Hello(: This is my third fanfic, so please review and let me know what you think(:

CHAPTER 1

I slammed the door to my room and let the tears fall down my cheeks. They just wouldn't stop. I looked up and realized i was standing in front of my mirror. What stared back at me made the tears come harder.

I saw a girl. She had long brown curly hair over a round face with chubby cheeks. She had small brown eyes and a slight double chin. But the most noticeable part of the girl in the mirror was her weight. She was fat.

That girl in the mirror was Bella Swan, that girl in the mirror, was me.

Thats all i saw when i looked at myself. And you know what? I didn't just see fat. I saw imperfection all over me. I could name every imperfection i had on my body, it was an endless list.

I was ugly and fat and i hated myself so how could i expect others to think any different of me?

Today had been my 1st day of high school. I had a few friends, but no best friends. I hated myself, and constantly pointed out my imperfections even though others told me i was fine just the way i was, but i knew that was a lie. Thats why i never had boy friends, thats why boys never asked me out or smiled at me as i passed them in the halls, because i wasn't good enough for them.

I heard a light knock on my door. "Bella, are you alright?" I heard my mom ask softly.

I quickly wiped my eyes and fanned my face a few times. "Yes." I replied.

"Do you want to come out and talk about your 1st day at school?"

That was the last thing i wanted to do. But i knew it broke my mothers heart when i denied her so i straightened myself up and opened my door, plastering the best smile i could on my face. "Sure."

I sat and made up a story about a wonderful 1st day of high school to tell my mom as she scurried around the kitchen making dinner. She smiled and nodded as i fed her all these lies and when i was done she seemed so happy that it tore my apart that she didn't know the truth.

But she couldn't understand the truth. My mother had always been beautiful, still, being almost 40, she received constant compliments about her appearance.

I weighed about 190 pounds, even though i looked about 165/170. I wasn't morbidly obese i would admit that, but i was larger then i felt i should be, and i felt so ugly and terrible compared to every other girl in school.

I walked up stairs after dinner and let the tears id been holding back fall freely, causing me to shake violently. I curled into a ball in my bed and cried myself to sleep.

I woke up the next morning with achy muscles and swollen eyes. I rolled myself out of bed and quickly got ready for another dreadful day at school, trying to hide as much evidence of my night full of misery as possible.

When i got to Forks High School i tried to to get from the entrance to my locker, to home room, without being noticed. Unfortanatly, a few people waved at me in the hall and well, i couldn't ignore them.

Most of the day went by in a blur, i didn't say much, just when from class to class and occasionally answered a few questions. I had left right before lunch yesterday, to miserable to carry on, so today i would be going into my 5th and 6th period for the 1st time.

I was starving by lunch but was to embarrassed to eat, there were just so many people in the small lunchroom that i couldn't stand someone laughing at me stuffing my face.

I already knew what room to go to for my 5th period, biology, so i walked up stairs to room 223 and went straight to the teacher at the front of the room. The man noticed me right away and looked me up and down.

"Were you here yesterday?" He asked unsure.

"Um no i has to leave school early." I mumbled quietly.

He nodded and gave me a friendly smile, handing me a syllabus and directed me to the only available seat in the room.

It was a 2 person lab table with one available seat. I could only see the back of the other person sitting there but i could tell it was a boy. Great.

I walked over and quietly sat down, pretending to shuffle through my things to avoid any akward silences. The boy must have heard me because he turned and looked at me curiously as if he accepted me to say something. I couldn't hey my own curiosity and peeked sideways at the boy through the curtain of my hair.

What i saw amazed me. He was absolutely beautiful. He had a head full of tousled brown hair and piercing green eyes that i could get lost in. His face had a taught bone structure making him look like a greek god and you could see his muscled pulsing through his grey t shirt.

My breath caught and he noticed my staring. I snapped around in my seat and felt the coloring flowing to my cheeks. I felt like he was looking at me and thinking ew.

"Hello." A velvety voice said.

I felt my heart skip at the melodic voice and i turned slowly in his direction, not meeting his eyes. "Hello." I said quietly.

"I'm Edward, Edward Cullen." He said politely.

Why was he being so nice?

"Bella Swan."

He smiled. Oh it was beautiful. "Nice to meet you, Bella."

I was luckily saved from making an idiot of myself and continue the conversation when Mr. Varner started his lesson.

I stayed on the edge of my seat out of self consciousness of being by such a angel.

When the bell rang i couldn't get out of the room quick enough. I stood up and, being the klutz i was, slid onto the floor, straight on my butt, my books and papers going everywhere.

I wanted to cry out of embarrassment when i heard the laughter around the room. I stayed on the floor until everyone left, to upset to do anything else. When i thought it was clear i stretched my hand out to pick up my books and i was shaking violently. I started crying out loud since Mr. Varner had shut the door on his way out.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and snapped around.

Edward Cullen stared back at me.

"Bella.." He said.

This must be a joke. Someone so beautiful and perfect couldn't be this nice to me.

I searched his eyes for any sign of humor but all i saw was emeralds full of sympathy.

I swallow hard and wiped my eyes, embarrassed once again, and turned around silently and started to pick up my things.

He grabbed my hand and it startled me by the way his touch made me feel. "Stop. Let me."

I was to stunned to do anything but obey. So i just watched as he picked up my things and stacked them in a neat pile. Then, he stood up and extended his and out to me, i took it and his hand in mine gave me a weird feeling inside.

He walked me to the door, letting go of my hand, and handing me my books.

I took them and we stood there unsure what to do next. "Thank you." I said quietly.

He smiled. "My pleasure, Bella, don't let them get to you." He said and gave me one more crooked smile and walked out the door.

I watched him go, yearning for him to come back.

Its a start, loll. Btw, Bella isn't intended to be REALLY big, just bigger then most girls but not like obese. Anyways, please review and let me know what you think!(: Should i continue? does it suck? Ill stop writing if u all think i suck! lol Please review!!(:

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