Will She Ever Trust Me?

Part 1

BY: (*Areida Tokyo

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Gundam Wing or the characters; they strictly belong to the Sunrise co. and any other anime corporation's. I'm just using them for this really kawaii fic.*^_^*

*WARNING*~This fic. contains the word rape and there's violence. So if you feel uncomfortable to read on, than DON'T. I don't want to push you. So please no flaming.

A/N: (PLEASE READ THIS SO YOU'LL HAVE AN EASIER TIME UNDERSTANDING WHAT I'M WRITING): Endless Waltz never existed. Everyone is 17, also Relena's friend, except the two characters Cory and Michael, they're 15. After the great battle on Libra, Zechs realizes that Relena is too young to have all this responsibility, also in the earlier period of their lives; after their parents died (Relena was 9 and Zech was 13) something horrible happened to Relena (only at the age of 10), and Zechs wasn't going to risk history to repeating itself since the danger was now even higher because of Relena's last name and the meaning of it. So under Zechs orders and wishes, Relena was going to live with their aunt and uncle, so she could live a normal life; at least what was normal to RELENA!

Ok, Relena is NOT a Gundam pilot, yet she has combat experience that she learned from the Gundam boys and Zechs, so if she wanted to go off a fly a mobile suit well she could. Relena has a best friend name Andrea, who is adopted and is a neighbor of Relena (2 houses down). Its summer break and Relena is a wild, hyper, free, unique tom-boy with a bad past that is shared with Andrea and Heero is going to try to understand her history and try to stay best friends with her or maybe more than pals*^_^* Well on with the fic.

Also Andrea is my best friend who is also my neighbor. This never happened to Andrea, she is NOT adopted and again THIS NEVER EVER HAPPENED TO HER, I had permission to use her name in this fic. SO *PLEASE DON'T FLAME ME* thank you and please read and review. Sorry if I sound so strict, I was worried I would be bombed with insults.

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Michael stood there grinning more evil by the minute, even if the sun shined on him and was trying to make him look like an angel, with those sky blue eyes and sandy blond hair. Well that was just a bunch of bullshit it brought no good. The true image glowed from his eyes and he laughed crazily as he held a little blue book that read 'Journal' with gold lettering.

He KNEW that Relena HATES it when people got into her personal STUFF! He violated that rule in their friendship and the consequences would be coming real soon. But he was on an assignment, a mission of revenge.

"Give it BACK!" Relena screeched.

"No." Michel yelled back. He was going to stay at his post, not giving in. Ohh he could already sense the pain coming toward him real shortly; he didn't care or at least not right than.

Now Relena didn't know that Heero, Quatre, Duo, and Hilde were on her back porch drinking sweet, cool pink lemonade with her aunt. She didn't know that they saw and heard all that happened as Relena tried to return her book of her past and very secretive writings. All Heero and the others could see at this moment was Michael and hear only Relena's very aggravated voice.

"Relena! Keep your voice down this instant." Relena's aunt demanded. That was it, that was all Relena needed, a distraction; it gave her enough time attack.

Michel should have known better than too have remove his eyes on a very determine Relena. It was actually sad, Michael heard her aunt and was going to be polite and say "Hi." But hell with it, it was a major mistake, a fault that he would never forget.

Relena was way too fast to react to. In an instant blur Relena charged, jumped and kneed Michel in the stomach. Than again with out warning she put him in somewhat of a headlock and flipped him over her shoulder, making the boy land straight onto his back.

"RELENA!" Her aunt squealed. Relena didn't hear her or the gasp of shock from Hilde and Quatre or the laughter from Duo, she couldn't. She was too focused on the battle. I mean her only thoughts were how to get the diary back and how she was going to pay back, violently (a little). Her willpower was way over anyone's head, that was all she needed to win the dispute, and if you were there you have probably thought it would have worked, but it didn't.

