Please let me introduce myself, my name is Crystal and I am TwilightSurvivor or SarMomEmt on all writing sites, feel free to look me up or add me. I came very late to the FanFiction game as I only discovered it in 2015. My favorite Twilight character is Jasper and most of what I write is Bella/Jasper. Over the years I've been working on more then 50 stories but hadn't finished any yet, so after speaking to RavenLightDragon & Hisuiko I became inspired to try writing a one shot or a shorter story. On Sunday 4/8, after PM'ing back and forth with both of them, (both authors were insanely helpful/supportive and I love them both.) I banged out a one shot that was completely different then anything I'd ever written before. Originally I started writing FF as a form of personal therapy as a way to write down my own experiences with abuse and the healing process after struggling to write it out as myself. In 2015, I discovered that if I assigned my own experiences to a character, it became much easier to get out. This story however is nothing like that. This was my first one shot, my first story that wasn't about emotional healing, my first story that I'd ever completed and my first lemon. That's a lot of firsts but as if those weren't enough, this is also the first story I'm ever posting.
Thank you to GeezerWench, RavenLightDragon & Hisuiko for their encouragement and for pre-reading and helping me polish my work before sharing.
My #1 favorite story ever, FanFiction or otherwise is "One Day at a Time by Hisuiko so if you haven't read it–do so, as her depiction of Jasper is the best, most complicated and interesting I've ever read. Other favorite authors of mine are GeezerWench, RavenLightDragon, Xo Bella Italiana oX, Dobbyrockssocks, EmilyF.6, knueu21 and there are many others as well.
Thank you for taking the time to read my first ever shared story and please remember to review and give constructive criticism.
Update 5/30/2018
I received a comment that says my story exceeds the rating guidelines and I wish to respond publicly in addition to the PM I sent the reader who posted the comment.
"Fiction M can contain adult language, themes and suggestions. Detailed descriptions of physical interaction of sexual or violent nature is considered Fiction MA."
I have been on the FF site as a reader for 3+ years and have paid close attention to what I felt was rather vague guidelines and worked hard to have my story not be explicit but still convey the emotional connection the characters had after such an intense near death experience. I made sure it was neither crude nor included what I consider graphic details.
While I assume from your comment that you disagree, I did pay attention to the rating guidelines before I began writing and I feel I adhered to them and frankly some of what's on this site is graphic and crude and for no purpose then to be literary porn. I wanted to capture the heaviness of the moment after the battle and as a 9/11/01 World Trade Center first responder and survivor I can attest to the fact that near death experiences breed extremely emotionally charged connections between those involved. I wanted to capture how nearly loosing one another triggered such an intense need to connect with one another and tried to focus on the emotions rather then the sex, while of course it's clear what they are doing, I didn't even use any course descriptive terms. Using words like button and avoiding the common sexual terminology that I tend to find crass.
It was about an intense connection, Love, passion and a connecting of their souls as they acknowledge that they are true mates. I'm sorry you disagree but I'm confident that I did a far better job sticking to the guidelines then many authors here who don't seem to make ANY attempt to follow them. (Like the many Graphic and crude sex scenes I've found that are rated T) I can and will defend my choices on this issue as I can only assume you hit the report button, something I've only done when they rate it teen. And I did post this on both WattPad & A03 and if I felt I was exceeding the FF guidelines I would've chosen to only post on the other sites but I wrote this with those guidelines in mind so that I could post it on the site I do most of my Fanfiction reading on. This site is where I found other authors who have encouraged me, supported my work and so this is where I wanted to begin my foray as a FanFiction writer. Because of that, I read the guidelines before I even began writing the story.
Regardless that you disagree with my choices, thank you for taking the time to comment and explain rather then just clicking report and running off. I can respect someone who stands by their words & beliefs.
- Crystal