First of all I would like to say that I'm new at this... so I really would like honest feedback. Let me know if I suck! I need to hear it if it's true. Ok, so I started thinking of this story a little while back. My only problem is starting. That's the hardest part of writing, finding the beginning.

This story incorporates a lot of my own personal life as well as SON. I guess we'll just see where it goes! Oh and feedback is much appreciated if I didn't already say that 

Disclaimer: I own nothing, except for the computer I'm using to type this.

Chapter 1: The Background

I guess I've always known. I mean how can someone go their whole life without knowing what their true sexuality is? I just never wanted to admit it to myself. Maybe that's why I'm 21 years old with a loser boyfriend who thinks I want to marry him someday. Yeah, that's just great.

"For the last time Aiden, I don't want to just stay home and watch some stupid hockey game! I don't know why we never actually do anything anymore." I am so freaking bored. It's a Saturday afternoon and my boyfriend, Aiden, won't get off the couch.

"Ash, seriously. I just want to watch the game. We can like do something later, you know like in bed."

"Ok, um no! I can't believe that's all you ever think about. I am so going home. Call me later if you want."

"Yeah whatever, bye Ash."

And that is how our days have been going lately. We started dating about 2 years ago and I thought he was like the perfect boyfriend. We used to go out with friends or go the dinner and a movie, but now… all he ever wants to do is stay home, eat, watch sports, and have sex. I'm so not into any of those things with him. I know that sounds really weird because I mean he is my boyfriend and I'm supposed to be into him. But the problem is, I'm not.

When we started dating I wasn't sure what I wanted in life. I had been jumping around from guy to guy and I was tired of it. I knew that I wanted a stable relationship, but I didn't know who I wanted it with.

Problem: I had this friend, Lindsay. We were totally inseparable. And I was totally falling for her. But I could not be gay. Not possible. I had to find a way to distract myself from loving her.

Solution: Find guy. That's when I found Aiden. I met him at the mall of all places. He was eating. Now there's a big surprise. I struck up a conversation because I thought he was somewhat attractive and he asked me out. We've been together for 2 years now. As for Lindsay, well we were best of friends for years so that didn't stop when I found my Aiden, but it did make things different. We cut way back on the long weekends at each others houses and slowly but surely lost touch. Now in my second year of college I don't even talk to her anymore. Man do I regret that, but I hope to see her again someday. I still think about her all the time.

"Hey Ky, you doing anything tonight?" On my walk from Aiden's place I decide to call my roommate Kyla.

"Well I think we're going to go out later tonight if you want to join. What happened to Aiden?"

"Oh, you know the usual. He's just getting on my nerves and I can't stand it anymore. I don't know Ky… I think I might have to break up with him." I actually said it. Oh my god I can't believe I finally verbalized my true feelings about this.

"Wow Ashley, are you sure about this? If you are then we need some serious convo time before we hit the club." Kyla is way too into the club scene, but hey I love her anyways.

"Yeah ok, I should be back really soon. I think I'm going to stop at the coffee shop first though, do you want me to pick anything up for you?"

"You mean other than a hot guy? No I don't want coffee… too bitter."

"Alright freak, I'll see you soon!" I stopped at the local coffee shop to pick up a vanilla latte when I caught a glimpse of the most amazing thing I've ever seen. She was amazing and couldn't stop staring.