Michael had a trick up his sleeve, as Relena flipped him. He had enough time to toss it, which landed into another blond haired boy's hands. This youngster looked innocent, but never judge a book by its cover. He was almost as bad and mad as Michael. This lad's name was Cory, he was at least 4'9", 110lbs, and he seemed to love to wear baggy short pants and a gray shirt that read 'Smashing Pumpkins' across it. He was just there at the right time and at the right place, it was all a fate moment. Now if Cory has just given it back he most likely not end up like Michael.

"Cory? Cory give it BACK!" Relena commanded darkly.

"Don't Cory, don't give in. Cory don't" Michael tried to say; his face was still buried into the hardwood of the deck. Pain struck through his whole body, not too much, just enough for him to be paralyzed at that split second or at least not being able to get up and continue fighting. So really everything was up to Cory, it was a decision between friendship and not getting beaten up into a pile of agony and pain. Cory cocked his eyebrow as he tried to think real hard, but his boy pride kicked in and he decided not to give in to a girl. But too bad Relena is not your ordinary girl.

"Fine Cory. I warned you!" Relena hissed.

Cory really didn't want to fight, especially when Relena was this angry and was strongly minded to win, she could kick ass. Why didn't he give in? Because he has an ego and has a hard time emitting when he's defeated. He's just your everyday boy.

Again in a sudden flash, Relena did a back flip over Cory and landed behind him. Cory gradually turned around finding himself looking at a foot. There. Relena's foot was it mid-air and her arms close to her chest in a protective form, and than-

**WHACK**

-she kicked him right in the face, not too firmly so the noise wouldn't break, but enough so he would take to the air. He flew up in the sky and hit the deck railing and landed on top of Michael, making them both cough.

Slowly but sturdily Relena saw a hand go up from the pile of hurtful bodies, which was holding her priceless journal, showing their defeat. She walked up to the hand and grabbed her belonging. "Baka. You could have saved yourselves a lot of pain, but noooo your result was to take the hard way out. NOW NEVER GO INTO MY STUFF EVER AGAIN, ESPECIALLY IF IT'S MY JORNAL. GOT IT?!?!?!" Relena yelled seriously.

"Yes." The two groaned as they answered.

"RELENA!" Her aunt shrieked again. This time Relena heard her aunt's high-pitched voice, which made her jumped a little. "Where are your manners? Not only do we have guests, but also this is not how you treat your friends."

Relena grunted quietly and turned around to confront her aunt and tell her side of the story. But once she was facing her aunt she felt her cheeks warm up, she was surprised to be looking at three sets of astonished eyes staring right back at her, of course Heero continued to gaze at the same thing he was looking at before; but if Relena had taken the time to look at what part of his eyes were showing than, she would have seen proudness.

'That's my Relena, kick some ass and don't let people push you around just cause you're a female, a really nice, pretty female.' Thought Heero with a little smirked appeared across his face, but everyone missed it again.

'Oh man I'm in trouble.' Relena thought as she gazed around trying to find a way out of this mess. "Sorry maim." Relena bowed and continued to speak for her behalf. "Yet I must say they deserved it. They're ok, right you guys?"

"Ah, ya were ok. Anyways she didn't fight her hardest." Michael said as he rubbed his neck.

"Speak for yourself Michael, she didn't kick you in the forehead, but I'll be just fine." Cory said as he clumsily stumbled around, which showed how dizzy he was.

Relena let out a slow, low sigh and looked right into her aunt's mad eyes. Relena felt a little nervous and worried to what her punishment was going to be, and she hoped she wasn't going to be grounded from playing her Nintendo64; she was so close to finishing the new Bond game.

Her aunt was obviously embarrassed about Relena's choice of actions, her arms were crossed and she had that "adult" look on her face. But suddenly a pinch of careness appeared in her old, wise, hazel eye's, showing that *this time* she wouldn't be in trouble. Relena let a sweet smile emerge across her face, a smile that only her aunt and herself knew and shared. Relena's aunt was such an engaging, mid-age women; her name was Betty. And that was her favorite aunt in the world.

"C'mon sweetie, we need to fatten you up. We got hotdogs, potato salad, chips, lemonade and some cookies for dessert." Betty said cheerfully.

"Thank you."

