The Winchester Gospel

The Gospel according to Chuck

On the Head of a Pin

Chapter One

Verse One

And Heaven sent Dean Winchester to torture the demon Alastair.

And though he was loath to do it, he was given no choice and Alastair goaded him and told him, "You left part of yourself back in the pit" and baited him and said, "Let's see if we can get the two of you back together again".

And Dean knew it was true. He felt hollow, weak, conflicted.

And Alistair said unto him, "I carved you into a new animal, Dean. There is no going back," and then the demon praised him saying, "You have not disappointed me so far."

And knowing Alistair was right, Dean Winchester was afraid. Afraid that the part of him that had been left behind when Castiel had ripped him from Hell was the demon he had become.

And having fought for the righteous all of his life, he suddenly felt it was a loosing battle and he wanted to lay down his heavy burden, to let Heaven's chips fall where they may.

And knowing Lilith was close to breaking the last of the sixty-six seals, Dean would help the Angels; would help Castiel one last time but at what cost?

And Alastair, laying the blame at Dean's feet, said unto him, "And it is written that the first seal shall be broken when a righteous man sheds blood in Hell. As he breaks, so shall it break" and demanded payment.

And Dean Winchester wanted to turn to the demon and call him a liar but he knew Lucifer's instrument spoke the truth, that the facts the demon took such pleasure in revealing to him weren't lies and he thought, "My weakness started it all."

And when the battle was done and Sam Winchester had destroyed the demon Alastair and Castiel had killed the Angel Uriel, the Angel sat at Dean Winchester's bedside and simply watched God's weapon, so broken, so filled with pain and doubt.

And turning to the Angel, Dean asked what he already knew to be so, "Is it true? Did I break the first seal?"

And Castiel spoke softly to God's servant and affirmed his questions but cautioned, "It's not blame that falls on you, it's fate. The righteous man who begins it is the only one who can finish it. You have to stop it. Our fate rests with you."

And with a heart filled with pain and in a voice raw from a throat savaged in battle, Dean Winchester said, "Find someone else. It's not me."

And God's warrior cried.