The Fall of the Black Gem
Fall, yet it was snowing. Just like the day she was born. Today is her birthday. Yet I remain here, away, away from my sister. I try hard to keep away from her. I'm afraid to be near her. I try to protect her from where I'm at, it doesn't seem to work. Hopefully HE at least stays near her. Yukina, my sister, my love (as a sister). I always am there. Yet I won't be there. Even if today is your 15th human birthday, I just can't face you. I know I want to be there with, but I can't. The ways between us are different. The ways we are aren't the same. _______~ ~ ~ ~ _________________________~ ~ ~ ~__________________________ ~
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Before I knew the truth
"Hiei." The name, why me? "What" I reply in my usual rude way "Why aren't you coming?" "Why do you care?" "For Kami's sake, she is your sister. You should be there. You haven't seen her in a month." "Kurama, I....I just don't want to see her anymore." I say saddening. "Why though? I thought you cared for her." "I do but, if I go she's going to ask me about her brother. I'd be forced to tell her a lie. I just don't want to see her hurt. If I tell her I'm her brother she'll freak out. I just don't feel like I deserve to be her brother." Sorrow fills my heart "Ether she'll find out and she'll be hurt for you not telling her in the first place. Or she'll be hurt from you telling her all but lies." "Kurama.... I don't want her to know. She'll be ashamed. I..." tears start to form in my eyes," I just...." "Hiei, you need to. She'll love no matter what. You know her, she cares for everyone. Hiei, just do it." "I can't, she'll reject me. " Sadness "No she won't!!!! Get it through your thick skull!!! Dammit Hiei." Kurama says full or anger "Kurama," I say stunned "Well..." "Well...," moments pause "NO!!" "WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM HIEI!!!!" "You shouldn't care what I do Kurama! If I don't want to tell my damn sister I won't! It's my choice what I do and don't do!!! JUST STAY THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE!!!" I say to him madder than I meant to be. My face turns red while I say this. A tear strolls down my face. Before it hits the ground, my tear crystallizes. Turning a blackish color instead of green. Kurama looks down at the fallen crystal," Hiei." That's all he said. I turned away from him. I look to see a few fallen black crystals. I realize what it means. I turn back to him and look at his face. He looks stunned, shaken, hurt. I say his name under my breath. He doesn't catch it. I look at the ground where my crystals lay. He says my name. I sounds.......broken. I look up again. "Hiei," he says my name with angst," Why?" "I don't know. Kurama. I don't know." my cries sound mournful "I thought that.....but how? Why? She's your sister. You can't." "Kurama. I didn't even know. I thought that I, it can't be." "Hiei, why her. Your love, your sister!!!" Dreadful awareness of why it fell strikes me. "Kuwabara...," my only explanation "Him...I knew Barbra wasn't good for anything." "Kurama, I need to tell Yukina the truth. But..." "Hiei, I don't think you should go around her." "It won't happen until a full moon." "You have only 2 days." "Yes I know." "Hiei, still why her? Why?" "I don't know Kurama. I don't know."
Fall, yet it was snowing. Just like the day she was born. Today is her birthday. Yet I remain here, away, away from my sister. I try hard to keep away from her. I'm afraid to be near her. I try to protect her from where I'm at, it doesn't seem to work. Hopefully HE at least stays near her. Yukina, my sister, my love (as a sister). I always am there. Yet I won't be there. Even if today is your 15th human birthday, I just can't face you. I know I want to be there with, but I can't. The ways between us are different. The ways we are aren't the same. _______~ ~ ~ ~ _________________________~ ~ ~ ~__________________________ ~
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Before I knew the truth
"Hiei." The name, why me? "What" I reply in my usual rude way "Why aren't you coming?" "Why do you care?" "For Kami's sake, she is your sister. You should be there. You haven't seen her in a month." "Kurama, I....I just don't want to see her anymore." I say saddening. "Why though? I thought you cared for her." "I do but, if I go she's going to ask me about her brother. I'd be forced to tell her a lie. I just don't want to see her hurt. If I tell her I'm her brother she'll freak out. I just don't feel like I deserve to be her brother." Sorrow fills my heart "Ether she'll find out and she'll be hurt for you not telling her in the first place. Or she'll be hurt from you telling her all but lies." "Kurama.... I don't want her to know. She'll be ashamed. I..." tears start to form in my eyes," I just...." "Hiei, you need to. She'll love no matter what. You know her, she cares for everyone. Hiei, just do it." "I can't, she'll reject me. " Sadness "No she won't!!!! Get it through your thick skull!!! Dammit Hiei." Kurama says full or anger "Kurama," I say stunned "Well..." "Well...," moments pause "NO!!" "WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM HIEI!!!!" "You shouldn't care what I do Kurama! If I don't want to tell my damn sister I won't! It's my choice what I do and don't do!!! JUST STAY THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE!!!" I say to him madder than I meant to be. My face turns red while I say this. A tear strolls down my face. Before it hits the ground, my tear crystallizes. Turning a blackish color instead of green. Kurama looks down at the fallen crystal," Hiei." That's all he said. I turned away from him. I look to see a few fallen black crystals. I realize what it means. I turn back to him and look at his face. He looks stunned, shaken, hurt. I say his name under my breath. He doesn't catch it. I look at the ground where my crystals lay. He says my name. I sounds.......broken. I look up again. "Hiei," he says my name with angst," Why?" "I don't know. Kurama. I don't know." my cries sound mournful "I thought that.....but how? Why? She's your sister. You can't." "Kurama. I didn't even know. I thought that I, it can't be." "Hiei, why her. Your love, your sister!!!" Dreadful awareness of why it fell strikes me. "Kuwabara...," my only explanation "Him...I knew Barbra wasn't good for anything." "Kurama, I need to tell Yukina the truth. But..." "Hiei, I don't think you should go around her." "It won't happen until a full moon." "You have only 2 days." "Yes I know." "Hiei, still why her? Why?" "I don't know Kurama. I don't know."