The alternative breaking dawn!
By Emma :D
'Bella?' Edward asked as he hopped into my truck parked on the side of the road. I had given up trying to drive as my eyes were clouded over with tears.
'Bella, are you sure that telling Jacob goodbye was the right thing to do? I've never seen you in so much pain?'
It's true. But I had felt worse. The only problem was, he was right. I don't think I was ready to have Jacob out of my life just yet. 'I I don't know…' I stammered 'I love him so much but I love you too-- I just--' he placed his cool finger over my lips. 'You can do what ever you want. If you want to go back to Jacob then I have to accept that. And Bella, I only want what's best for you.' I stared at him 'Jacob is much more healthy for you than I am.' He continued 'He can give you what you want' he finished shaking his head at that thought. I didn't need to ask to know he was meaning that if he lost control, he could kill me in a second, and I knew how much he didn't want for that to happen.
'If I did go back, would you leave? Would you kill Jacob or do something crazy to harm yourself?' I asked
'Not if you chose to go back. I would never hurt you that way Bella, you know that.'
The tears were streaming down my face again. Edward brushed his long cold fingers gently down my cheek and wiped them away. 'I need some time to think this through' I said 'Do you want me to come over tonight?' he asked softly. 'No, I need to be alone.' I said slowly. He kissed the back of my hand.
We drove home in silence. He parked my truck neatly on the drive and hopped out. 'I'll always love you no matter what Bella' he whispered 'I know that' I replied. I hugged him quickly and headed inside. My head was spinning. How the hell was I supposed to choose who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with in just 12 short hours!
I shut the front door quietly but Charlie was waiting up. Dang it! I had hoped to avoid the awkward questions when I came in. 'Hows Jake?' Charlie asked. 'Yeah he's fine.' I mumbled Charlie watched me for a moment and then spoke. 'You alright Bells?'
'Yeah I'm fine'
'You look a little stressed?'
'Its been a long day, that's all'
I didn't think I sounded very convincing. The tears welled up in my eyes. 'Im going upstairs dad'
'Sure Bells, see you later'
He let me go quickly, nothing scared Charlie more than tears. I stumbled blindly up the stairs hardly seeing where I was going. The door banged shut behind me and I flopped down on my bed fully clothed willing sleep to come. It would be nice to escape reality for a few hours.
***
I woke up sweating. I shook myself mentally to clear my head of the dream. I had dreamt that I had chosen Edward. And it was perfect he was kissing me. It was truly wonderful. But then his head snapped back rearing like a deadly snake, striking to kill. A huge russet wolf flew into the picture Knocking Edward to the ground. He ripped and tore at the wolf. My legs felt like concrete and I had moved in the slow pace of dreamers. My hand reached out to the wolf trying to pull him back from the deadly thing in the form of my Edward.
And that's what helped me make the decision. I thought about what Edward had said, and that helped too. I had made my decision, and my Edward would no longer be.