So this a new story I have had in my mind for a while now. Acourse its about Tony and Ziva. I already have to whole layout of where, and how I want this story to go. I have really put alot of thought and effort into this, and its totally my new baby. So go ahead and read than tell me what you think.
RATED T (For now)
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Just the title and the ideas.
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Were do I start. How do I tell the one person that I'm absolutely terrified of that I love her? That I think I actually might be in love with her? That I don't want our relationship to just be about sex?
He loved her.
He could honestly with out a doubt say that he loved her. Well at least say It to his self, never out loud. To the outside world she was just his partner. The woman who sat across from him everyday. To the outside world she was just Ziva nothing more nothing less. But to the inside him, she was everything. The one that mattered the most.
And If it was that easy to just say those three simple words " I Love You" he would. He would say it a million and one times everyday. But It wasn't that simple. Nothing was ever easy with her. But it wasn't all her fault, he for one was about five years too late, the whole world had been wedged between them,- or at least it felt that way. Slowly but surly over the years they drifted apart to the point where outside of work they barley saw each other.
Saying I love you now would make things difficult, more complicated. There was to much water under the bridge so to speak. He had his chance more than once, and he walked right passed it, as if it would always be there.
So he kept his thoughts and feelings to his self and always said he'll tell her tomorrow, but then tomorrow turned into next week, and next week turned into next month and now almost five years later here they were.
She had baggage and he had baggage. The only difference between the two was, his was filled with commitment issues and crazy ex girlfriends and hers came in a small pint size four year old.
So yeah telling her that he loved her right now was definitely out of the question. Her life was filled with priorities and other responsibilities. She didn't need Tony DiNozzo sliding his way in, messing up the rotation and flow of her life.
Besides how do you tell the one person that terrified you the most that you loved them? That's what was probably scaring him the most. Or was it the possibly of rejection? Cause neither sounded great at this point.
Thinking about his current phobia of the word I love you, Tony's mood was sour. But than again being tied down to a desk all day with nothing to do could do that to a person.
The past few weeks they had case after case being thrown at them. Leaving no time for them to even think about enjoying the outside world
So it was a total shock the first few hours of the day when the phones didn't ring and the pile of paper work placed on their desk disappeared. There was absolutely nothing for them to do.
Staring at the clock which, was clearly mocking him, he watched as the little hands began to move slower and slower. It was either that or his mind was playing some good tricks on him. The longer he stared the slower it seemed to move, to the point where it barely looked like it was moving at all.
They had more than a few minutes to kill lets try a whole hour before Gibbs might even consider letting them go.
The clock wasn't the only thing mocking him. The sun was practically sticking its tongue out dancing in circles around the bullpen. Shining through the windows beaming bright and proud.
It was so tempting just to get up and run and not look back until Monday morning. But that contained the sort of energy that Tony didn't posses.
Placing his feet on his desk Tony leaned back in his chair, and glanced around the Bullpen he noticed Gibbs was still gone doing God knows what, and McGee was snoring at his desk.
Turning his self back towards Ziva he saw she was mindlessly doodling on a sticky note at her desk, while answering all the questions that a obviously bored Noah was throwing at her.
He enjoyed watching mother and child interact with each other, it was peaceful and innocent. Almost like watching a new born baby sleep. The two of them together were just so captivating. Almost intoxicating.
Noah could ask a million and one questions and how Ziva never lost her patients with him was beyond Tony. She would answer each and everyone of his questions to the best of her ability and always with a smile on her face.
When Noah was around Tony saw a rare special side of Ziva. A side so gentle and sweet, he wanted to grab this Ziva and run away with her. Locking this new peaceful Ziva away in a special place that only he had the key to.
Over the last couple years he had seen many stages and fazes in Ziva's life, but her becoming a mother opened up a whole new door to her, and he loved seeing her this way.
This side of her caught Tony's attention from the birth of Noah and made his hunger for her increase even more. It seems as if his body was yearning for her to always be around.
Noah his self made Tony curious. He had to admit he was a beautiful child. Almost an exact replica of Ziva. They had the same everything. Eyes, nose, hair, skin. The few times he saw Noah he captivated Tony's mind. A sweet boy curious and full of energy. Tony had no idea how Ziva could keep up with him half the time, but she never complained, taking everything with a strive and a smile on her face.
Just by looking at him he could tell he was a brilliant smart little boy, it was almost like he had no choice to be anything but wonderful, after all he was Ziva's kid.
Ziva's kid.
Tony didn't mean to sound so bitter. But when he broke it down and actually thought about the fact that Ziva had a kid that's the way it came out.
But that was the way things were, it was a fact that he couldn't change Ziva had a kid.
