cello music on the background while everybody else had already moved to the next room to dance and sing. The image of a girl isolating herself from the crowd really hit my brain that moment. Actually, I didn't want anyone of my guests to be abandoned on my party, so I decided to approach her
– Hey! You seem really into instrumental music, like cello – I gestured, tried to start the conversation in a not-weird way
– Yeah, it's amazing! I love cello and violin. This place is superb! – She exclaimed my choice of place
– Thanks! It's true. This is such an amazing place. I love everything in here. Their styles, music, views, and mostly their food!
I was amazed by the fact that we got along quite easily. It's not always easy for me to talk to other people, but to her, it's different. There are so many topics we'd mentioned, and it's weird that we have a lot of things in common: the love we both share for food, taste of music, literature, and wandering the city – you can see that I'm a little artistic.
Then we started to hang out with each other, like, almost every day after my birthday. We've become really fast friend, like she said. We did.
Gradually, for like three months she broke my wall which I barely let anyone in; got my credit which I have never give to anyone. I felt like I can tell her everything, can summarize my whole life for her in a very simple, plain way. Every moment of my life that phase was shared with her, or at least, told to her. I didn't know she had become my best friend from since on.
I was pulled away from my thought to the nightmare of the present as Stacie came to me. I finished the beer I brought earlier with one sip
– Hey, Shorty! It seems like you still have feelings for her?
– I don't know Stace. It's so ridiculous here and there. I've been through many relationships, but every time I was with them, she's the only image that popped into my head. Her bubbled, childish, but really thoughtful characteristics.. I wonder if she felt the same way that I have. She always gives me mixed-signals, at least, her words – My words broken as all the memories flooded back
– I have no idea, Short, how the hell on Earth you didn't tell her any of that? Like, you have the time of whole world to tell her! We share our apartment; you guys go out together all the time.
– Is there any points doing that? I've had so many chances to speak it up, but I just couldn't. I saw her fall in and out of love before, the whole time, how excited she is in a newly formed relationship, and how broken she is after a breakup. I don't want to be the rebound, or take any advantage of her broken heart. Plus, I don't wanna ruin our friendship for my feelings, apparently unrequited. She might freak out if she knew how I felt toward her. She might run away, maybe? I don't know, either, Stace. I don't even understand myself.
– You better tell her ASAP!
– Dumped idea. That will ruin her very beginning relationship… And piss our friendship, which I'm dying to keep all these years. I can't lose her
– You're losing her. I cannot stand seeing my little Shorty broken like this. – She frowned a bit at the sentence.
– Anyways, I'll no longer be in here. It'd better me remain this in silence, as well our friendship
– Where are you planning to go? Are you avoiding her?
– No, I'm not avoiding her.. maybe, yes, I am. I cannot stand it. Like, I'm all into her, and now, she ends up falling for my friend who I happened to introduce to her. The way they look into each other's eyes. The ways they tell each other jokes (Which I barely understand/ see the funny parts! For God's sake! There's a serious problem with Vaness' sense of humor). The way their hands touch.. For more than 5 years and she has never looked at me the way she looks at her. I'm dying jealous of Vanessa. They show their affections for each other whenever I'm getting near, that's killing me deeply inside. I cannot stand the sight. Not anymore, Stace – I sighed, obviously in despair
Stace looked at me, I knew, she felt pity for me for all that time, for what I'd been through, for remaining my love unspoken all these years long. Somewhat the hopeless grief in my voice radiated her
– I know you can do what you want to do. I believe that you can. Just be wise, baby, at least try once, to tell her how you feel about her. Give it a shot!
– Perhaps, I'll tell her before I move to LA
– Ah, congrats by the way! I told you, you're awesome. You can have whatever the hell you want when you put your mind in it. Moving to LA to pursuit your dream of isn't an easy thing for everyone, and you did it! I'm so proud of you, little weirdo.
– Thank you stace
The bubbly girl, again, as her usual thing, invaded my room without knocking the door, which caused me merely a heart attack.
– Hey grumpy! You have been in your room like almost 12 hours now! And I'm starving, can we just go out and grab some food?
– I thought we were all taught about the knocking. I'm busy, Chlo! Ask Aubrey or Stace to go with you – I frowned
– We are not going anywhere without you, dude! – She's very persistent
– Ok. I'm drowning in my hell of graduate papers and you dragged me to the food stall! At which point, I can order my fave pizza.. – faked a grumpy face
Made a guilty face, and her legendary puppy eyes, Chlo begged
– Please! Don't be cruel to my tummy
– Like you are not! – I gave in and stood up, let her drag me out of my room.
We headed to El Gaucho, our favorite place, which serves the perfect steak in the world. Most of the time, Chloe just chattered some "nonsense" stories – to me, at least, for that moment. We updated our recent stories, of course Stace and I avoided mentioning my moving plan.
– The cutest thing about Van is like she's completely a blank paper. Very innocent, you know, in a super nice way! Last week, we went on a date, and told her about my embarrassing experience with my brother; she can't help but jaw dropped. That's face!
"Fuck! Van again!" – I screamed on my head. I was damn pissed off, and poisoned by the name of my friend, whose name I am now not in the mood to listen about, the whole 3 months now. Every single day. After waking up, before going to sleep, on meals, at shopping malls.. Everywhere. Any time!
Forced a quirky smile on my face,
– Well, easy here! Breathe weirdo! Haha. Mentioning her always takes your breaths away in that way – I chuckled, adored her enthusiasm
– She's damn cute! – She giggled every single time THAT name was mentioned. Obviously neither of me nor Stace raised the topic about her.
"You seem fucking happy in your relationship right now, Chlo! How can I tell you?" – I bitterly learned the information
– The foods are ready, girl! Kill them! – stace diverted the conversation. As if she could read the struggle in my head.
– Holy Steak! Can't wait, I'm dying to kill it – I finally voiced up, of course with pure truth. I love steak!
– Bon Apettit, bitches! – Stace giggled
– Buon Apettito! – Chloe and I spoke in unison
In the mean time, Stace gave me a sigh-eye-contact, and got us all involved in something else than Vanessa. I silently thanked her for that. What a mercy! The chatter went smoothly until Chloe's face brightened up:
– Ah, I forgot this. I and Vaness are going to throw a party, like, an engagement party. You guys must come!
– When is that, Chlo? – Aubrey voiced
– 15th May, like the next Friday.
Seriously? Engagement fucking party! This ends! –COOL
– Sure we come! Can't miss my bitch's engagement party! – I smirked – Let's rock it!
My sudden enthusiasm really stirred up the atmosphere..