Disclaimer: i do not own Gravitation or any Basshunter songs i may use in this story. K cocks his gun and points it at me.

"well why did you write it if its not yours?" i chuckle nervously as i eye the gun,

"No, K. I dont own the original Gravitation story. This is just a fiction that I came up with after I read the series. this story is mine, i swear it it's legal! see?" *points to * (do not own)

K lowers the gun but eyes me suspiciously.

"just dont make me do anything stupid." i sigh in relief

" i promise K." Turns to the audience and announce happily

"NOW THAT THAT IS SETTLED, ON WITH THE SHOW"

CHAPTER 1

Normal POV

Shuichi stared at the results from his doctors visit. 'how in the hell can you die from this? It doen't even make sense. I need to go back for more answers. Maybe Hiro will take me'

1 week later

Shuichi was trying to listen to music to drowned out the thoughts from his last doctors visit, when Yuki came in and strarted yelling

"Get out. You are so noisy all the time? WHY? if you cant be quiet, just leave so i can get some work done!" Shuichi stopped dead in the middle of the room and turned around slowly. Yuki was a little taken aback at the seriousness in his lover's eyes.

"Do you still love me?" Yuki narrowed his eyes at that and snorted

"What the hell are you going on about now, love doesnt have anyting to do with it, Baka I said get out!" And Shuichi left.

Shuichi POV

I just stared at the railing blankly. Yup, you guessed it, I'm in the park. Again. I wasnt crying though. Surprising? Yeah i thought so too, but I still cant wrap my head around it. Im dying. There is something I can do about it too. But I'm just so damn scared of leaving Yuki.

You know that little voice in the back of your head? What was it called...oh yeah, common sense. There's another one you might know as a concience, but I dont hear from him much. I just don't need his help I guess. But I'm off topic. My common sense was always nagging in the back of my head that I needed to do something about my condition, but did I listen? Hell no! Not even when I got the last test results, did I give up. But this was the straw that broke the camels back. I don't know what else to do. I'm at my limit. If I try any harder, I'm going to break completely and then I will truly be in a pickle.

And because of my common sense's constant nagging I kept most of my stuff packed, just in case i had to leave suddenly. So when the month long silence started I began slowly (as not to alert Yuki in case it got better) to pack the rest of my things, little things at first, so he wouldn't miss them. So when he said to get out, all I had to do was go into the bedroom, put a shirt on, throw the rest of my shirts from the closet into the bag along with my ipod, put my phone in my pocket and leave. If I wasnt so scared of looking in my lovers face, I might have seen the utter shock..but he cant know, if he knows then he will stop everything for me. That just cant happen, I wont let it.

So now I'm here, in the park, waiting till I have to go to the studio. I checked my watch. 2:45pm. 'Well i guess being a bit early wont hurt' I got up and grabbed my bag. I turned the corner and headed to the studio unaware of the blonde head that just entered the park.

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What the hell just happened? Shuichi was being his usual annoying self with the TV turned up too loud, listening to music and jumping around. I was TRYING to work on a book I've been trying to get done on time, for once, so i could spend some serious time with Shuichi. I've been working almost non-stop on this book for the last month, but with all the racket, I just couldn't take it any more. So I went out there and sure enough he was dancing around being a nuisance, a very cute, alluring nuisance. He was wearing his jean short shorts and no shirt, a bead of sweat started sliding down the middle of his back, ending up down his shorts...those shorts! I swear he shops in the pre teen girl section.

Anyways, I was trying to leash my libido, and I haven't had my coffee...or cigarettes today so I guess I was a bit harsher than I intended, but when he looked so serious and asked me if I still loved him it threw me off guard, so I said the first thing that I could think of. Not my smartest idea, I admit. I guess I was trying to get some "Shuichi normalcy" back again so I tried to make him mad. I never thought he would just leave without a word. He wouldn't even look me in the eye, thats how I knew something was up.

