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I loved him for years. Since we first met, his pose and striking eyes captured me. When we were separated, it ate me up, not knowing where he was, what he was doing, if he was fine. Then years later we met again, it was the happiest moment in life. Yet, I knew nothing of him. We stood on opposite end of things. We thought differently, and yet in the few years that we were reunited I saw him grow into a person I no longer recognized. But there were still hints of the old him. I watched him carry the weight of the world on his shoulders, only to request me the most difficult thing I had to do. Kill him. I couldn't do it, he was making me kill him! Did he not know that I loved him? Did he not know how difficult it was for me? Yet, I did it. I killed him. I killed the love of my life, killed the person I swore to protect. He knew, he must have known. Why else would he order me to live on? Why else would he let me live in the gentle new world he created? It does not matter how many years has passed, no one will know the truth. No one will know why he did it, why he decided to become the Demon Emperor. No one but me. I wished the world could know, maybe then they would stop teaching hateful things about him. Every year they celebrate his death, they praise me for saving them from the Demon. I don't like to hear it, I don't want to hear them congratulate me for killing the most selfless man there was. This mask is a reminder, I don't want it. Sometimes I just want to throw it away, escape this world and be with him. But I know that he would not want that, he would want me to "live". he would want me to experience life. How can I do that without him? I never told him but I don't hate him, never did. Not even when he did that to her, when he killed her. no not then, not now, not ever. I will love him until the last part of my soul dies, I will love him into the next life. I will protect what he most wanted, I will protect what he left behind. I will accept the curse he placed upon me, to never live as Suzaku Kugururi, but as Zero. The symbol he created.