"Invite your friends over there" Betty said, pointing at Michel and Cory who were still massaging their "painful spots." "They need to get fat also. My, oh my you kids now seem to never eat the right amount. When I was a girl, being fat meant you were healthy."

"Right aunt Betty, but also you know that back then they didn't know the death penalties, like heart attacks." Relena pointed out.

"Ya. Well you guys are getting too skinny." Betty said, raising her eyebrows and waving her finger at Heero, Relena, Duo, Hilde, Quatre, and the two hurt boys. Betty sighed and gestured her head back and forth. "Well, not with me around. You all eat, and no excuses. Ok?"

"Yep, sure." Everyone answered. They all knew that Betty was the best cook and everyone wanted to consume everything until their bellies were going to burst, too good of food to pass up.

Relena turned around and analyzed Michael and Cory. "Would you guys like something to eat?" She asked, not really changing her voice showing that she was still pissed at them. But they knew her anger wouldn't last long, she sometimes had too good of a heart.

Suddenly the pain in their bodies left and a new soreness rose. They were hungry and they were growing boys. Besides Duo, they could devour a whole field full of Betty's famous hotdogs and potato salad. The two didn't waste any time, they got up as quickly as they began to chomp away. The previous fight left their minds and smiles showed on their young features, showing everything was cool.

Relena motioned her head back and forth in confusion. She still didn't see how guys could be such pigs, but she knew she was being a hypocrite for thinking like this; she was just as bad as they were. Relena never bothered or more likely refused to learn her "lady manners" when it came to the subject of cooking and eating the good, oh so good Aunt Betty's food. Relena smiled and decided to let go of the preceding battle awhile ago, or least be not as rude and mean as she was to them now.

Relena sighed again and went to join the table that held lots of joy, for now. Relena took the seat by Heero and grabbed her plate to begin the feast. "I'm sorry you guys for avoiding you, I should be a better host. So please, tell me if you don't mind, how's your summer going?" Relena asked as she went for the closest, juiciest, plumpest of the hotdogs.

"Oh wonderful." They all replied, except Heero who just grunted. Now Heero and Relena weren't best friend, but there was good friendship between the two. So she was used to him like this.

But Heero felt more than just amity. Once he decided to go to one of Relena's friends to learn more about her, but instead he got a warning. Not only was the admonition shocking to hear; but also it felt like someone chopped up his heart. He has never heard such a sad story about the most wonderful, innocent, sweetest person in earth and heaven. Because of the warning, Heero became even more hesitant to asking Relena out; and so he decided to close himself from the feelings he felt towards her. But once again the feelings threaten to emerge once more.

Heero kept his face in the same position, but only moving his eyes to Relena. She was such a beauty, almost too good to look at. How could such a good person have such a bad past? How could those guys…. Suddenly he remembered the talk he had with Relena's best friend whose name was Andrea. He learned that if he wanted to get to know Relena the only person in the universe that really understood her was Andrea. If you have met them you would probably think they were sisters; they had so much in common, not only their past lives together, but also their fears, and goals of the future. Andrea was an also good friend with all the Gundam boys, so Heero felt comfortable to ask pretty much anything.

They met each other at the age of ten and had been best pals ever since then. Relena was so happy when she realized it was Andrea who was the new neighbor, ever since the day Andrea moved in, the two were closer than ever before. Relena need someone like Andrea, who understood her very well, because even Zechs didn't understand, her brother, her blood brother.

But Heero was determined for that to all change. He also wanted to be close to Relena and get to know her. She was the only girl in the world that made his life seem fun and worth living for. Relena had a warm, living spirit and Heero needed a soul like that to help him with hard the times that he went through and also to make him not seem so dole.

*~FLASH BACK~*

"Hello? Andrea are you here?" Heero asked as he searched the front yard of her house. He felt the butterflies fly in his stomach. He was always nervous for anyone to discover that he had a crush on Relena, but he needed Andrea's help.

"Yes. Who's there?" A sweet voice asked, suddenly a figure appeared over the bush that Heero was going to check. Andrea was 5'4", 90lbs. dark brown hair and tan skin.

