Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters from Rent, they belong to the beloved genius of Jonathan Larson. I do own this story and the characters that I come up with. Please do not steal them, for I will find you.

Angel looked around him, the walls were all a dark green and the room had a warm cold feeling about it. Angel didn't know where he was, and he was freaked, he couldn't stand not knowing where he was and how he got there. Angel closed his eyes and then opened them, hoping to see a change of view when he opened his eyes. No such thing happened. The walls were still a dark green and the feeling was still the same, Angel was getting more and more freaked as each second ticked by.

"Where am i?" He asked out loud

No answer.

Angel tried to remember how he got here, he wasn't sleeping, he knew that. He couldn't be sleeping, this was to real to be a dream of any sort.

"Come on Angel remember." He said to himself

Angel closed his eyes and tried to remember the last thing that he saw. A room, a light pink came into view behind his closed eyes, the was a beeping sound and in front of him were his friends. Mimi, Roger, Maureen, Joanne, Mark but where was Collins. Angel wanted to know why Collins wasn't in the picture that he remembered.

"Collins!" Angel whispered,

Angel opened his eyes and there again was the dark green room. Angel looked around, he wanted to know where he was.

"Anybody here?" He asked out loud

Angel looked around, nobody was there. Nobody answered his question and Angel was left to himself, his thoughts and his memories, which weren't coming to him.

"Collins where are you? I need you, I need you!" Angel pleaded out loud

No answer.

Angel closed and opened his eyes again, hoping to see a image of Collins his lover in front of him. But instead now a figure dressed in a white skirt and a brown knit sweater was at the other end of the room.

"Hello?" Angel asked

The figure turned around and began walking towards Angel, Angel backed away. He was freaked out even more now, and he didn't want to know what or who the person was. He just wanted Collins.

As the figure came into view Angel stopped backing up and tilted his head.

"Mom?" Angel asked

The woman nodded, Angel rushed into his mothers warm and comfortable arms.

"Why are you here?" Angel asked

"I'm here to help you." HIs mother answered

"Help me with what?" Angel asked backing away from his mothers grip

"You."

"Oh no, this isn't a try-and-get-angel-heterosexual again is it?" Angel asked

Angels mother let out a small giggle. And Angel was a little taken aback from his mothers laughter.

"No. no this isn't. I'm here to help you, accept your situation."

"My situation? what does that mean? where am i?" Angel asked a little angry

"Come with me." His mother said extending her hand which Angel looked at and then after a while took the hand.

Angel was led through a door, and into another room. There on one of the walls was a still of Angel and Collins. Collins was holding Angel, Angel was drenched in sweat and Angel closed his eyes when he saw the picture.

He knew where he was now, and he didn't need anyone to tell him where he was and how it had happened, he knew all too well.

"I cant be here." Angel said hanging his head

His mother put a arm around her son and pulled him into a hug.

"I'm not ready to leave the people i love. Collins. I'm not ready to leave him." Angel sobbed into his mothers shoulder

"I know. i wasn't ready to leave you or your father." Her mother comforted

Angel looked at the picture, it had changed to a scene of Mark, Roger, Mimi, Collins and Angel all in a park watching fireworks. Angel and Collins were in each others arms and Mimi and Roger were kissing. Mark had his camera fixed on Collins and Angel.

The picture changed again, this time of Angel in a doorway, his mascara running from the tears staining his face and Collins was leaning against the wall, his face in his hands.

Angel remembered the conversation that him and his lover had just had.

"Collins, when i die i want you to just let me die. live your life, love. a life without love is like a life without breath." Angel said

Collins looked at his lover, tears began to fall Angels eyes, his mascara began to run and Collins rushed to his lover. Took the fragile man into his arms and held him.

"I'll never leave you. I wont be able to love again after your gone. I wont, i wont let myself."Collins said

Angel weakly pushed Collins away.

