It is not difficult to understand that I am perpetually the center of attention. Contrived laughs, exquisite robes, crystal goblets and burst camera bulbs paint my childhood like the night sky: all are for me. The most lavish parties, the finest wands, the fastest brooms sink their material claws into the dreadful drones that shadow me, hoping to one day taste the affluence that cocoons me. The perfectly constructed shell, as translucent as the flesh on my bones, as beautifully assembled as a porcelain doll: ivory skin, stormy eyes, flaxen hair, svelte build. Elegance and iciness rising from every breath, seeping from every pore.
Whether with reckless admiration or grudging respect, nauseating love or visceral hatred, I am always on the tip of everyone's tongues. And every word is threaded into another layer of the shell in which I ensconce myself, impenetrable. To prey, but not be preyed upon. To be looked at, but never to look.
Funny how a single person, with a single breath, a single glare, a single no can shatter the shell into thousands of shards of silver.
Funny how raw, how vulnerable, how naked I am in his presence.
Funny how desperately, like a starved animal, I long for his touch, his taste, his soft words.
Funny how I couldn't care less about how weak I have become.
Funny how he couldn't care less about me.
Author's note goes here! Hey everyone, my name is teacuptea, the oddly cheery author of this terribly angsty fanfiction!
Now I've read some AMAZING Harry Potter fanfiction, which is all well and good, but I feel as though the strong possibility in terms of the canon story arc is that, really, whatever went on between Harry and Draco was strictly one-sided, on the latter's part. Him not being the most normal bush of the bunch, I feel as though these strong sentiments may have bordered on an angsty, dramatic, and, knowing Draco, slightly creepy obsession. That is really all I'm trying to relay through this story! ^^
Anyway, not to get TOO long with this first note, but since I already had the first two chapters on hand, here they all smushed up. I should be writing more very soon, as I have a lot of time on my hands so hopefully, they will come sooner than later.
Flamers will be [insert clever pun on how they will be obliterated]. Reviews are always welcome, as I am a needy child. :D
~teacuptea