"It's Heero."

"Oh Heero, its great to see you. How are you doing? Is everything ok?"

"Yes I'm fine. Thanks for asking. I was here to get some information on something that I would really like for no one to know about, if you don't mind?"

"Oh no problem, is it about our biology test tomorrow?"

"Oh shit, I totally forgot that. No it's about Relena"

"Oh no, is everything ok? Is she ok?" Andrea asked worriedly.

"Yes she's fine, at least she was ok the last time I checked. I heard that if I wanted to know more about her I should ask you." Heero whispered. He was worried if she would refuse to help him. Than Heero notice pain and sadness run all over Andrea's face. Herro could sense that something bad was going to come.

Andrea quickly changed her facial appearance. "Were you planning to got out with her?" She asked, trying really hard not to seem depressed.

"Um, yes." Heero answered recently.

"Oh Heero. Not you too, god no." Andrea said sadly.

"What, what is it?" Heero asked. He felt a little embarrassed. He was not used to telling people about his "new" feelings.

Andrea quickly scanned the neighborhood, checking the place like it had a spy around. "Good she's gone. Come Heero." Andrea whispered, she took off her garden gloves (she was doing the chores that she refused to do) and began to walk to the front porch. She sat down on one of the steps and patted the hardwood showing that Heero should sit by her. Heero jumped over the white fence and took a seat by Andrea.

"Um, what's wrong?" Heero asked apprehensively.

"This happened a year ago, a guy wanted to ask her out just like you do. So he too knew to come to me, I did my job of not letting him go out with her. It was tough to do, but I did it. Telling him… but Heero your different, in a good way." Andrea said, changing the subject quite fast.

"What are you trying to say? What did you tell that boy?" Heero asked a little braver than before.

Andrea could tell that he wouldn't leave until he knew exactly what was going on. "Aaaaa you're so stubborn. Um Heero I don't really know how to say this, please don't think me as a bitch after I tell you. Ok?" Andrea asked as she was rubbing her neck intensively.

"Ok."

"Heero just ask me something, anything to help me start explaining."

"Ok! What did you tell this guy a year ago."

"I…I told him not to go out with her."

"Why?"

"I was told to Heero."

"Who commanded you to tell?"

"Relena did."

"Why?"

Andrea wiped some sweat off her forehead; she looked like she was working real hard to choose the right words. Yet Relena told her to, not by demand, but by request of their close friendship. "Um, damnit! I was told not to tell any boy, more likely to tell ANYONE about this part! You know that we met each other when we were ten, right?

"Ya. I always wanted to know how and where you guys meet."

"We meet at a camp."

"That's cool, like a girls camp thing."

"No not really that awesome. And yes we did go to a camp, a camp full of just girls, Young girls and young men. The men were the age between 20 and older, sometimes younger." Andrea felt a little uneasy telling this, but not as bad as Relena would feel if she was the one telling.

"Andrea?" Heero questioned more seriously.

"Yes?"

"You're not saying everything, are you?"

"Well don't go on wrinkling your boxers I'm not done yet. This is not easy to tell!"

"Sorry."

"I need you to keep a dark secret to yourself, don't tell anyone! I trust you to keep it, ok?"

"Yes I swear, cross my heart." Heero said as he traveled his finger across his chest.

"Good. Heero this wasn't your normal girls camp. It was like a concentration camp than anything else."

"What? How was it like that?"

"Ok. Heero let me back up a little. What I know about Relena is that her last name is Peacecraft, and it holds a lot of meaning to it. You never knew her when she was young?"

"No, we got introduced to each other when we were 15."

"Oh, a two years ago. Cool." Andrea said sounding a little surprised. She continued on. "When Relena was ten, a year after her biological parents past away. Well Relena didn't handle that very well, so she would take a walk in fields, you know to relax to have time to herself." Heero nodded to show that so far he understood. "One day in spring she was picking some wild daises in this really nice golden field; she showed me once. Oh yeah at this time she didn't really no the power of her natural last name."