Yeah he had to admit Noah had a special place in his heart but his chest tighten a little more, and more every time he said those words or thought about the fact that some other man had loved Ziva. Some other man got Ziva pregnant, and some other man now had a kid, has a kid with ZIVA.
"He's staring at us again", Tony heard a small voice say. It was loud and clear but still it didn't register to him. He was to lost in thought to think right and didn't pay any attention too it. That was until he saw Ziva's head turning.
When she looked up at him he turned away pretending to be concentrating more on the outside world then his intriguing partner and her son sitting across from him.
But she knew he was staring at her, she always knew. He did it every so often. Look up at her and get lost in thought. As if the whole world stop and it was just the two of them sitting there. It bothered her when he did that, but she never spoke anything of it. She didn't understand why, or what he met by it.
Using his peripheral vision to his advantage, he saw mother and child laughing again. Completely engaged in each other, it was almost like no one else was there. It wasn't long before he saw his self staring at them again. He couldn't help it. He had nothing else to do and he was so amazed at the sight in front of him.
"Mommy why does Tony keep staring at us?", Noah asked making eye contact with Tony. He smiled this time and when Tony didn't smile back he tilted his head with a confused look on his face as if he was looking at a piece of art work. The kind with a hidden picture in a picture.
This time Ziva looked up fast enough and caught him staring before he could quickly turn his head the other way almost falling out his chair in the process, making both Ziva and Noah fall out laughing.
McGee popped his head up to see what was going on, looking from Ziva to Tony.
"What's so funny?", McGee asked confused. His voice still groggy.
"Oh nothing Noah's just trying to figure out Tony'", Ziva laughed.
"You shouldn't confuse your self like that Noah, that there's a puzzle that can never be fixed", McGee laughed out, before looking over at Tony to see he wasn't amused with his joke.
"Not funny Probie", was Tony's only reply who was clearly embarrassed. His ears turning a bright red almost.
"It's okay Tony" , Noah smiled and said. Jumping off his mothers lap he walked around to Tony's desk.
"Here" ,Noah said showing Tony a drawing he made. "It's a DINO-Saur, I was going to give it to Abby but you can have it. I'll make her another one" , Noah explained
Tony took the paper and while it wasn't quite a dinosaur the resemblance was pretty good for a four year old. His creativity was impeccable. Tony looked to see that Noah was still standing in front of him as if he was expecting something. His big brown eyes full of innocents and hope.
"Thanks kid, I really appreciate it." Tony said rubbing the top of his head mushing his hair down.
Ziva gritted her teeth in the back round. She hated when Tony or anyone for that matter referred to Noah as "kid" as if he didn't have a name. She didn't name him Noah just so the world could call him "Kid".
"Your welcome", Noah smiled satisfied with his reply and walked away back towards Ziva's desk, climbing back into his mother's lap. Ziva leaned down closing her eyes and placed her nose to his hair as if she was smelling him in.
Noah paid her no mind as he kept on drawing his picture, until Gibbs walked into the Bullpen.
"BOSS", Noah yelled excited to finally see him come around the corner.
"When did you get here", Gibbs asked him looking at Ziva who just gave him a weary smile.
"A little while ago, Ms. Adams dropped me off." Hoping off his mothers lap again, Noah ran up to Gibbs and saluted him. Gibbs just patted his head and smirked down at him.
'"The daycare closed early and I had no where else for him to go", Ziva stepped up and said.
"Ziva", Gibbs started to say before Ziva cut him off.
"I know Gibbs but what other choice did I have?, It was either he comes here or I go home", Ziva blurted out in full defense mode. She felt the sudden need to stand her ground, she knew Gibbs wasn't mad, since he wasn't yelling but she wanted to be ready just in case.
Gibbs stood the quietly for a moment with a blank look on his face, that was hard for anyone to read. "Go home", he finally said walking towards his desk. Leaving a confused and speechless Ziva standing in front of her desk still.
'Excuse me', she managed to get out. Looking from McGee to Tony she saw the same confused look on their face. What did he mean go home. Was he really mad? So much so that he was sending her home for the day?
'I said go home, there's no need for you to be here.' Gibbs said not bothering to look up at her.
'But Gibb-', Ziva started to say.
'Ziver go home, I'm giving you a early start to your weekend. Spend some time with your kid.'
Ziva gritted her teeth at the word kid and reached forward grabbing Noah.
'Go home all of you, get out of here. I'm not going to say it again.' This time Gibbs didn't say it so nicely. The authority figure stood out in his voice.
The three of them stayed frozen in there respective areas before the realization that Gibbs was letting them leave early set in.
McGee was the first to grab his stuff and leave. Moving as if the building was on fire.
