Okay. I'm so, so sorry about Guns and Love. I know I said I'd update it soon but honestly I just haven't had any time. However I've had this and another chapter of this story sitting on my laptop for about a year, I just haven't uploaded it yet.

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I should stop all of this while I can, before things get messy. I should stop throwing the liquid back, hell I don't even know what is in my cup most of the time. But it's my way of losing all my problems, all my feelings are drowned out by the alcohol and the smoke. I don't know how all of this entered my life, maybe it was by accident or by chance but all I know is I'm surrounded by people I hardly know but they all know me.

I had to leave, I can't stand the clingy people in here, all the over-hormonal teenagers and stupid frat guys hitting on anything that moves. As I step out onto the front porch I take in a large breath of the fresh air, the cool breeze hitting my face, and a small smile tugging at my lips. The walk home isn't far so I begin my journey home, as soon I can I search my pockets for my last cigarette, placing it in my mouth I then search for my lighter I feel a calmness come over me as my fingers graze the cool Zippo in my pocket. Once I've lit up I begin my walk home, hoping and praying I won't look drunk or high when I get home if I do I know Justin will drop me in it with mom and dad. As I approach the house I inhale the last draw of my cigarette before flicking it away and quickly climb the fire escape that is perfectly situated beside my window. I love that fire escape, gives me opportunities to leave and enter the house unnoticed and a chance to have a quick smoke. Once I got in I quickly got rid of the clothes I was wearing and changed into a simple top and shorts. I kick back and let any kind of sleep take over me.

I don't know when my life got to the point where I had to sneak in and out of my own house, maybe it was when I went into my sophomore year at high school or maybe it was when I started going to the skate park. It was one of those days when I just decided to go for the hell of it, I knew it was never overly busy; my only doubt was I didn't know anyone who went there. So I went down to the skate park that's where I met, who, as well as Harper, would now be my closest friends; Miley, Shane, Jason, Nate and possibly Caitlyn. Well I knew Miley and Shane from middle school but none of us really talked to each other, but when I was at the skate park I was just practicing some tricks when Caitlyn strolled over and we started talking about my board and how long I had been skating for. She was pretty easy to talk to, there was something about her I didn't like but I couldn't point it out. They all were easy to be around except Miley. When we talked it was just bland there were no funny jokes or good conversations.

"Nice board." Miley pushed a smile out as she walked towards me and the rest of the guys.

"Thanks I just got it recently," I smile back at her. "Do you skate?"

"No."

That was all that was said between us for about two weeks, the next time we spoke was a little more interesting but it was at a party, so the alcohol probably was a benefitting factor to the conversation, and she told me that she was acting like that because Nate seemed interested in my board than he had been in her that week. I made the connection that she was either out with Nate or she liked him, turns out it was the former of my thoughts. But now Miley's my closest friend, within a year we hit it off and it was like we were joined at the hip.

I entered the school and went for my locker, hoping that I'll find some form of paper that I can write on for the whole day, I doubt it though.

"Miss Russo you're late once again." Mr Laritate tells me in his southern drawl. I turn around and lean against the lockers, taking my time of course.

"Yeah... Well, sorry?" I offer up a smile and hope he takes it as a good apology, I don't tend to apologise much.

"Miss Russo," he sighs.

"Alex. It's Alex, I don't recall my first name being Miss."

"Alex, one more late and I will give you an in-school suspension." I roll my eyes and nod, slowly shuffling to the side, hope he'll catch my drift and will let me leave. Once he turned around, I wasted no time in walking away and out one of the many side doors and to the back of the field. This is where I usually meet Miley and Shane. On approach I hear them laughing and I see a puff of smoke come out from behind a tree.

"No dude I'm telling you she was."

"Shane, trust me she wasn't." I hear the two of them argue, probably about something pointless. "Alex! Come sit and what took you so long?"

"Laritate. What are you guys talking about?" I question them as I get out a cigarette and my lighter.

"Shane is trying to tell me that Caitlyn was a virgin before he fucked her."

"She was, okay I know because everyone told me the morning after." I light up and take a long drag from the stick.

"Shane," I start before I let out a slow breath, watching the smoke dance upwards. "Caitlyn lost it to that French student that was here for like a month." I tell the boy sitting opposite me.

