YUKI'S POV
Going to school used to be as easy as falling asleep for me. The place made me feel normal, accepted in the crowd as if there wasn't any difference between me and the other boys. I felt like an average student amongst so many others, minus the fact that I had my very own fanclub. Lots of girls (and boys "shudders") loved me for my looks;they thought my silver-colored hair and amethyst orbs were beautiful and called me "Prince Yuki". Ha, Prince That actually makes me wanna laugh out loud. As if I was some superb royalty!
Anyway, as I was saying, school used to be simple for me:no detention, not too much struggling, no bullying, no bad relations with other students, and most of all NO CRUSHES. That's how it went until I got to know this particular guy better. The bloke's name: Kakeru Manabe.
I know exactly how my fangirls would react if they ever heard that: WHAT?????? PRINCE YUKI IS GAAAAAAYYYYYY???????!!!!!!! Poor them. I also know how my fanboys would react: PRINCE YUKI IS GAY!!!!!!!YAAAAAYYYY!!!!!!!THANK YOU, GOD!!!!!!!! Haha, let's all have a good laugh. Well, it certainly isn't funny for me; because of him, my stomach is twisted all the time, I almost fear I'm having a heart attack when I see him because it beats so fast, and I get green from jealousy as soon as he talks, smiles or even just glances at someone else. My biggest competition (haha, competition) would most likely be Torhu Honda. I love her like a sister, truly, and most of the good stuff that has happened to me since a long time ago is all thanks to her. But every time it comes to Kakeru, she's nothing but a bitch to me (umm, if she ever found out about that, no offense intended Honda-san, really).
There's no better word than love for describing my feelings towards him. Ugh, that sounds kinda weird:Soma Yuki, a queer. Haha. Great, now I'm going nuts by myself again. Okay, back to reality. The truth is, I don't think this is "just a crush". It probably was at first, but now it's definitely more. And it's worse. Because he'll never love me back. He already has his girlfriend ( The Angel of Meat, hahahaha) and fell head-over-heels for sweet little Torhu. Sweet little bitch.
But I must not love him like in the stories: Cathy and Heathcliff from Wuthering Heights, Romeo and Juliet, Edward and Bella from Twilight. They say if you love someone truly, you want them to be happy, whether you get to be with them or not. I do want him to be happy. But I don't want him to be happy if he's not happy with me. Ugh, I know, that sounds so selfish and childish. I'm just being honest with my feelings.
I'm such a freak….0.O