no snot, please. i didn't intend to sound emo, but it's edward, how much do you expect out of him? gosh. if you're gonna read it, then you might as well review it before i come after you :p
I wander aimlessly through the now dense Forks woods. I try to remember the last time I have been here. The last time I have been with you. Where is Alice? I want to ask her what I will make out of my life twenty painful years later. I want to die. There is nothing left to live for, nothing. Bella, where are you? I need you. I am dying without you.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
Your face still haunts me. My memories of you resist fading away. I deny the fact that you passed away five years ago. Every day I call you, expecting you to be there. Every day I picture myself sitting beside you in my room, your arms wrapped around me, clearing up the dense black fog of screams that has deafened me for an eternity with your ever beating heart. I need your warmth to melt the ice that is freezing up my by now frozen soul. Bella, where are you? I need you. I am dying without you.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I drop into the grass. I let the pain burn through me, slashing my insides into a million pieces. I have let the pain in because I realized that hurting myself would momentarily take the memories of you out of my mind. Bella, where are you? I need you. I am going to die without you.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
My mind gives me no mercy. Thoughts and memories pour back into my body faster than a river pouring down a waterfall. I could taste your tears. I could hear your heart beat frantically in my ears when I left you. I could hear the gasps you emitted from the pain of my departure. I could smell your sweet blood. I can even hear you whispering "I love you." you in my ears, but the one thing I need the most I was deprived from. I need your warmth. You left, taking your warmth from me, leaving me nothing but cold nothingness. Bella, where are you? I need you. I am dying without you.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
Bella, where are you? I need you. I am dying without you.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Save me, Bella. Before I die.
Bella.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
"Edward."