Title: Emotions Undone

Summary: After defeating Nero and his Romulan fleet, the only thing young Kirk wants to do is relax and think. But when Spock comes into his quarters, he gets the surprise of his life.

Pairing: Kirk/Spock

Warnings: SLASH don't like don't read. Also there is language. And maybe some mature stuff in there too.

Prologue

James Tiberius Kirk, Captain of the USS Enterprise for all of three days, was completely exhausted. The defeat of Nero and his Romulan crew a few hours prior had left him and his whole crew battle worn. So by his order, they were heading back to earth on impulse while the battle worn crew got some rest before repairs would start the next day. Jim looked at the chronometer beside his bed - never mind, later today.

He too would have been asleep at this god awful hours, but his mind would not let him rest. The only thing - the only person - on his mind was Spock. His feelings for the Vulcan were confusing the hell out of him. And the emotions he felt through the mind-meld with Spock Prime only confused the hell out of him even more. He felt the hardships, the friendship, the love.

Damn.

In the past couple years he had; beaten the Vulcan's test, got himself snuck onto Enterprise, got himself kicked off of said ship, met Spock Prime, got Spock angry after the talk on the icy planet, became Captain, defeat Nero, and nearly got himself killed in the process. In that process he had, without knowing it, fallen in love with Spock.

How the hell did that happen?

He couldn't pinpoint the exact moment in which he started falling in love with the Vulcan, but he could pinpoint the moment when he realized he loved Spock. It was after the mind-meld with Spock Prime. When he felt the old Vulcan's love for the future Kirk, Jim realized he felt the exact same way.

He was screwed.

Jim groaned and covered his face with his hands. Yeah, he was screwed. For one, Spock was with Uhura. And another thing, he wasn't gay! Or at least, he didn't think he was. But these feelings were screwing up his thinking.

And screwing up his sleep.

Insomnia: Chronic inability to fall asleep or remain asleep for an adequate length of time.

He had looked it up last night when he realized for the third night in a row he would not sleep. No one knew he had it. On the outside he was the cocky, 'shoot first ask questions later', Captain of the USS Enterprise. But on the inside, he was just so tired. Tired emotionally, physically, mentally.

The chime on his door when off and he blinked, as if the sound was just a figment of his imagination. But when it went off again, this time more urgently, he knew this was real. He hauled himself off the bed and quickly went to the door; it had to be an emergency if someone was knocking at this hour.

Jim pushed a button on the doors control panel and the doors swished open. He nearly gaped when he saw Spock standing there. But Jim pushed his personal feelings aside and started to worry.

"Spock? Is everything ok? Aliens attacking?"

Spock raised an eyebrow, "No Captain. I came here to talk to you." Jim shrugged and move away from the door to let Spock in. Something told him it didn't concern the ship.

As soon as the door closed behind Spock, the taller man swiftly pulled Jim into his arms; arms around his waist and nose buried in his neck. Jim's heart sped up. "Spock?" He whispered.

Spock shuddered, "I'm sorry. My emotions have been illogical since I saw you fighting on the ship." Jim blinked; he didn't know Spock had seen that. "When I saw you after being transported onto the Enterprise, I was relieved, but I was also confused. The feelings I had for you were illogical and …"

Jim chuckled and pulled away, "Spock, you're rambling."

"Indeed."

Jim took the moment to look at the Vulcan before him. He looked exhausted, as if he hadn't slept at all. The emotions that weren't already etched on his face - confusion, fear - were shining in his eyes.

"Spock, what are you trying to say?" And those were the words that got through Spock's panic.

"I'm sorry," The Vulcan whispered and quickly left the cabin. Jim stood there shock, staring at the door Spock left through; one thing going through his mind:

What the hell just happened?