"She told me she saw this dark haired man, probably in his mid-twenties. He saw Relena and decided she was "good enough" and that she was going to be useful." Heero felt pain struck his heart strongly when he heard "she was *good enough*." "Relena told me that the man had a small bottle with a rag and a handgun just incase she was going to put up a fight, then suddenly they guy pounced on her and put the moist cloth over her mouth and noise; so she would inhale the toxic fumes and make her go unconscious. The same thing happened to me and to all the other girls that were at the camp. Latter we discovered it was chloroform. When Relena woke up she found herself in a large metal "cage" with still bars and then she met me." Andrea ended sadly.

"So she was kidnapped?"

"Yes." Andrea said barely enough for Heero to hear. She could feel chills run threw her whole body, even though it was a warm day.

"Could I ask you something?" Heero asked in a feathery whisper.

"Sure." Andrea replied.

"How were you taken to the camp and what happened inside there?"

"I was taken away from my home and family. I…I…I saw my…m...my parents …die in front me." She stuttered painfully, yet amazingly she didn't drop one tear, but her eyes showed lots of sorrow.

"I'm very, very zannen na, I mean I'm really sorry."

"Thank you and Heero I know Japanese also."

"How old were you?"

"I was five and a half." Heero looked shocked. And he though he had a tough childhood. Obviously Andrea and Relena didn't have a great one either.

"Were you there longer than Relena?"

"Yes. In this camp was full of young, beautiful, abducted girls who were used only to satisfy they craving of lust that the men held inside when they came to visit. We were also lab rats. Well, lucky enough Relena was put in cage that I was in or we would have never met each other or thought up the same plan; but then out of the blue she was taken out. I knew what was going to happen, I swear even though I didn't know her I wanted to speak up, that's what everyone feels and wants to do; but no one has the guts; I somehow did. The problem was that I was too weak to do anything; I had just come back from the lab, the lab that was used only for two purposes 1) To test the new experimental drugs on the girls and 2) to check if anyone one of us were pregnant." Andrea sighed and rubbed the back of her neck. Heero was going to give her all the time she needed. "That night I remember the scream of unbelievable pain. The scream that meant a virgin girl wasn't a virgin anymore." Heero's eyes shot wide open, he could feel his stomach twist and turned all in different directions. He felt a little wary and dizzy for some reason.

When Andrea saw his conditions she knew that he taking this as seriously as a person should. I mean you must understand that Andrea and the other girls from the camp would probably think that any men from the "outside world" would think this was great or maybe that they should try to join in, you know "take the advantage." But Andrea saw that was all a lie, that not all males were as bad as the ones that she was forced crudely to visit and Heero was living proof.

Heero felt a large lump of saliva fall down his throat when he got ready to ask something he wasn't ready to hear, but it was too late to turn back. "Who was…who was the person yelling?" He saw Andrea's eyes rise slowly and the reply felt sickening to hear.

"Relena." Andrea answered flatly, she saw Heero turn to an olive green shade of a color.

"

Do you want me to continue?" She asked.

"Yes."

"Ok. When Relena returned her condition was horrible, she was bruised, her cloths were torn to the point that there was no need to really wear them. I mean they did cover important parts of her, but it wasn't enough to keep her warm. My god, at the age of ten she had an experience that all females across the world dream and pray for it to never happened to them." Andrea paused awile, trying to remember something important, but than ignoring the thought and continued on. "A young man with dirty blond hair and a dark shade of sky blue eyes came by, and the looks in his eyes were pure evil (its not Quatre, its not him). In a vomiting, lustful voice he told me to give her these cloths."

"Then he said, almost speaking more to himself, that she wasn't that bad for a firstly. I right than I embossed his looks and especially his ugly FACE! I swore on my mother's grave that some day, I would seek revenge on how he treated this young new girl, but also the other fatalities. Usually the new lasses weren't immediately picked, my mind that night only pondered on why this girl was all suddenly wanted and I know its not about looks. I'm not bragging at all cause I don't give a fuck about looks, but the men who hunt down "certain" girls were only looking for the stunning. The ones you couldn't refuse. There had to be an exact motive."