Tony took his time glancing at the clock. It was only just hitting 1o'clock. He stuck his tongue at the clock and laughed silently at his sudden victory. Picking up his bag he made sure that he had the picture Noah gave him and placed it in his bag. Looking around he dropped the bag back down into his seat when he realize Ziva wasn't ready yet.
He didn't know why but he wanted to wait for her and Noah. So he began searching through his desk pretending he was looking for something while Ziva and Noah took there time.
Before long Ziva was ready and was saying her good-byes to Gibbs. Turning around bag and Noah in hand she looks to Tony.
"Bye Tony see you Monday" , Ziva smiled.
"Bye Tony", Noah smiled the same smile Ziva showed him mere seconds before. It almost made Tony's heart melt.
"I'm umm coming out with you", Tony said pointing towards the elevator. "I was just looking for my thing and I found it." He held his empty fist up as if something was in it to show Ziva.
"It was just in my desk and I didn't see it at first but I have it now." Tony stuttered out. He was beginning to ramble on worse than Abby.
Ziva just smiled a hesitant smile before walking towards the elevator. Hand in hand with Noah and Tony behind them.
The elevator ping and the doors open revealing an empty space waiting for them. Stepping in Noah started singing what Tony presumed to be a nursery rhyme in Hebrew.
"So Ziva, what's do you have any planed for the weekend?", Tony asked nervously trying to make simple conversation.
He stepped back knowing fully aware that Ziva could bite his head off and leave him left for dead in the elevator with out any evidence if she felt he was prying to much.
"Umm I don't know yet. But I do know for sure that when we get home Noah", she grabbed Noah's hand shaking it "and I both have some cleaning to do."
Tony looked down and heard Noah sigh before slumping down a bit.
"Come on Mom do I have to?" He whined out. Tony had to admit the kid was good, but Ziva was even better she went straight into mommy mode answering Noah's question. "Yes, I told you this morning that you were cleaning your room tonight, its been a mess for weeks."
Tony slumped against the wall started feeling bad for Noah, who was looking at the floor in defeat.
"Ziva he does have a point I mean it's a beautiful day outside, you shouldn't waste it in the house cleaning all day" Tony said immediately taking Noah's side.
"Well are you going to clean his room for him Tony?", Ziva fired back quickly placing her hand on her hip giving up much attitude.
Tony looked at Ziva and could tell she wasn't going to back down easily. Hopelessly he looked down to Noah who was staring back wondering what he was going to say next.
"Well No, I don't see that happening", Tony replied trying not to make eye contact with Noah who he knew would be disapointed.
"Yeah I thought so", Ziva replied facing forward to hide her smirk. She knew Tony wasn't going to just volunteer to clean up somebody else's house.
She didn't understand why he was taking a sudden interest in what Noah and her did over the weekend anyway. He had been acting weird lately and she had yet to find to ask him about it. All she did know was that Tony and Noah wasn't going to gang up on her in the elevator.
Noah leaned back closer to Tony and tapped his hand. Giving Tony a look when he finally had his attention. Urging him on to say something back.
"You know what how bout we make a deal, if you agree to let me take you and Noah to the park or maybe even the Zoo today than I promise to come over tomorrow and HELP Noah clean his room" Tony made sure he emphasized the word help, there was no way he was getting stuck cleaning Noah's room by his self.
Ziva wanted to hold her ground and say no, to think of some quick lie that would occupy both her and Noah's schedule for tomorrow but she wouldn't just be lying to Tony she would be lying to Noah, and that was out of the question.
First she looked at Tony and saw he had a pure innocent look on his face as if he was the good guy in the situation. Then she looked at Noah who put on his best puppy dog pleading face.
"Fine", Ziva finally gave in and said. Both Tony and Noah let go of the breath they were holding and there smiles were inevitable.
"Yes", Noah jumped and whispered loudly.
"Don't get too happy young man, just know that tomorrow instead of a half of day you just gained a full day of cleaning", she had to show that she was still the boss in some way or another.
Noah calmed down but still was smiling. Tony couldn't help but feel good inside to.
Not only did he just help Noah win his way with his mom, but he also somehow convinced Ziva into letting him spend the afternoon with her and her son. Yeah he was feeling pretty damn good.
The elevator finally stopped and open. Ziva stepped out first.
"Thanks Man" Noah whispered slapping Tony up, before following behind his mother.
"No problem kid", Tony smiled. There was something genuine about Noah. Something innocent and simple. Stepping out of the elevator behind Noah the sun from the parking lot hit Tony adding a extra bounce to his look and step.
It was nothing but clear blue sky and sun out today.
"So Noah Park or Zoo?"
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