IF Only

I Do not own the twilight book or characters... a girl can dream though

Summery

" my life is a sin so I must be guilty, everything I see and touch I hurt so I must be evil and the only way to stop that is to let myself die instead of the ones I love. Only now have I understood what people say when life is a sacrifice. "

"I think I'll eat now." I said quickly

Alice stood. "I'll come with you."

"Do you mind if jasper comes instead?" I asked. "I'm feeling a little..." I didn't finish the sentence. My eyes were wild enough to convey what I didn't say

jasper stood up. Alice's eyes were confused, but- I saw my relief- not suspicious. She must be attributing the change in her vision to some maneuver of the tracker's rather than a betrayal be me.

Jasper walked silently beside me, his hand on the small of my back , as if her were guiding me. I pretended a lack of interest in the first few airport cafes, my head scanning for what I really wanted.

And there it was, around the corner, out of Alice's sharp sight: the level three ladies room.

"Do you mind?" I asked jasper. " I'll just be a moment." Right then Jasper got a text, I wasn't even three feet away, I started sprinting towards the fire exit stairs. "Bella, wait." I heard jasper call after me

knowing that he would be after me but delayed because of public gave me the little hope I needed to detour in to a lift that was just closing. Just as the door closed there was a massive bang from the out side from jasper hitting the lift.

Finally the lift reached the ground floor which I hoped gave me some time to get out and run for the nearest taxi... or maybe not Alice was standing a few feet away. "Fuck." great how in the hell was I supposed to save my mother now. The look on Alice's face have actually scared me, it was between the piss off and get out of my sight look and the your dead to me look. So in English I'm dead or I'm dead.

I tried to make a big loop around Alice so I could get to the door but Jasper walked up behind me and grabbed my arm pulling me toward Alice. I tried to pull away from his grip but it was impossible, he must of felt it because he tightened his wrist.

"OW!" I cried, he was cutting off my circulation I really must have pissed him off "shut up and keep moving." Yep I pissed him off... where were we going he was heading out the front door and now Alice was right behind him.

...Why the hell were we in the Car park, Jasper lead me towards the car the only good thing was, was that his grip was relaxing. Slightly. When he unlocked the car and opened the back seat door he tried to push me in full cop style with the hand on the head and stuff. "I can get in myself, you don't have to treat me like a baby." "well if you stopped acting like-." he pushed me in and shut the door. How in the hell dose Edward put up with these people.

Hang on where was Alice and Jasper... FUCK there walking away... but I'm still in the car

I tried to pull the door handle but it would not budge "GET BACK HERE AND LET ME OUT YOU STUPID MOTHER FUCKING PICE OF SHIT, I'll BE GOOD I PROMISE."not. "PLEASE...HELP...HELP IM BEING...VAMPNAPED?." every body that was going in my general direction turned away in another direction. I don't blame them I would to but I need to get out my mother is in a life or death situation but of course no one cares.

I need to find away to get out of here the only thing I could think of was to break the glass and even I know that's not the smartest option. But well when your me your first option is normally the last option, well you see us swans aren't really the sharpest tool in the shed so when we think of something that's not so smart we normally do it.

Right now my head was the hardest thing here so I used my head, literally it only took five hits still I started to get dizzy and another ten after that my vision got blurry, it was the seventeenth hit that did it... sort of I didn't break the glass but I passed out