The Pathetic Tale of Unrequited Love - Chapter 1
Disclaimer: *Holds up birth certificate dripping with whiteout* Haha! Now I finally am... wait... Steppen Mityer? Crap!
Some people say unrequited love is the worst thing on earth. I'd have to agree. I have lived it. My life has been a catastrophe and a sham for the past 13 years and its all because someone doesn't love me back. My hopeless efforts have been wasted for so long.
Oh, I've tried, of course. But there is only a certain amount of trying you can do when it comes to someone you see all the time. I've tried to forget him. I've tried to let go. God, 13 fucking years is a long time to erase.
Edward Cullen. My own personal apocolypse and materialised heart ache. My best friend since 6th grade and my love since 7th. Of course, he doesn't know this and it makes me sound like a completly heinous excuse for a human being. Unfortunatly, it isn't quite as far away from the truth as I would like it to be.
Every Valentines Day since I first laid eyes on him has been particularly horrendous and somewhat tearful. Its the one day he stays away though, thank god. My bin is already full of tissues on that day without him hovering around to see me fill every trash can in the whole fucking neighbourhood.
One good thing to have come from all these years of heart ache is the fact I know myself very well. Since April last year I have finally come to accept my status. Bella Swan : Lonely. Depressed. Stupid. Loser.
April last year was around the time I introduced Edward to my work colleague, Tanya De'Nali, at my 25th birthday party. It didn't occur to me then that Tanya happened to be a French babe that made the all guys freeze when she walked in. Unfortunatly, Edward wasn't exactly immune to her aura of sex that she gives off either.
Which is why Edward thanks me everyday for introducing him to Tanya De'Nali, current girlfriend of Edward Cullen. And without knowing, he also pushes my face into the biggest mistake of my life every minute I'm with him, or should I say, Them.
I never see Edward anymore without her pawing him all the time like some kind of kitten. I am somewhat ashamed to admit that I have considered stabbing a hot poker into her eye more than once, since she is always lovely to me. I kinda wish she wasn't, so I could have a valid reason to hate her. For once.
Which brings me to tonight. Its the 14th of Feburary, my 13th year as a lonely, devoted singleton. Around lunchtime my tissues had disappeared so it was then that I had to suck it up or sneak down to the shops in my sweat pants. I have to admit I chose the latter, although I maintain I did it in style.
Tanya had rang me the day before and invited me to dinner with her, Edward and a few other friends. She joked that I needed to get out on Valentines Day, 'for once'. I could have punched her.
I had my outfit currently layed out on my bed. It was a flowy dress with a coat and heels. Everything black. It fit considering it was Valentine's day. I ran a brush through my thick mahogany hair and stared at my reflection. How I wished my long brown hair was short and strawberry blonde. How my eyes, that were brown and muddy, were sharp and blue. I wished I was Tanya.
I quickly looked at the ceiling. I was not going to show up with panda eyes, even if it was the last thing I did. I gave a quick sniff and pulled on my clothes. I grabbed my keys and handbag, giving my silver cat, John, a rushed pat.
I left the house without looking in the mirror again.
A/N: Hey! Welcome to my new story, The Pathetic Tale of Unrequited Love. I hope you enjoy it cause I'm having fun writing it! Constructive critisism is welcomed and encouraged. I am currently looking for a Beta, so PM me if you would like to Beta for me! Thanks for reading!
-Hayley :D