"What did I tell you? Shane you didn't take her virginity, she took yours."

"Wha... No, no, no listen I know okay and what makes you think I was a virgin before then?"

"Because you were a pussy to go after a girl, dude you need alcohol to get near a girl." Miley bursts out laughing, exhaling smoke.

"What the fuck Alex I thought we were cool?" I chuckle at his reaction before taking another drag, finishing off the cigarette, I flick the end away exhaling the smoke, and a soothing calmness takes over me.

"Don't worry Shane I'm sure even Jason can give you some help in the women department." With that I stand up and walk back into the school building as the bell rings for the next lesson.

I can't remember the last time I felt like this, when I just felt calm I don't know it's a difficult feeling for me to get I'm usually always moving or wanting to do something, although that sometimes is usually never good. I've not done that much damage, I've just set fires, broken a lot of old shit and been a teenager and got into a lot of fights. But in my defence the fights are usually when I defend Harper usually. I'm not, as Justin would put it, a hooligan I just cause a little mayhem. It keeps the place interesting.

As I'm halfway to class I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket.

Caitlyn: You told Shane I never lost it to him?

Rolling my eyes I put my phone back in my pocket and walk into class, I don't wanting to reply to her right now. Don't get me wrong Caitlyn is great I just don't see the need in answering her it wasn't just me that told Shane, technically it was Miley. I let out a small sigh and try focus back in on the lesson but I know it'll be futile. I tend to zone in and out of school, I guess that's why my grades are not the best they can be but it's not like I'm not trying, it's just the teachers are so boring in this school. As soon as the bell went off I walked out of school and headed home the dull weather above decided to let loose a few drops of rain before a large crack erupts from above and a downpour begins. I let out a sigh before moving into a run for the distance that remained, not wanting to get soaking wet, and I also had a shift at the sub shop and let's say I'm not on my dad's good side recently. That just sounds swell to me.

"Alex, your shift is in two minutes, better be changed and down in time." I hear his voice echo through from the small kitchen behind the counter. I jog up the spiral steps that we have leading into our house, I see my mom folding clothes at the sofa.

"Hey mom."

"Hey sweetheart, be on time for your shift. It's not been a great day for your father so far." I smile at my mom and change out my wet clothes and put on a pair of black skinny jeans and an Avenged Sevenfold tank top, and shove on the nearest pair of shoes I can find, luckily they're my old blue Converse.

I jump down the remaining four steps and grab my apron and put my notepad beside the till, ready to begin my shift. "I'm ready dad." I call back; I just receive a grumble and a quick wave of his hand. Charming aren't you dad? The shift is pretty quiet to begin with but as it gets to near five and the rain picks up more people begin to enter, probably to just get away from the rain but it makes us look slightly popular, but in reality nobody in their right mind would be a regular here. Even I'd rather work at another place than here, service is terrible and that's mainly down to me.

Halfway through my shift and weather becomes worse, as a deep rumble and a flash of lightning cracks through the sky, oh that means more people will take cover. I can't be bothered with this shift; nobody is ordering they're just standing looking at me. I should probably clean at least one table no point in getting us shut down for being a disgusting, unhygienic shop.

"Oh my god, that weather is terrible," I hear a woman's voice grumble as she walks in the shop, she seems stuck up herself. "Mitchie don't bring that dog in."

"I'm not leaving him in the rain!"

"Well I'm not leaving this warm shop, and you're not bringing the dog in."

"Ah, sorry to interrupt but it is okay for the dog to be in, considering the weather and all." My mom descends from the stairs. "I'm sure nobody else would mind considering it all."

"Thank you." She offers a polite smile my mom.

"I'm Theresa, if you need anything at all; my daughter and myself are on shift with my husband in the kitchen." I wave slightly before turning around and going back to my stool in front of the behind the till. A few moments later a small light brown fluffy dog appears at my feet, I chuckle amused at the dog, it's not one I've seen before. Sliding off my stool I crouch down beside the dog and begin to play with the dog.

"I'm so sorry; he never really becomes interested in other people." I look up at the girl standing in front of me.

"No that's okay he's sweet. What's his name?"

"Toby, he's an Australian Shepard." She smiles brightly, and I seem to just smile with her.

