Me: Hello everyone! I'm back!
Ed: Finally!
Roy: Ed...You know why she has been so busy lately.
Ed: I know...
Me: My Mommy is pregnant *squeals happily*
Roy: * smiles * Ain't that cute?
Ed: I want to have a baby...* looks down at his belly *
Me: I can arrange that!
Roy:*eyes wide*
Me: So my Mommy is on bed rest so I've had to help with all the cooking and cleaning...
Ed: So don't blame her!
Roy: Enjoy this poem while we get the rest of her fics updated!
Bittersweet
Why is it that I care more about the opinions of others then your own?
Is it really so hard to concentrate on you alone?
My love please know that you mean the world to me
But my life is forever shaped by the opinions of others.
I cry and plead for you to understand
But the hurt in your eyes tells me that you truly don't
Please! Please! Please! Oh please understand!
If only to know that I stand by every word I say
I don't lie, At least not to you
Between us love there was nothing but honesty, a simple truth
Oh Edward, my one and only, just listen
You are my world, you always were and always will be
I love you, I LOVE YOU!
You know that don´t you my dear?
I just don't say it often
At least not when you're awake
But I say it every night
Repeat it countless times as you sleep beside me
I feel your warmth and my heart is full of love
How can this be wrong?
Oh Edward, why do I care what others say?
Why can't I just be content with you in my arms.
I'm such a fool
Yes! I am such a useless fool.
You want us to come out
You love me and want the world to know
But I'm scared of what people will say
The Great Roy Mustang? Gay?
I shake my head no
My fear overwhelming my desire to make you smile
Your eyes cloud with tears and your shoulders slump
Edward, don't walk away from me! Why did I cause you so much pain?
And so I stand here all alone
The rain is so very loud
Lighting flashes and thunder booms
And all I want is to be with you
But you packed your bags and left
Told me your heart couldn't face this pain
The pain that I caused you everyday
Just because I'm so selfish and afraid.
Edward....Edward please!
Just come back to me!
I'd give anything, even my next breath
Just to see you smile, hear you laugh
I'm so cold here as I lay alone in our bed
So cold with out you
So lonely without you
Come back....
Tears fall down my face
It's now that I finally see the error of my ways
You mean more to me then words can saw
Why did I let myself push you away
Because you were my light in the darkness
The reason I woke up each and everyday
You're the reason I wanted to be Führer
To protect you each and everyday
I curse my weak will
I don't care what other people think anymore!
I just care about you! Only you!
My angel with fragile, broken wings.
But I pushed you far away
You left with tears in your eyes and a broken heart
You whispered to be the words I shall never forget
"Good bye Roy. For now and forever."
How could I have been so blind
You were everything that I ever needed
You were my world and the reason for my future
But I continued to hurt you and you finally got up and left
Tears, tears, tears
I can't see anything but the hurt that I've caused
Edward, Edo, Ed
Please come back to me, I finally have seen what's right
But you will never come back will you my heart?
Forever is for good
I can't forgive myself for what I've done to you
And I know you'll never forgive me too
I stare into my glass of whiskey
And I'm reminded of your hollow eyes on the day you left
Grief fills my heart anew
A stab at a wound still new
Silver. This gun is silver like your right arm
The arm that was so gentle and yet so strong around me as we made love
I shall never again feel it or touch your body so intimately
And so I hold this gun close to my heart
This gun and my whiskey
Remind me of you
And yet are the complete opposite of you
Sinful in contrast to your innocence
Edward, Edward, Edward
My lovely angel
I cry for you to return to me
I shall work to bring you back into my arms.
But for now the bottle and this gun are my constant companions
Alcohol makes me forget that you are gone
In my dreams you are with me
Like I want you to be
I promise you Edward
I won't give into temptation
I won't pull the trigger
But in my heart I know one thing
Without you life is not worth living.