"You have to, think of it as a gift to me. When I'm up in heaven looking down on you i want to see that your happy not just living your life until your death day. Live it for me. Live like I'm alive."

Collins looked at Angel and tears began to pour off of both of the lovers cheeks and hit the floor in sequence.

Angel looked back at his mother.

"I don't remember why Collins wasn't in the hospital room when i died. Why wasn't he there?" Angel asked

Angels mother nodded towards the wall again, and there was a little image that began to play as if a movie was being projected onto the wall.

Collins looked around the room, there stood all his friends. Mark, MImi, Roger, Maureen, Joanne, everyone was there. Angel was on the bed, he took a deep breath in and sighed. Collins closed his eyes, he couldn't stand this. this wasn't supposed to happen, not this soon at least.

'Why cant you wait a few years, until we're ready?' Collins pleaded 'Please, don't take him now' He said to God or whoever was listening to his pleas.

Angel moaned

"Collins." Angels weak voice said

Collins looked up and he slowly got up, he walked over to the bed, and bent over to Angels height in the hospital bed.

"Yes lovely?" Collins asked

"I love you." Angel replied

"I love you too." Collins answered. Tears began falling onto Angel from Collins's eyes.

Angel closed his eyes.

"I always will, no matter where you are. no matter who your with. i'll always love you and i'll always be waiting for you to come and take me in your arms and hold me. I'll be waiting." Angel replied

"I'll be waiting too." Collins said crying harder now.

Angel smiled at his lover, and closed his eyes.

"Can you get me more water?" Angel asked

Collins opened his eyes.

"I don't want to leave you." Collins said

"Please. Come back soon though." Angel said

Collins closed his eyes, opened them leaned down to Angel and took Angels head in his hands and kissed Angel as passionetly and as loving as he could.

Collins picked up the glass and began to leave the room, before he did he turned around and looked back at his lover.

"I love you, and i will forever." Angel said

Collins closed his eyes and walked out the room.

As he walked out the room Angel closed his eyes and passed into the next world.

"How could i do that? Why didn't i let him stay with me when i died?" Angel screamed at the wall, he turned to his mother and looked at her.

"Watch what Collins does." She said

The image turned to Collins standing outside the hospital room door with a plastic cup in his hand and he slowly leaned against the wall and let himself slip down the wall.

Collins's tears were flowing, Collins let his head fall into his hand and he shook with the sobs that were coming out of him.

Mimi, Mark, Roger, Maureen and Joanne all in tears slowly exited the room after saying their goodbyes and walked past Collins without saying anything to him, without acknowledging he was there.

Collins slowly got up and walked back into the room.

Collins looked at the bed, and saw his lover laying lifelessly on the hospital bed.

Collins rushed over to the bed and climbed on, he took his lover in his arms and cradled him, shaking with the sobs and kissing Angel over and over again. hoping Angels eyes, would open, his lips part and let Collins embrace him like he used to.

Collins held Angel for awhile and slowly he looked at Angel.

"Angel, i'll always love you. I'll never be able to love anyone but you. You are my life." Collins voice began to slowly change into a soft sobbing song "Live in my house, i'll be your shelter. Just pay me back with one thousand kisses. Be my lover, and i'll cover you."

Collins broke in hard sobs and he began shaking again. His tears began soaking his dead lover and Collins slowly kissed Angel.

"I love you. all my life. if your cold and lonely." Collins broke into sobs again and slowly they stopped enough to sing softly "When your heart has expired!"

Angel fell to the ground, his tears falling as fast as they could.

"I'll cover you." He answered his lovers song

"There is away to help Collins." his mother said

Angel looked up.

"What?"

"Its not recommended but its done often. It will help you and him. You'll be able to love each other again, he'll hold you in his arms and you'll be able to share kisses. its up to you."

Angel looked at his mother and then back on to the wall where the image of his lover cradling his body and covering Angel in kisses.

Angel looked back at his mother.

"What is it?"