Disclaimer: the infernal devices belongs to cassandra clare
A/N just a short one shot about them from wills point of view after Jens death. Flames accepted. May be a bit sad.
Brother, how can you leave me like this? You had promised me that we would be together, but now you leave me at my most crucial moment. How can I look my beloved in the eye without feeling the guilt of death. What a cruel joke, just as you seem to be recovering from your illness is when you are taken from me. I don't know who I am without you. I have always been Will, of Will and jem. Without you I don't know what to do. You have left me standing in front of fate with no way to fight back, and no will either. I know that it was your choice in the end, but did you stop to think about all those who's lives have been touched by your giving soul. Charlotte, without her favorite son. Henry, left all alone with no-one to help him with his inventions. Tessa, her true love gone forever, and his best friend pining after her in the most horrible way. Even mezzanine needed you Jem, without you she is left only with people that deal is her. You were the only one who was able to be civil to her, now she has no-one. But what about me! Did you not not thinkabout me before making your decision? You have always been my guardian, leading me away from despair and into the light. You were my light in the darkness, but now I am stumbling around with nowhere to go. I know that it is now my job to help everyone heal,but how can I do that if inside I am broken. Without you, my brother, I am nothing. I have nothing to live by. But for you I must try, try to live the way you would have wanted me to live and do your memory good. I will try for you, but I will never forget you, brother. I am nothing without you, Jem. Ave Atque Vale, my brother, Ave Atque Vale.