Disclaimer: Even though this song is really nice, I don't own it- Enya does.And I don't ownDoctor Who either.
Summary: During TCI, Rose thinks about what Mickey means to her.
It's only now when words are said
That break my heart in two
I wonder how you can endure
All I've said
All I say to you
I remember leaving you behind. I remember the look on your face as I went off with an alien I'd barely met. You were shocked, and had good reason to be. Not only was your girlfriend walking out of your life but you'd also been eaten by a dustbin and held prisoner by a pool of molten lava. Well, that's what it looked like anyway.
You were always there for me. Even when I came back after Jimmy dumped me, you were true. And right in front of you, I was throwing away your love and giving mine to a bloke I'd only just met. A bloke no-one around knew (unless you count Clive and he was dead by then) and I wasn't even saying goodbye.
How strong, how brave, how true of you
To bear the hurt I gave
I know it tears your heart in two
All I've said
All I say to you
We came back, though. Even though we were a year off. You'd been accused of my murder and had a year of hell because of me and him. But when we came back, it was only really Mum that was mad. And of course, we couldn't tell her what had really happened. You knew, you understood. And you didn't even hold a grudge. And if you did, you didn't let it show. You saved Mum's life. And five minutes later, you saved the entire world. The Doctor didn't seem to care, though. He still called you Ricky.
After all the words are said
After all the dreams we made
Every one a precious one
Every one a summer sun
I still have the memories. Of me and you, sitting together by the fountain near work. You teased me a lot. I pretended to be annoyed, but I really loved it. But when the time came, there was more to see. An alien to tease and be teased by, a whole galaxy of opportunities, the whole of time and space to explore. I couldn't turn it down. I'm sorry about that. As well as everything else.
A moment lost, forever gone,
Can never be again,
So know how much it means to me;
All you said,
All you gave,
All your love to me.
So now I'm with him. I still love you- but it's not like, oh I dunno, girl-boy love. You're like a brother to me now. Especially now. Because he's ill, and he's changed and it feels like my whole world is collapsing in on itself. But you're still there. I love him, really love him, and you quietly accept that. That I've moved on. But I still need you. Your comforting arms around my neck, I need them there. I need to hold onto something when everything around me is changing.
Mickey Smith. I don't know what I'd do without you.