THE TALK
Disclaimer: i don't own twilight or its characters but i sure wished i'd had a dream like she did, in the meantime hope you enjoy my humble fic!
BELLA POV
Prologue
my little nudger ...I'm in so much pain right now but i can't show it because it only hurts him more as if he wasn't in hell already,so i let my mind wander,lately it has become real easy to separate my mind from my body,i convince myself its not happening to me... well the bad aspects that is!
I wonder what i'll tell my baby ,my little miracle about how he came into existence, still haven't figured that out and don't think it's an appropriate topic with Edward these days.
I can't believe the changes that have occured in my life in such a short time,from just being under the influence of my raging hormones and pursuing their goal with sheer determination to this...
I look across the room and see Esmee, dear Esmee my new mom,my real mom now who knows everything there is to know about me and where I'm headed,somewhere Renee can't follow.
I love them both so much my heart swells,then immediately I rolled my eyes remembering how different they are, one example being 'the talk' they both had with me before Edward and I got married...
CHAPTER 1: my mom and I*
« Bella I know we've not really delved into a real mom/daughter conversation lately »,she looked at me and corrected herself « ok never actually more the other way around but still I feel strongly this is something I have to do or else my conscience will nag me until i do »
« Ok mom let me have it, charlie already gave it his best awkward shot and you can imagine what a mess that was »,bella said with a strained smile, « What is it you want to know? »I said calmly knowing this convo would go over smoothly as it was afterall my mom about to grill me.
«I won't go into too much details but your dad and I fell head over heels and pretty soon you were on the way,we got married and there you were pretty as can be a few months later,what I want to tell you is even though I support your decision to get married I hope you and Edward will take the time to get to know each other,as a married couple,and give your relationship time to settle down and solidify for the long haul.
Yes I know you two are pretty serious,I've seen the way you behave around each other?what I mean is once the passion of those first months wears off and reality hits, you'll have to learn how to work together to make it work,as celine dion says in a french song of hers(« s'il suffisait d'aimer »),if only all it took was love,if only loving each other was enough to keep the fire alive...
« mom celine dion? Really! »
« Well she's one of my fav singers ok ,I was out shopping and went into the self-help section of the bookstore and found this(she handed me a copy of « men are from Mars women are from Venus »
I just had to roll my eyes,typical!) and thought you guys could really benefit from it.
I would have suggested you guys consult a reverend and go through the process of a marriage preparation course in view of the practical aspects of marriage like I saw in that film « licence to wed » with mandy moore and robin williams.
The reverend character really grilled them through gruelling sessions over 3 weeks to see if they were meant to be,the movie wasnt all that most of the jokes fell flat but the point is, having an outside pov ain't always a bad thing and might give you perspective on the leap of faith that is a wedding,you know? »
« Yeah mom I know what you mean,dont think I havent thought about this, if we're not rushing things?,if its the right thing to do? ( ha ha if only she knew some of the real reasons why we are pressing the wedding along and its not because Esmee and Alice have mad organizational skills!)
seriously though mom, we did kinda talk with angela's dad who's a minister,but all he asked us is if we were willingly entering the marriage status ,if we were sure of this next step in our relationship,
anyways I think the fact that he also met with Carlisle and Esmee for the ceremony details ,helped put any doubts he had to rest that they had indeed raised quite the gentleman...
you know how Alice is also not letting anyone do much that she hasn't approved (which was just fine with me I tought)but thanks for the book I'm sure Edward will get a kick out of it,you know how he's always wanting to do thing the right way! »
She laughed and hugged me before saying:
« ok I did my bit,promise you'll read it, I know I learned a lot from the mistakes me and your dad commited in our short marriage,that's why i'm more aware of things with Phil, Bella I love him so much ,he makes me feel alive,always seems to right my wrongs and so I make it my business to put his happiness up as my number one priority »
« I know mom, remember I'm the one who told you he was a keeper compared with malcom and stuart(her former exes whom she had long term relationship with if more than 3months can be called that ) and how he was a good influence on you! »
« Oh bella ,you never did tell me,are you two …? have you two been physical? I mean its a possibility and you have to be aware of all the consequences!( I smirked as I tried to hold in a bordeline hysterical laugh,if only she knew I was the one pursuing edward like a bee on honey,boy was I glad all the cullens were at their house or elsewhere far away)
« mom,no we haven't been intimate, Edward is very old-fashioned and it suits my nature,you know how I like to take my time before any decision-making,but yes we have talked about our expectations in that area, our experiences, I think he likes very much the idea that he'll be my first and only lover,edward is very selfish where I'm concerned,even though I tell him I'm his,he's bent on leaving no doubt in anyone's mind legally and officially...I go along with it because we're both getting what we want most importantly each other... »
« urghh bella you and edward are so intense for your age,one might think you're from another century...I'm really happy for you and so proud that you know yourself and go for what you want,my forty-smtg young lady,all grown -up...so what's for dinner?
(and just like that Renee switch the conversation topic and I knew her 15mn of playing the adult were over, I sighed and turn to her and said)
- « how about grdma stroganoff recipe, lets me see if I have all the ingredients », we left the living room and went into the kitchen together,at that exact moment alice called and said
« Bella I tought that we agreed that while your mom was here ,we were all going to be eating together as the big normal happy family that we already are so your mom could see what family dynamics you were getting yourself into,now you wouldn't want to upset Esmee right?you know she hardly has the opportunity to play human Mom in the kitchen »
« fine we're coming over now! » I huffed...
« no need, Jasper is gonna be there in 5 hum no 3mn with carlisle mercedes, Edward says your mom thinks its very comfortable,makes her feel important,oh and don't worry Charlie and Phil are already on their way,Esmee is so please with their appetite these past days! »
right then I heard the smooth humming of the mercedes come to a stop outside the house and pulled my mom by the hand ,we grabbed our bags and coats ,she went down the steps and into the car while I locked up,I smiled easily at jasper as I slipped into the front seat and whispered « I hope you didnt mind coming to pick us up, I could have easily taken my truck » he shooked his head and said « what my lady and queen desires,I deliver promptly! »