"Now I know, it's because of her last name. So me and three other girls that stayed in the same pen helped her. Joann, one of the girls who had been here the longest and had also recently lost a sister about a week ago before Relena came by; scooped up her unconscious body and used all the drinking water we had and began to tend her wounds. We really didn't care about the water, even though we would probably have to live the night thirsty. We do whatever we can do for the girls in the most pain"

"As we changed her into the prison cloths we saw she must had three lashes for refusing" Andrea ended

"Three lashes? What? Why?" Heero asked he seemed he was going to get ready to kill the men who mistreated the girls.

"Whippings, because she refused. Every time you speak up or refused to be "loved" you were hurt."

"What the fuck? That's not love."

"Right, and because of that lots of girls are screwed up in the head, some worse than others." Andrea pointed out strongly. Heero grunted loudly.

"Want me to continue?" Andrea asked kindly, she swore that Heero would bawl for all those innocent girls, but he's not like that; instead he would kill the men!

"Yes."

"Well days turned into months, months turned into three years. Me and the other girls in the same prison began to love Relena's strong mind and good heart. But that wasn't enough to stop the men…stop them from raping Relena or using her as their experiment. They really didn't care about us, the ones that were abused so bad that they were looked upon as "ugly women;" if they don't get a certain number of men looking at them, then they were murdered, violently. We were just objects of pleasure. And Relena didn't look like she could hold on any longer. But something was giving her hope and that made her move on. Even today I don't know what helped her survive, but because she moved on all the girls did too. She gave that same hope to them. Once Relena, at lunch, she stood up and yelled for everyone to hold on in a language that only the girls' at the camp knew. We made it up so we could speak to each other about anything, anytime without the risk of being hurt, whipped or killed." "She said that she had a plan. The guards didn't know what the hell she was saying, but they didn't like the sound of it and they knew that it gave us anticipation. They hated it when we had hope and usually whoever is rebelling or tried to become stronger were killed. But all the men there liked Relena and they wouldn't dare to kill her, but they would hurt her. That night on the same day she came back, her whole body was bloody and bruised, but her face was untouched. Joann, Anna, Ella, and I helped her again. We didn't mind." "Once I came back pretty bad myself and Relena gave me her cloths, so the night she helped me; she ended up wearing nothing. She didn't care; cause all the guys have already seen her complete body." Andrea said. Odd silence came between the two, Andrea moved on. "It was so sad, the day she rebelled and that evening she was beaten, it was here 11th birthday. The girls and I did a birthday in our made up tongue for her. We were all family and that meant everything to us. You know what? Relena was hurt more than Joann was. I guessed three to six guys a day raped her. Yet she still refused to kiss them back and make them feel wanted." "Once she coughed up a loogy and spit on the man who attempted to kiss her. Two more hits with a whip for that. Once she was given a drug that made her "want" to be touched by guys, that was what you call today a date-rape pill. She was the first person in the world that was used on it and the results were considered good to sell and use, and was put up for market." "Another time a drug made her sick for a week, to us that's a vacation even though you were ill, it still gave you a brake. Than once she was better a fat fagnut of a guy paid 300 dollars for her. Jeff, the camp owner, offered a night with Relena as long as he never spoke of the place. Well he settled with that. The next night Relena was sick and tired of all the shit happening to us. I swear if it was possible, flames would show in her eyes. This was just hatred that Relena was feeling, it was beyond abhorrence. I can't really explain it."

'No, I know how it feels…' Heero thought.

"Anyways, she came back to our cage and in a flat, cold, whisper she said 'Tonight is the night we do the plan.' We all agreed....

TO BE CONTINUE...

*TRANSLATIONS* (just in case if any of you FFN readers doesn't know what I'm saying)

-kawaii= sweet

-Arigato= Thank you

-Zannen ne= really sorry

A/N:What's the plan? How is everyone going to get free from this hellhole? The next chapter should be out ASAP and like alwayz...Plz. leave a review *^_^* Arigato!