In honour of the best ship ever that will never happen, sadly, Bam/Ryan
RYAN DUNN 1977-2011 I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU, RANDOM HERO...
This is part of my coping process in regards to Ryan's untimely death. I had a huge connection with him and his death hit me pretty fucking hard so I wrote this short piece of floofy fluffiness now that i can finally see him again without crying. And as always, I own nothing...much as I want to own both of them.
"Hey baby, have you seen my green coat," he yelled across house. I chuckled as I poured my morning coffee.
"It's in the front closet, Ry," I yelled back. I could hear him jogging all over the house, panting like a dog and stopping a couple times to cough up what was left of his lungs. I turned to see him sauntering into the kitchen. He walked up and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.
"Thanks, Bam," he said with a sweet smile, "I'll be home later. Are you sure you don't wanna come to my sister's with me?" Ryan's sister had invited us over for dinner but I told him to go without me. He barely sees his family so I thought he could do with some family time without me.
"No angel, you go. You never see them and you see me every morning when you wake up and every night before you go to sleep. I got some stuff to do today anyways. You go," I said before giving him a quick kiss, "Have fun. Tell your sister I said hi and that I'm sorry I couldn't make it." Ryan nodded sadly.
"Okay but if you start to feel lonely, come over or call me and I can come home. You're my family too Bam. You're actually the most important part of my family," he admitted shyly. Five years together and he still gets shy telling me stuff like that. I love it, it's cute. I smiled and kissed him again.
"And you are the most important part of mine. Now go before I change my mind, drag you to the bedroom and make you stay," I challenged seductively. Ryan just smirked and gave me a kiss.
"I'll call you when I get there and when I leave," he said as he enveloped me in a tight hug. He didn't wanna leave anymore than I wanted him to go, "I love you."
"I love you too Ry," I whispered back. He kissed me one last time and then left. I walked into the living room to watch at the window as he left. I chuckled as he leaned out the driver door window to dramatically blow large kisses at me and in my cheesiness, I caught them all and pressed them to my lips. He smiled one last cheeky grin before pulling out of the driveway and driving off. I smiled to myself and walked to the bathroom to shower and get ready for my day. And in the bathroom, there was a little surprise waiting for me. Ryan had taken my eyeliner and wrote "I WISH YOU WOULDN'T USE THIS SHIT YOUR EYES ARE BEAUTIFUL WITHOUT IT I LOVE YOU BABE PS I LIED I'M COMING HOME EARLY I MISS YOU TOO DAMN MUCH ALREADY LOVE RY" on the mirror with it. My crystal blue eyes started to tear up a bit and I smiled to myself as I whispered, "I miss you too Ry…"