"He's beautiful. Wait no, that's a bit feminine, huh? Okay then, he's handsome." I say ruffling his fur and receiving a lick from him. "I'm Alex." I say standing up and extending my hand to her.

"Mitchie." She shakes my hand, I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket, I excuse myself and answer Miley's call.

"What?" I say into the phone, slightly more aggressive than meant.

"Perfect two pissed off people!" Miley's voice crackles through; it's as if she was here in person.

"Sorry, I didn't mean that. What's up?"

"Caitlyn is pissed at you, and she's told Shane and Jason that she'll settle it with you next time she sees you, which is tomorrow in homeroom."

"You're tripping. Two things: One I'm never in homeroom, and two Caitlyn could never hurt me." I said, my eyebrow popping up at Miley's scoff through the phone. "Are you fucking doubting me?"

"No, but someone sounds cocky. Look anyway that's not the point, the point is Caitlyn is pissed at you."

"Why? Because I told Shane that he wasn't her first? What a fucking ridiculous reason, the whole school knows, Shane was just too up himself to not know that."

"Well she's angry."

"She can go fuck herself, I'm done with her bullshit."

"Damn girl, have you not smoked in a while." Miley jokes, making me laugh a little as I nod my head.

"I'd usually have one now, but the weather is plain shit." I grimace as my mom turns around, glaring at me because of my language. Little did I know, Mitchie was behind me as well.

"Ha, see if you're parents knew then you could be like me and sit and have one in your room." I hear her exhale loudly, blowing the smoke that was in her mouth up and into god knows where in her room.

"Hey Miley, fuck you." I say playfully before hanging up and sighing loudly, I really do need a cigarette now.

I guess that I never knew it but maybe I was addicted, or maybe I just had short patience either way I was in need of a smoke, I guess I'll have to risk the fire escape. But I'll have to finish my shift, which is another hour.

"Everything okay?" Mitchie asks from behind me, I turn around and show her a small smile, shrugging my shoulders.

"I guess."

"Alex, why aren't you taking any orders?" My dad asks from the small hole that he has, I fucking hate that thing, and it lets him see if I'm working or not of course he looks out when I'm not.

"Because nobody has went to the till to order." I roll my eyes at his grumbles, because I'm not Justin he thinks I don't do work. Well I'll not do work. I turned to Mitchie her eyes exploring the sub shop as she stands still her fingertips scratching behind Toby's right ear. I contemplated asking her to come with me for a smoke, but decided against it I don't know her thoughts on that. A few minutes later the weather had calmed down and everyone started to leave, including Mitchie and her mom.

I woke up at the sound of my alarm, the noise pushing away any remains of sleep that I could cling onto and drift off again. My mind goes back to Miley's phone call, so Caitlyn wants to try and kick my ass; the bitch has the nerve to even think she could do that. I get ready for school and head out the door, I bring my phone out of my pocket and search for Miley's name and I shoot her a quick text.

Alex: Meet me out front; I need a smoke before I see Caitlyn.

I don't bother to wait for a reply I know she'll be out front within a minute at the mention of a smoke. Miley is addicted to the things. I'm pretty sure it was Miley herself who introduced me to cigarettes, when I say introduced I mean she made me try one, and from then one she's been the one to blame for the little money I have. The things are fucking expensive.

"Sup bitch."

"Miley, how pissed off is she that I wasn't in for homeroom?" I open up a fresh packet of cigarettes and take one from the left side, second one in. I've always done that since I bought my first packet, seems to be my little ritual.

"Oh my," she chuckles exhaling the smoke that she was holding in. "She looked like she was going to turn into an ape. She was raging." I smile a little, the thought of that amused me as I looked up at the grey sky.

"Good, she'll be easier to beat if she's fuming. What is up with the weather? It's fucking summer and it looks like it's going to snow."

"Did you drink or smoke pot before you left the house? It does not look like it's about to snow. Fuck sake Alex, this is why I know you and Max are related cause you say some stupid shit sometimes."

"Fuck you," I take one last drag before flicking the cigarette towards the car park. "We best go in now."

"Yeah we should."