The truth is, I love my brat more than anything in this world. I would do anything for him and he knows it. Behind my cold exterior Shuichi managed to carve a tunnel to my heart with a plastic spoon. Now he is permantly a part of me and I couldn't imagine a life without him. Later I will call Hiro and make sure Shuichi is ok.

I have alot of respect for the guitarist. The loyalty to Shuichi and later, to myself. He is truly what I would call a friend. And it's all because of my little pink haired lover. And we are back to Shuichi. God, I need to get some fresh air.

I ended up in the park, head leaned back, cigarette hanging from my mouth, sitting down on the bench. My arms are on the back of the bench and I began to think. 'Why would he put more clothes in his bag?' I was aware he had an overnight bag ready in case I kicked him out so I could work. 'So why?' My eyes widened and I shot up and ran out of the park, back to our apartment.

When I got there I looked around for the famous Shuichi mug. It wasnt there. I ran to the bedroom and looked at the night stand. Shuichi always kept his music ideas piled there in case of sudden inspiration. They were gone. Except one peice that was folded neatly, I reached over and grabbed it, as if it were fragile. It read:

Dear Yuki,

im sorry, Yuki. its not your fault and i will be back, dont ask why because it would take to long to explain and i dont have much more time if i keep living like this. im so sorry but i need to fix something in myself before i can be with you again. i wish i didnt have to leave but i will be back in 3 years i promise. please wait for me.

forever,

your brat

I fell to my knees just staring at the tearstained piece of paper. 'I dont understand. What the hell does he have to fix? Is he sick? Now that I think on it, he stopped yelling for me when he got home, stopped glomping me. And I was too engrossed in my work to notice what the hell was going on. I need to find him' I got up and headed out the door, folding the paper gently and putting it in my pocket.

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When I got to the studio, I went straight to Tohma's office and knocked. A quiet "Enter" was heard and I walked in. I saw a flicker of surprise before his usual smiling mask was firmly in place.

"What can I do for you Shindou san?" I saw him glance at the bag and I couldnt help it, I started laughing...and laughing and laughing till my vision blurred. Tears streamed down my face as I fell to my knees, supporting myself with my arms. As I started sobbing I felt arms pull me up and wrap around me...Crooning to me, shushing me, telling me it was going to be alright. When the sobbing subsided the tears never stopped and I never let go of my death grip I had on Tohma.

"I cant do this anymore, I went to the doctor and he doesnt know why I'm not getting better, but I do. Please let me disappear for awhile, keep tabs on me or whatever, I dont care, just let me go so i can fix it. Let Ryu chan be the vocalist, just till I get back. Please." Tohma was rubbing my back just listening to me till I was done.

"What about Eiri?" He asked quietly. I slowly pulled away and looked at him, he gasped at my pained, helpless expression and I knew I didn't have to say anything and he nodded. I hugged him tightly and thanked him. Got up and left, bag in hand.

I wandered down to Bad Luck's studio and pulled out a couple pieces of paper, one was a song I just finished the lyrics to. Two others were for the band as a whole (including K and Sakano) and one was for Ryuichi and Hiro. I set the notes down by Hiro's guitar and I took the lyrics and went over to turn everything on for the last recording I would do for awhile. I put on the headset mic, flipped on the keyboard, grabbed the guitar, turned on the amp, set the synthesizer, and began to play. I let the feel of my music roll around me as I began to sing (author note: this song is called Angels in the Night by Basshunter)

You are,

My light in the dark

You are,

The beating in my heart

But that is not enough,

Will I ever be by your side.

Your hair is dancing in the wind

Your eyes are burning up my skin

And I'm so happy when I see,

That you are smiling back at me.

Your leaving burn marks on the ground,

Thank you god, for what I found.

I dont know how,

I dont know why,

But your my Angel in the Night.

I flipped the guitar behind my back and turned to the keyboard, playing the music i heard in my head.

You are,

My light in the dark.

You are,

The beating in my heart.

Let me hold you now,

Just like days before you start to cry.

You are,

My light in the dark.

You are,

The beating in my heart.

