I sit still, quiet
Maybe, maybe,
She won't make me fight.
I sit still, in the darkness
Black, ominous
Like my blood.
I sit still, in my corner
Scrunched, cramped
Hiding from reality.
I sit still, waiting
Watching, listening
I hope she doesn't today.
I sit still, wondering
Hoping, dreaming
Of a day when things will change.
I sit still, in pain
Crying, depressed
I killed someone again today.
I sit still, finished
Done, gone
I've given in.
I sit still, set free
Mad, crazy
The madness has taken over.
I sit still, without compassion
Thoughtless, obedient
I kill without thinking, it's easier that way.
I sit still, in my corner again
Scared, confused
She locked me in here again, I failed.
I sit still, upset
Searching, fruitless
I want out, I've seen the light.
I sit still, mostly gone
Lost, tired
I search, but I can't find the exit.
I sit still, hiding
Knowing, dreading
She will come for me, this I know.
I sit still, afraid
Scared, daunted
I don't want to go back.
I sit still, holding tight
Treasuring, cherishing
My time with you.
I sit still, knowing
Feeling, waiting
I will kill them eventually, against my will.
How do I deal with it all?
Found by me.