Hey guys, I have been through a lot of things, and recently someone told the girl I like that I like her and said a lot of things that I wouldn't even say. So now the girl is scared of me, and that is why I've made this story, I needed to write it and tell you guys about it.
Life. What's so special about it? You can't really live happy, because even if 9 billion people want that to happen. The other 3 billion don't, and that's why we can't live in peace. We can't even fall in love with someone without it being normal. The truth is, my life is not what I expect, I'm not happy. Ever since word got around about my secret crush, everyone bullies me, and disapproves of me. What hurts most is...she looks at me like I'm going to hurt her, like she's disgusted of me. As I walk to the locker room, I have my head down, that is until I bump into someone.
"Would you watch where you're going?" I her voice, her raspy voice, but I don't dare look at her.
"Sorry..." I mumble and then move past her as fast as I could. Whispering, that's what I hear now whispering and then someone steps next to me. Before I know it I have my hand in the locker and the girl who stepped next to me close it shut.
"Owww!" I screamed in pain and then the girl laughs.
"People like you shouldn't be in here. For all I know, you can rape one of us." with that said the girl walks away with the others behind her and I carefully open my locker. I couldn't help but cry by the broken fingers. My locker has blood and I start feeling nauseous. I didn't bother going to gym class, and instead went to the nurses office.
"Well, hello Brittany..." she trails off seeing my fingers and runs quickly to help me sit.
"Who did this to you?" she asks and as always I say.
"I did, you know how clumsy I am." I tell her and attempt to laugh, but instead let out a tear. The nurse wipes it off and looks for a chair to sit on while she looks at my fingers.
"Jummm... Looks like only your pinky and index finger are broken." she says while touching the others and when she touches both the pinky and the index finger I jump by the pain.
"Yep... pinky and index. Let's fix them, breathe in anndddd..." I do as she says and there's a loud clack, and I gritted my teeth.
"You're a champ." she tells me and I nod. She wraps my fingers tightly, so they wouldn't get out-of-place and gave me an aspirin to ease the pain. After that I walk to my locker, as I put the combination I hear laughter, and when I turn around I see her. I see her with her on again off again boyfriend, Sebastian, I can't stand him and to be honest I don't get why she's even with him. I see him lean over and I turn around, not wanting to see them kiss. My hand is trembling and I'm trying to forget all about it.
"Hey panda..." I hear behind me and see Kurt approaching me.
"Hey, dolphin." I tell him and he chuckles. You see Kurt's my only friend here, and we know each other since people heard I was a lesbian. And he's okay with that because he's G-A-Y, yes Gay and he doesn't care what people say behind his back. He is the only person in this world I fully trust and feel safe with.
"Britt, what happened to your hand?" he gasps when he sees my fingers wrapped up, and I shrug.
"I fell, you know I'm clumsy.." I start telling him and he scoffs.
"And a liar, Britt, you can't keep letting them do what they want..." he says and then pauses and sighs.
"Because someday, you're not going to take it anymore..." he says and I nod.
"Okay." I tell him and then the bell rings signaling its time to go home. As Kurt and I walk out of school and into the parking lot, we both are shocked at what we see. My moms car is trashed, the windows are broken, the hood is smashed, the tires are flat, and the window passenger side of the car says 'She's not into you' and in the door under it, it says 'Dyke'. My eyes water, as people take photos with their phones, and laughter, everyone laughing. They laugh, not understanding... not caring... that I can't take it anymore. I see her looking at my car, but she's not laughing, like everyone else. She doesn't laugh but I see her turn and smile at her boyfriend, who kisses her and that's all it takes. I run away, despite hearing Kurt calling me and running after me. I can't deal with this anymore, the humiliation has to stop. Everything has to stop...no needs to stop.
As I sit in the abandoned bridge, I look down and it's probably deep enough. I feel my phone vibrate and I sigh taking it out. When I saw from who it was I immediately opened it, and I don't know even why.
From Mom: Brittany, I am so mad at you! You completely ruined the car, with your dumb confusion and temptation. I knew I shouldn't let a person like you take my car. I'm literary disgusted by your need of attention.
Tears where falling down more than ever, and I looked down again. Then I look at my phone, turning it off and dropping it down the bridge. It takes three minutes for it to get out of my sight, and that's all it took. My mother, the girl I liked, the other people from school... everyone in general, to push me where I am now. I stood up, breeze hitting me, as I close my eyes and took a deep breath. I start walking slowly to the edge, and just when I'm about to fall. I feel strong arms pull me back and I start fighting the person to let me go.
"Let go of me!" I screamed into the abandoned bridge, and still the person doesn't let me go. When I finally get out of the persons grasp, I run out of where I was, only to fall down a hill and into a river. Cold water hitting me and as I try to swim back up, I'm hit with something hard; it's enough to make me black out and for once, I feel at peace. The last thing in my mind is, her smile and the brief memory of when our eyes first met.
Life. Some are lucky in it, some do not get it, and some just can't survive the pain,which makes them not want it, at all.
So what do you think? :/ Should I keep going?
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