Control
by Kthrto

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A kind muse dropped this in my lap.
Rated PG-13.
This is Marth/Roy Yaoi.
If you don't like this don't read it.

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"speech"
'thoughts'
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"I want you. I love you."
'Marth, please.'

"Roy, I..., you can't really meant that. You're too young. Caught up in the moment."
'I've got to keep my Control, even if he does mean it. I can't do that to him. Oh God, but I want to.'

"I am not a child. I am old enough to command an army. And I am definitely old enough to know my own mind."
'I can't let him see how much it hurts. I've got to be in Control. He doesn't want me. He doesn't love me.'

"I won't let you leave mad."
'Oh God. Roy, don't leave me'

"Marth, if you would kindly let go of my arm I will be on my way."
'He doesn't want me. He doesn't love me.'

"Roy, No, I..."
'Oh God. Why can't I tell him. Roy don't leave me.'

"Marth. I am leaving. And you will not stop me."
'Please stop me. If you want me. If you love me. Please stop me.'

"Roy. Where will you go?"
'Maybe things will be better for you without me. Oh God.'

"Where my feet will take me. Don't look for me. You won't find me."
'Away from the pain. Find me. If you want me. If you love me.'

"You are my friend, so I will let you go. But after a year..."
'Oh God, what's wrong with me that I can let him leave at all?'

"You won't find me."
'Please find me Marth. My love.'

"Don't forget to take care of yourself."
'Don't get hurt. Be safe. Take food. Take your sword. Be on guard. Oh God.'

"I won't."
'My love. You may not want me. You may not love me. But you seem to care.'

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3 years later
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"I've found you."
'Please God. Let him still want me.'

"I'm surprised."
'I knew you would come. Do you want me? Do you love me? Or am I your friend?'

"I've missed you."
'Please God. I love him. I want him.'

"Marth, why have you come?"
'Love, please let him have come for love.'

"Roy, I've come for you. To take you home."
'Please understand. I do want you. I do love you. Why can't I say it?'

"I do not wish to return to that which I left."
'Not friends. Not friends. Not friends. Not friends.'

"I don't know how to offer more."
'I want to. To love you. Show me how.'

"It's not that hard. You have to be open. Truthful."
'Say it. I can't do anything until you say it. I can't make the first move again.'

"I wanted you. That day."
'I still do. Oh God.'

"Is that all?"
'Say it. Say it. Say it. Say it.'

"No."
'Oh God. That's no where near all.'

"Well?"
'Say it. Say it. Say it. Say it.'

"Roy, I... I don't know if I can."
'I'm a coward. Oh God.'

"Since when is the Prince a coward?"
'Don't be a coward. I can't go first again. I can't.'

"I love you. I *still* love you."
'I always have.'

"Then why did you reject me?"
'Why Marth? Why?'

"I was concerned. We were too young. Too unsure. It could've ruined us."
'It almost did anyway.'

"So you pushed me away?"
'Why did you let me go, Marth? Why?'

"I loved you. I didn't want to hurt you. Why did you leave?"
'You left me. Why, Roy?'

"You rejected me. To *protect* me."
'I had to stay in control. Of myself.'

"I didn't do a very good job of it."
'When was the last time you slept in a bed? Had a bath? Ate at a table?'

"Better than you realise."
'I may not look it, but I'm alright.'

"I want you. I love you."
'Roy, please.'

"Oh Marth."
'He said it.'