But that is not enough,

Will I ever be by your side (prepare for lauch in 3, 2, 1)

As I began to play the keyboard again I felt the strap from the guitar being removed and I smiled as tears started to form in my eyes when I heard Hiro begin to play. I didn't know when we would be able to do this again and it made me play my heart out.. This would be the best song we have ever written if I had anything to say about it.

I try my best to satisfy,

But all you do is wave at me goodbye.

I dont know what i'm gonna do,

But im so crazy about you.

Even if I dont know where to start,

Even if my love is tearing me apart,

I just know,

That you and me

We are always meant to be.

You are,

My light in the dark.

You are,

The beating in my heart.

Let me hold you now,

Just like days before you start to cry.

You are,

My light in the dark.

You are,

The beating in my heart.

If that is not enough,

Your my Angel in the Night.

It was a perfect recording, first go around. I hung my head and turned off the record button. I went over to my bag just to see feet standing next to them. I looked up to a crying Hiro. I flung myself into his arms and held him tightly saying "I'm sorry" over and over. He just held me for a moment and pulled back to look at me.

"Do what you need to ok? I understand." he grinned then and added

"I'm surprised it didnt happen sooner to be honest. but do me a favor?" I nodded furiously, I would do anything for my best friend.

"Keep me posted." again I nodded, I couldn't seem to form any words around the knot that lodged itself in my throat. I hugged him again and picked up my bag, wiping my eyes as I did. I gave Hiro a weak smile and a wave over my shoulder before I left.

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I watched as Shuichi walked out the door and as soon as the door closed I slumped into a chair and held my head in my hands. The first to find me was K and instead of feeling the cold sting of metal against my temple, arms wrapped around me and just held me while I broke down and sobbed into his chest. I dont know how long we stayed like that, but thats how the rest of the band found us. By then my tears had subsided and I started breathing normal enough to pull myself together so not to look as pathetic as I felt. I looked at K's shirt and it had a big wet spot on it.

"Sorry about that" was all I could manage. K just softly smiled and shrugged. I turned to the rest of the band and took a deep breath, trying to calm myself enough for this.

"Shuichi left." at this I got the reaction I was expecting, Sakano was in tornado mode again and Suguru looked furious, mumbling incoherent things. I looked to K for some help and he pulled out his hand gun and fired once. The room was silent again and I had to take another breath before I could go on.

"It's something thats had to happen for awhile. No I don't know where he is going and no I dont know when he will be back, but he will come back." I had to add that last part, looking at everyone as if daring them to deny it. I went to my guitar and picked up the notes, I put the one for me and Sakuma san in my pocket, it was something I think we needed to read together. I gave the other note to K and he looked at me and opened it.

to everyone,

K, I already know your reading this aloud. Always so responcible:) Sakano san please calm down and keep up all your hard work, Fujisaki san please just hear me out before you call me irresponceable and other things I just know you are mumbling under your breath. K san please do something for me. Look after everyone. I know they are going to need you now, more than ever. Hiro, the things I want to say to you are more personal so I put it in a separate note. Everyone, please understand that this is something i had to do. i dont know where im going but if im not back in three years, you all can shoot me, im sure K san wont mind :) i need to fix myself so i can be of use to the your wondering i will put it bluntly, im dying. and by doing this im finding help. i wont be any good to you like this. so i am asking you that whoever is going to be the new singer, please accept him with good graces...wow i think this is the longest ive ever been so serious. maybe its a good thing, we will see. i will see you all again and eagerly await you all yelling/taking shots at me. i will be back in 3 years.

love with all my heart,

shuichi

P.S. make sure this song gets famous and sells out.

Everyone was silent for a moment. Suguru just nodded his head and looked at me looking pissed, but determined. K's hand was shaking slightly as he looked to me, a single tear escaped his eye as he too nodded. Sakano was just staring at the floor for the longest time before he looked at me and nodded.

"So, its settled. I need to go find Sakuma san." I went over to the recording system and pushed play before I left, the sound of our song resounding as I went down the elevator.