I haven't come across Caitlyn at all yet and it's nearing the end of lunch, but I did bump into Mitchie, I literally bumped into her she kind of fell on the floor. Turns out she's been here a while she just moved school because it was easier for her family and herself, she's sitting four tables away from me. She's sitting beside Harper, Zeke and Justin. Why she is sitting there, I have no answer to that question. She doesn't seem nerdy, but that could just be because I haven't actually had a class with her yet or because she's actually attractive. Either way, she doesn't seem like the type to hang out with Justin or Zeke for that matter.

I move my gaze from Mitchie and look at Shane; he's sitting opposite me and is staring behind me, probably at the cafeteria entrance. Everyone is bugging out about the whole Caitlyn situation, I mean I seem to be the only one who's relaxed, and there are only two outcomes to what she wants. Either I get my ass kicked more or she does. There's no in-between.

The bell goes signalling the end of lunch and I hop up out of my seat and head towards Harper, since I have my last two classes with her. "Hey Harper." I place my hand on her shoulder getting her attention.

"Oh hey Alex, have you met Mitchie?" She points at the brunette and I nod my head.

"She came into the substation yesterday."

"Oh well that's great! She's in our last two classes as well." I smile a little more knowing this, and knowing that I'll find a little more out about Mitchie.

"Guys aren't we going to be late?" She asks, her eyebrow raised as she grips onto the strap of her bag.

"Nope, the teacher gets us here." I say looking around and seeing that the cafeteria is still half full. On my look around I see Caitlyn leaving the cafeteria, she's laughing and smiling. She turns around and begins talking to someone else, before her eyes land on me and she slowly makes her way against the flow of the crowd.

"Uhm Harper, how about you take Mitchie out of here?" I quickly ask Harper, knowing Harper will freak out if she sees a fight.

Her response is about to leave her mouth, but Caitlyn interrupts her. "Hey Russo why did you think it was your business to go and tell Shane what you did?" I let a chuckle slip loose, why does she not realise what I'm going to reply with?

"Well the school knows you whored it up, so I thought it was only right for Shane to know." I let a small smug smile settle on my face as she gets more and more angry, I love this.

"How about you shut the fuck up about my life?"

"Well why don't you make me?" I cross my arms across my chest, I know I'm just testing her I want to see how pissed off she is over such a little thing.

She just simply slips her backpack off her shoulder before running at me her hands in fists, running head first. I quickly step out of her way, tripping her up making her fall into the table and chairs that Mitchie and Harper were standing at, their faces in complete shock. I walk over to Caitlyn and throw her a quick punch on my left hand before throwing a large heavy right hook at her, but she quickly moved away and it just hit her arm. She sprung herself up and got a few quick punches in before I knocked her down and started raining punches down on her. Only to have Harper and Mitchie stop me, by pulling me off and taking me out of the cafeteria.

"Do you have a death wish?" Harper yells at me, as I brush her and Mitchie off me. "Because I swear you seem to be in a fight nearly every week Alex."

"Harper I'm fine, look hardly a scratch. I'm always fine." I tell her as we head off towards the room we thought our class would be held in. "Mrs Smith, are you okay? The class is waiting for you in the cafeteria." I say as I spot our teacher resting on her desk, she seems to have been crying.

"Wha? Oh yes, I'll go get them now thank you." I shrug my shoulders and take a seat at the back in a grouped table, Harper and Mitchie quickly join, Harper opposite me and Mitchie beside me. We have light conversation about Mitchie's day so far, until the rest of the class enter with Caitlyn trailing in last.

"Why the fuck is she in this class?" I ask Harper, her eyes following my gaze until she turns back and shrugs her shoulders. I sigh and lean back in my chair and quickly zone out for the remainder of the day. Turns out she had transferred class earlier on today, I quickly realised she did that because there's a guy in the class, she's been flirting with even when she was having a thing with Shane. I guess that was a reason why I knew there was something up when she was avoiding Shane a lot, honestly what was so hard that she couldn't tell Shane that she wasn't happy? I don't get why people cheat or become distant, there's no point. I say if you're not happy just say so and it'll save a lot more drama and tears. I swear I had to fucking comfort Shane for a whole month, he was a wreck. I tried parties, pot, women, hell I even tried to get him to a strip club but nothing worked, he just eventually got over her a little.

Words can't describe how happy I was to force her to initiate the fight, she's so easy to wind up and I take total joy out of having that little scuffle with her. Maybe I'm a little fucked up in enjoying that, but I guess that's just simply me.

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