READ AUTHOR'S NOTE PLEASE

OK, SO I'VE BEEN WANTING TO WRITE THIS FOR A VERY LONG TIME, IT'S JUST I NEVER GOT AROUND TO IT. SCHOOL WORK. SOCIAL LIFE, ETC... SO WHAT IM GOING TO DO IS POST ONE OF THE CHAPTERS I HAD PLANED FOR LATER ON, AND IF YOU GUYS LIKE IT, I WILL CONTINUE UPDATING IT. THE NEXT CHAPTERS WILL BE LONGER AND WILL TAKE PLACE RIGHT AFTER "HELL BENT" (CHRISTMAS SPECIAL WON'T EXIST EITHER) AND I WILL KEEP UPDATING UNTIL THE STORY CATCHES UP, AND CONTINUE FROM THERE. FEEL FREE TO LEAVE YOUR THOUGHTS, AND LET ME KNOW WHAT I CAN DO BETTER. IF YOU LIKE IT, I PROMISE THERE IS A LOT MORE IN STORE FOR THE FUTURE.

SO HERE YOU GO THE PROLOGUE TO - "INSANITY"

"Do you ever question the definition of insanity? Wait, let me guess, no?" he chuckles under shallow breath "Good, you shouldn't, ever question the truth behind it all. No, wait!" he's laughing a bit too amused "Let me just take a wild guess. I bet you're probably really curious about what I'm saying. Am I right? Because you should be." More laughter bellows from his chest, a distant crazed look in the eye "Do you even know the definition?" He makes eye contact with distant crazed eyes "The definition, of insanity, is doing the same thing, the SAME thing, over, and over, and over, and over, each time falling deep, deep, deeper, and deeper further, and further, into darkness, each time expecting different results." "Even though it's been the same thing, the SAME THING!" "Every time, the same results, and you're repeating them on a loop, like a broken record, never stopping, NEVER halting. Until, finally, you're absolutely incased, trapped, in pure... unadulterated... Madness..."

his face turns all too serious "For me, hell, look at me." "I said, LOOK AT ME!" his shoulders sink as he looks at the floor and lets out a soft chuckle "I'm a mad alien swooping around, in that daft blue box, going here, Going there, saving him, saving her..." With each word the Doctor speaks more frantic, more defeated " Everywhere I go it's the same thing the same thing will always happen! " " Worlds still burn, people die, and it never stops." "The one thing that will always keep on going. The one noise that will never be stopped, the breath that will never breath its last, The one shadow in the corner of your eye, death." "And I hate it..." *The doctor pauses, a far away look forms on his face, a look of sadness.* His eyes gain life again, a look of sadness forms in them as unshed tears stay there, unmoved "Losing people..."

*flashback*

all the people the Doctor has left behind flashes on the screen. All of them, everybody from all his faces, all here. It keeps going, Rose...Donna...Martha...Amy...Rory... and then... A new face? Clara smiling. The mad look suddenly returns to him like a punch the face, "wait...the girl from earlier. who... who is she? tell me!" "You said she was different, You said she betrayed me!" *flashback* all of it, every bit... Every adventure Clara, and he ever had. His 11th face, his 12th face... Every conversation, all of it. All the times they were sad, all the times they were happy, every bit. *flash* The next thing he knew, Clara and the Doctor, are in the Cloisters on Gallifrey "People like you and me, there are things we should say to each other. And I'm going to say them now." The Doctor just stares, blankly at her, " All this it's my fault, every bit of it." she says as tears form in her eyes, and stream down her checks. "Clara." "No!" She cuts him of, "I got reckless, never thought about anything I did or the consequences my actions had. And I am so so sorry Doctor, You went through hell, for four and a half billion years, just for me. I will never be able to repay you." the Doctor looked like he was about to say something, but she cut him off and continued. "The truth is Doctor, I just wanted to enjoy life, when I met you, you made my life so beautiful, and when I lost Danny, you were there for me, and I didn't care if I died or if I lived. I only wanted to travel with you, and that old snog box of yours. And no mater what happens, if you can't save m-" "I will." He interrupts "Doctor, You daft old man." She hugs him, and places a kiss on his cheek, and smiles. "Cla-" "Don't worry Doctor, I'll distract them, just go." *end flashback*

The Doctor just stairs, breathless in shock. "That was her, all along." "You lied to me, you made me do this!"

To be continued

IF I CAN GET 10 REVIEWS ASKING TO CONTINUE, I WILL WRITE THE FULL CHAPTER 1.