Author's Note: This is my first fanfic, so please R&R. Constructive criticism is always welcome. I don't own HSM, RENT, or anything else motioned. But a girl can dream, can't she? Now to the story…
I sat here with the razor to my wrist. Thoughts clouded my mind, as I cut through my skin. As the blood ran from my vein, those thoughts left me. I straighten up and walked my self to the sink, to wash the pain away. I looked up at my self.
'What am I doing? I'm the captain of the basketball team with a championship under my belt. Troy why are you doing this?' I thought as I hid my secret from the perfect life everyone thinks I live, and cleaned my self up. But this was the only method that I could use to mange my anger and depression. My shaggy hair fell in my face, as I got up from hiding it.
"Troy! Breakfast!" My mother called. It was around 7 o'clock and dad left at 7:15. So I needed to get steppin'. I slipped on some dark wash jeans, a pair of Nike's, a red tee shirt, and my white East High zip up hoodie. Running out of my room, I took two steps at a time so I wouldn't make dad late.
"Morning Play Maker!" Dad greeted me.
"Hey dad! What's for breakfast?" I asked plopping down around the table. I had to make sure when I ate or did anything for that matter I didn't let my scars show.
"Pancakes, with bacon, hun" Mom said placing the plate in front of me. My mouth drooled a bit. I glanced over at the clock it was 7:05, so I had to eat quick. I started to grub down on the food, it was flippin' awesome. A couple minutes later I was walking out to the car with duffle bag and a backpack in tow. I hopped in the car, a bit before my dad, so I could get my Ipod on something that fit my mood for the day. I had to go through half of the 456 songs before I found anything that was even close. I finally decided on 'Holy Water' by Big and Rich. I let the first chorus pour through my headphones.
''Somewhere there's a stolen halo
I used to watch her wear it well.
Everything would shine wherever she would go
But lookin' at her now you'd never tell.
Someone ran away with her innocence;
A memory she can't get out of her head.
And I can only imagin what she's feelin when she's pray'n
Knealing at the edge of her bed."
"Son, you ok?" My dad asked. I nodded; I must have been starring into space again. "Ok, I was just making sure." He said. The short drive to school was uneventful really. He parked the car into the faculty parking lot at East High. I got out, so that I could find my friends. It was a sanctuary being around them.
"Is there practice during free period?" I asked before I bolted far from my dad, and he gave me a nod. I waved to him as I walked into the school. As I walked into the building I got high-fives and random people yelling for me. I nodded to them but I wasn't focused on them until I got to my group of friends.
"Hey, 'sup everyone?" I did a gangster pose after that, just so I could get a laugh out of everyone. Of course it got a chuckle out of everyone.
"I can't believe it; we're doing 'RENT'." I heard Sharpay exclaim, I looked at her.
"Rent?" I was so confused, 'What the hell is Rent?' I thought. Sharpay didn't answer, but she continued to talk about it. Chad was sitting down with the other Wildcats, so me being me sat down beside him. I could sense that something was up.
"Chad dude, 'sup?" I asked the curly haired boy. I surveyed his body quickly before he could notice.
"Nothing really just waitin 'for homeroom, I guess." Chad didn't really know what to say. He was slightly out of it, with Taylor being gone for 2 weeks. Chad was bummed.
"Dude its ok. Tay's gonna be back soon." Zeke said, while getting cookies out for Sharpay and himself. "Hey you can love on her as much as you want when she's back." Zeke joked, but well Gabi didn't think it was funny so she slapped Zeke in the back of the head. "Ouch." He said. I got up so I could check on Kelsi, her and her boyfriend of three years, Jackson broke up recently. Kelsi's been has taking it hard. So she hasn't been the best shape.
"You guys, I'm gonna go check on Kelsi alright?" I told the group, as headed to the practice rooms.
"Alright playmaker." Jason said, as he was trying to balance a ball on his fingers. I gave a small laugh to him, and then headed off. When I got into the west hallway, I looked around, after knowing the coast was clear, I pulled up my sleeve. I had to check on my scars, because my older ones were getting irritated and puffy. 'What is going on with them?' I glanced down back at my wrist, and then looked back up. 'I'm gonna check on them later, they'll be fine.' I thought as I approached the practice room. I placed my ear to the door, and I heard this depressing ballad coming from Kelsi.
'Without you, the ground thaws Without you, the seeds root The stars gleam The Earth turns
the rain falls
the grass grows
the flowers bloom
the children play
the poets dream
the eagles fly
without you
the sun burns
but I die, without you..'
She pressed hard against the last key hard. Then I heard muffled cry. So I thought it was time to open the door.
"Kelsi?" I asked as I poked my head through the door. She looked at me. Yet Kelsi quickly wiped away her tears.
"Hey Troy." She said, trying to wipe away her tears before I noticed anything.
"You ok?" Hell I didn't know what else to say. I popped open the door with my right foot and squeezed through the door. I've been in this room before with her so we could practice for last year's musical. I was about 10 steps into the room before Kelsi looked the other way so I couldn't notice the tear stains on her cheeks.
"…No." I knew her answer before she told me. Yet her crying got harder, and I ran to her. I didn't know what to do. I got behind her and wrapped my arms around her crying small form. I spoke into her ear.
"Shhh. Kelsi, he was a jerk. There's someone for-"The bell cut me off. I didn't really know how to say this to her, hell I shouldn't be scared of telling a girl that I'll talk to them later. "Umm…I'll talk to you at lunch?" Kesli nodded. Then I ran out of the room so I could get homeroom in time, so I didn't get a detention with Darbus. I took off across the school; my homeroom was in the east wing, so I had to rush. I glanced up at the clock before I past it, 'Shit, 7:53 I need to get going.' I thought as I raced off, I ran into Darbus's room before she got there.
"Hey playmaker!" Chad said motioned for a high-five. "Where have you been, the monster of theater was gonna bust your chops." The bell rang, so I sat down in my seat and continued to talk to Chad.
"Welcome back, class! I hope all of you had a great break." Darbus announced. There was a groan from everyone including myself. "I'm sure all of you have heard about this year's winter music-cal is Jonathan Larson's hit, "RENT"
People 'ohh' and 'awed', but I didn't know what to think. For the rest of homeroom, Darbus went on about the story and roles.
'Come on, I want Darbus's rant to stop!' I thought, and well it did. The bell rang, so I hopped up outta my seat and headed to my other classes until lunch. God they were boring! Chemistry was blah, all the teacher did was review. And English 3, all we did was discuss the importance of reading in everyday life.
A/N: The song that Sharpay and Ryan sing is 'Without You' from Rent. Please comment and leave ideas! Thanks!