Author's Note:
Dear Readers, first fanfiction ever. Been stalking this place for a while now. This is going to be a multichapter deal. I'm going to try to update regularly for the next two weeks. I've got the first four chapters completed. I've been writing this up on my phone, so I apologize for the lack of proper grammar/mechanics and for any spelling errors. Hopefully around chapter six I will be able to get back on a computer to write for a change.
Also, because I am trying to keep this rated more like T+ instead of actual M, no super explicit events will go on within this story. Thank you.
Fixed the needyNeedy problem, let me know if I missed any please. May go back through later and do a little more tweaking with the grammar and mechanics.
1.
Jennifer stood outside Needy's house wanting so badly to enter, but knowing she couldn't-not without killing her other half. She turned to force her legs to take her away from her best friend's house.
"Jennifer?" Needy stood at the door. "I thought that you were out here. What's wrong?"
"I have to go," Jennifer said quietly as she stood watching her.
"What is it?" Needy said. "Come on you can tell me."
Jennifer couldn't stand it she wanted Needy's arms wrapped around her, she wanted Needy to tell her everything would be okay. She moved to Needy, much too fast for a normal human, but Needy didn't comment on the strange action. Jennifer threaded her arms around the blonde. She kissed her softly and Needy rested her hands on the dark haired girl's hips as she kissed back.
Suddenly, Jennifer pulled back. "Needy."
"Jen."
"I..."
"Do you want to come in?" Needy asked. "We can continue what we were just doing."
Jennifer's eyes resembled rain drops. Needy didn't know what to do. So she kissed her and Jennifer moaned softly. "Needy god." Jennifer broke the kiss. "I don't want to hurt you. And if we hang out right now I can't guarantee your safety. I love you and you're perfect I just have this problem..."
"Jen what is it? Maybe I can help," needy said.
"Look, I want to see you needs I need you and you know that. But right now..." She saw Needy's determination and sighed. She knew she was not going to let her walk away that easily. "Let's go inside. I have a lot to tell you."
She laced her fingers with Needy's and slid onto her comfy bed and curled around the blonde. