Dear Diary,

Nine months ago I left for fashion school in New York. Like Alfie said, I had to chose between the people that I loved and doing what I loved. I chose doing what I loved. I stepped onto the plane thinking that I was about to the time of my life. However, I stepped off the plane already knowing that I should have chose the people I loved. I had spent seven and a half hours on the plane thinking about Alfie, Nina, Mick, Mara, Patricia, Willow, Fabian, Joy, Jerome, Eddie, and KT.

Alfie. He was my boyfriend, I loved him and I still do. His adorable smile, catastrophic presents, his awkward obsession with aliens, and his less than funny pranks/jokes. His smile would make me melt and want to plant a kiss on his soft lips. His presents always turned bad, but they were always so sweet. His alien obsession was unrealistic, but he was determined to prove his point. And his pranks and jokes were usually stupid, but they seemingly always put a smile across my face. I missed Alfie.

Nina. She was my best friend; the one who would always be there for me through thick and thin. I couldn't have asked for a better roommate. Sure, she was not fashionable at all, but I loved trying to improve her fashion. I also loved supporting Fabina. Fabina forever. Nina was the best friend that I ever could have asked for and I loved her for that. I needed her to hold me up just like she needed me to hold her up. I missed Nina.

Mick. He started out as my boyfriend, but that didn't work out. We weren't the right match and that's okay. Our relationship is better now. He wasnt't my boyfriend, he wasn't my friend, and he wasn't my enemy. He was my brother. He was my shoulder to cry on, and the supporting legs to my table. He would always hold a piece of my heart, just not the boyfriend piece. I missed Mick.

Mara. She was my longest friend. We had shared a room. She'd help me with my studies, and I'd help her with her hair. It was a win win. Until, she developed a crush on Mick. That tore our friendship apart, and honestly it devastated me. Since then Mara and I have become friends again, but we are not as close as we used to be. I miss that. I missed Mara.

Patricia. She is honestly the meanest person that I have ever met, but I love her. I miss the way she teases me, and the way that I could help her with the whole Peddie situation. When she poured water over my head was cruel, but the fact that in the end she joined Sibuna was enough for our friendship to better itself. Sometimes Patricia calls me a "dumb blonde", but shes a goth pixie, so we are even. I missed Patricia.

Willow. She is simply the absolute most annoying person that I have ever met. She always followed me around and I was her role model. She looked up to my fashion sense, and she was willing to be my slave. I always acted like I hate her, but I don't. I love it that she looks up to me as a role model, follows me around like I'm the queen. I missed Willow.

Fabian. He is a nerd, but he was actually my friend. I know that he thinks that I am dumb, but whenever I come up with something brilliant he acknowledges it when pretty much everybody else doesn't. I am amazed that he actually came to me for Fabina advice, however, I am a love, beauty, and fashion guru. A status that most cannot accomplish. I missed Fabian.

Joy. Joy and I were very good friends, and then she was kidnapped by the teachers, and her own father. Then when she came back I was a hardcore Fabina shipper and sought no hope for Jabian. Therefore, our friendship diminished into almost nothing. Until the next term, where we once again rekindled our friendship. And then I left, almost as if I abandoned our friendship. I missed Joy.

Jerome. He always found it funny to play mean pranks on me, like putting a fish under my pillow, or pretending to be zombies and scaring me in the cellar. However mean the jokes were though, I had always laughed it off. Jerome and I were friends, but I don't think that he respects me much. Except when I am mean, then he practically bows down to me. I missed Jerome.

Eddie. Eddie and I were never really great friends, but whenever I need him he is there in a split second. He is the Osirian, a hero, and the other half of Peddie. Peddie is just a perfect relationship that I ship hardcore, as well as Fabina. I missed Eddie.

KT. I hadn't known KT for more than a few weeks, but she seemed really sweet. However, I don't like it that she threw the cereal at Patricia, throwing food is Jerome and Alfie's thing, and throwing liquid is Patricia's thing, but it was brave of her. I missed KT.

As much as I had loved my life in fashion school, there were 2 months left of this term, and I wanted to spend them in the House of Anubis with my friends, so I bought a plane ticket. I hopped on a cab to the airport, and boarded a plane. I was going back.

Would everything be different?

-Amber XOXOXO