Running away from the pain
"Ever notice how time just seams to slip away when you're in love? What if you're in love with someone, but there not in love with you? That IS still love, so does time go by slow Meilin? You ask. Yes, it goes very, very slow.
Life seams to be a slug. As everyday slowly passes you by. Each second drags on. As if time wanted you to be in pain. Because the one you love doesn't love you. And if feels like being stabbed hundreds and hundreds of times. And I can't take it anymore. I can't stand the pain.
Every minute of my life when I can't be with him, I feel like time is stabbing me, and I can feel the blood running down my body. That's why I'm here, because I couldn't take the pain anymore. I couldn't stand fighting a loosing battle. I just, couldn't stand him any more, not for one more painful second.
It started on a day like this. Cloudy skies and not very bright. We were in grade 10, and we were engaged to be married.
I knew his love for me didn't always seam to be there, but I thought he loved me, kinda. I knew he really didn't love me enough to get married, I could see it in his eyes when he looked at me.
And I knew he loved someone else, and I even knew whom. She wasn't the most popular girl in school, but she wasn't a loser. They had been friends since grade four, and I guess were friends too.
They started hanging out in school a lot. Every time Syaoran and I were at home he'd give me excuses to leave. At first I thought he wanted to be alone, or something.
After this kept happening for a few weeks I knew that he didn't want to be alone, he wanted to be with her. I pretended not to notice. But it was hard. I tried to spend more time with him, but I think it just drove him away from me more.
When he told me it was over, I just knew he hated me. He loved her, and couldn't think of me as more than just a cousin. Someone he would see on holidays and on vacation.
Though every time I saw him it wasn't like any holiday or vacation. It seamed more like a picture ripped apart into tiny puzzle pieces, but there's so many I can't put them together, so I give up on the puzzle, on him."
Meilin let out a sigh of relief, glad to get that off her chest. The young girl behind her took a step forward, closer to Meilin. "No, stay back" Meilin warned, and the girl stopped. Meilin's hair blew in the wind as she took a deep breath.
"You can't do this," The young girl cried, "You can't just run away from the pain." "I know," Meilin sighed, "it's already too late for me, and it's so much easier this way." With that Meilin let go of the cable she was hanging on started to lean forward, and jump off the bridge which she had been standing on as she told her story. "MEILIN!" The young girl ran over to the edge of the bridge too reach for Meilin, her hand stretched out, hoping she could catch her falling friend.
But just as Meilin had pointed out before, it was too late. With tears welling up in her eyes, she let out the painful cry, "MEILIN!" as she saw Meilin's body hit the ground. The young girl then got up on the wall of the bridge, and stared down at Meilin, as tears fell down her face. "I'm so sorry you had too go threw that, Meilin. I'm so sorry I caused you so much pain." And Sakura did what she felt was right, and ended her own life as Meilin had done.
Authors note: I hope you people liked it! Read and review! Cha! And check out my other stories! ^-^ Oh and I don't own Cardcaptor Sakura!
"Ever notice how time just seams to slip away when you're in love? What if you're in love with someone, but there not in love with you? That IS still love, so does time go by slow Meilin? You ask. Yes, it goes very, very slow.
Life seams to be a slug. As everyday slowly passes you by. Each second drags on. As if time wanted you to be in pain. Because the one you love doesn't love you. And if feels like being stabbed hundreds and hundreds of times. And I can't take it anymore. I can't stand the pain.
Every minute of my life when I can't be with him, I feel like time is stabbing me, and I can feel the blood running down my body. That's why I'm here, because I couldn't take the pain anymore. I couldn't stand fighting a loosing battle. I just, couldn't stand him any more, not for one more painful second.
It started on a day like this. Cloudy skies and not very bright. We were in grade 10, and we were engaged to be married.
I knew his love for me didn't always seam to be there, but I thought he loved me, kinda. I knew he really didn't love me enough to get married, I could see it in his eyes when he looked at me.
And I knew he loved someone else, and I even knew whom. She wasn't the most popular girl in school, but she wasn't a loser. They had been friends since grade four, and I guess were friends too.
They started hanging out in school a lot. Every time Syaoran and I were at home he'd give me excuses to leave. At first I thought he wanted to be alone, or something.
After this kept happening for a few weeks I knew that he didn't want to be alone, he wanted to be with her. I pretended not to notice. But it was hard. I tried to spend more time with him, but I think it just drove him away from me more.
When he told me it was over, I just knew he hated me. He loved her, and couldn't think of me as more than just a cousin. Someone he would see on holidays and on vacation.
Though every time I saw him it wasn't like any holiday or vacation. It seamed more like a picture ripped apart into tiny puzzle pieces, but there's so many I can't put them together, so I give up on the puzzle, on him."
Meilin let out a sigh of relief, glad to get that off her chest. The young girl behind her took a step forward, closer to Meilin. "No, stay back" Meilin warned, and the girl stopped. Meilin's hair blew in the wind as she took a deep breath.
"You can't do this," The young girl cried, "You can't just run away from the pain." "I know," Meilin sighed, "it's already too late for me, and it's so much easier this way." With that Meilin let go of the cable she was hanging on started to lean forward, and jump off the bridge which she had been standing on as she told her story. "MEILIN!" The young girl ran over to the edge of the bridge too reach for Meilin, her hand stretched out, hoping she could catch her falling friend.
But just as Meilin had pointed out before, it was too late. With tears welling up in her eyes, she let out the painful cry, "MEILIN!" as she saw Meilin's body hit the ground. The young girl then got up on the wall of the bridge, and stared down at Meilin, as tears fell down her face. "I'm so sorry you had too go threw that, Meilin. I'm so sorry I caused you so much pain." And Sakura did what she felt was right, and ended her own life as Meilin had done.
Authors note: I hope you people liked it! Read and review! Cha! And check out my other stories! ^-^ Oh and I don't own Cardcaptor Sakura!