I wandered down to Little Graspers old floor where Ryu spent alot of his time. I was about to open the doorwhen a squeal resounded itself down the hall. I braced myself and sure enough was glomped by a very hyper Ryuichi Sakuma.

"Hiro chan! Have you been crying?" and in the blink of an eye childish, hyper Ryu was serious. He got up, pulling me up with him and led me into the empty studio. We made our way to some chairs and sat down. I pulled my chair closer to his before taking my seat and at his questioning glance I explained.

"Its a note from Shu to the two of us." something flashed in Ryu's eyes but it was gone in an instant. He nodded and I pulled out the note.

Ryu chan and Hiro,

i know you understand why i left, your the only two that ever would without me saying anything, but you were at the hospital with me huh lol. it just got too bad. i dont want to die so im goin for awhile. please dont feel that you didnt do enough, last time at the hospital, the doctor said if i was to get better i would have figure a way around it or thru it, so im opting for thru so i can get rid of it forever. thank you for being such good friends to me you will never know how much it means to me. as i told the band, if im not back in 3 years i will be expecting you to do something drastic:) lol. but if 3 years from this date at noon im not in the Tokyo International Airport either something bad has happened to me or i woke up late and i am running extremely late. either way i will keep in touch with the two of you. the only one your allowed to tell the details of my condition, is Seguchi sama. and thats only if he inquires, honestly i dont want too many people worring about me, cuz if that happens then no one will be able to work. if Eiri asks. just tell him that I am safe. i will call you once i figure out where im going. so please dont worry. please take care of each other and make sure Eiri is taking care of himself.

with everything i have left,

shu

"He didn't even tell me goodbye" whispered Ryu. I knew how I felt, but for Ryu, Shu was the first person since he became famous that cared enough about the real Ryu to see what was under the facade. The first person in whom Ryu confided in completely. I followed suit and we became the 3 muskateers. All for one and one for all. We looked at each other and made a silent pact. This note would be followed to the letter and we would always support him. Ryu had silent tears running down his face and I just held him, trying, futilely, not to cry myself.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*Yuki POV

I went to the studio and went right up to Tohma's office. If anyone knew how to help me it would be him. Over the years, Tohma made an effort to get to know Shu, and by god if my brat didn't win Tohma over as well. The way they treat each other at work is more like a game now. They ended up best friends just like Hiro and Ryu, I just know if it was something Shu didn't want to worry me about, he would go to Tohma.

When I got to his office, I walked in without knocking and froze. Tohma was kneeling in the middle of the room looking at the wet spots on the floor, unseeing. I went over to him and knelt in front of him. When he still didn't notice me I lifted his chin to look at me. My eyes widened at what I saw. The normal icy smile was replaced by a tearstained face and his normal prestine suit was ruined by a dark spot on the shoulder. His eyes blinked as recognition dawned on him. His voice was shaky as he said

"I don't understand, Eiri. he was fine, right? he wasnt going to die, right?" god he sounded just like a child, I just held him like he did for me all those years ago in New York. Then it hit me, die? who's going to die? I pulled away and looked him in the eye

"Who, Tohma?" but I already had a feeling that I already knew. Still, when he looked up at me with his big aqua eyes, it was just a confirmation. I closed my eyes for a moment, trying to think of something that would help us figure this out. 'Wait'. My eyes snapped open and I pulled Tohma up and fixed him up as best I could before dragging him down to Bad Luck's studio.

to listen to these songs you can go to

.com/ireanvamprate the playlist is under writing music.

K whips out his gun and i dance around, dodging bullets (imagine trigun) as he yells

"YOU. SAID. YOU. WOULDNT. MAKE. ME. DO. ANYTHING. STUPID!" still dancing around i try to explain

"HOW IS ONE TEAR STUPID? WHAT IF YOU FOUND OUT THAT SHU WAS ACTUALLY DYING?" The bullets stop and i fall on my face, breathing heavily. i looked up to see K sniffling and wiping his nose like a child. *sweat drop* and he said that one tear was stupid. i got up and dusted myself off.

"hope you enjoyed the first chapter, till next time"