This was not some ordinary day for me, this day just seem so different from the others. I really don't know how describe, but it's like when you wake up and you know something major is about to change in your life. Never in my life would I of thought that I be where I am out now. Having no more Eliot, taken Cragen's spot, being in charge this change has been such a blessing. Then to top it all off now to be a mother, though I would have thought I been married.
As I sitting in my office looking out at my team, I smile knowing at the end of the day this is my family this is where I belong. Few years back though I thought Alex and I would be married, I would stay at home with the kids. This dream I had with Alex ended and she moved on with another, and another unit. Here I am with my son, haven't really dated since Alex, let alone even thought about letting someone in, though as I stare at the blonde a have such strong feeling for her more than I ever had with Alex.
A new detective walked into my life about a few years ago, at first, I knew there was something different about her not really sure if I even liked her. Through the years though as I been watching her grow, she is an amazing officer great at her job. Amanda knew her job inside out, how to handle the victims, how to get the perp to confess without breaking a sweat and does it with a smile. When she walked into this squad little did I know she was what would be the change in my world, only if I would let her in.
As I looking out everyone is here but Amanda of course she not late, even if she was I not even sure I would be mad. I don't know why I even feel this way towards her, I mean she will never see me the way I want her to, she too young and way to pretty let alone she straight. She just walked into the squad in those tight blue jeans that fit her figure so perfect. A button down that shows off her top side, and that smile across that face that melts my heart. How I give anything to just grab her by the waist pull her close, put her lips against mine and get lost.
I was snapped out of this thought really quick when I heard a knock on the door, in fact I nearly jumped out of my skin was little taken back from my dreams.
"Can I come in Captain." She said so gentle with that southern twang
"How can I help you detective Rollins?"
In the back of my mind I am hoping she says take me home, spend the day with me in my bed. Snap out of it Oliva, you really don't even know this girl other than a professional level. This was no one's fault but my own, I was too scared to get to know Amanda because honestly if I found out she was straight I would be crushed. Hearing noise I snap out of my day dream once again.
"Liv, you there? Did you hear anything I have said?"
"What, no Rollins sorry, can you repeat yourself please."
"Well, we have a case, I needing someone to ride with me, and Fin is tied up on another case. So, I was wondering if you would ride along with me?"
"Sure Rollins, let me get my things together grabbed the case file to read while you drive."
"Great I will meet you down stairs, I will go grab the car Captain."
Then she was gone as I was standing there with my heart racing and skipping a beat. Get it together Oliva you are her boss, nothing more. I grab my coat and the case file and make my way down stairs. While in the elevator I started to think this is it, get closer to her make an effort to become a friend at least, not just her boss it been almost three years since she started this unit. As I walk out I see Amanda pulling up, she looks over at me smiles my knees get weak. I jump in the car and we took off.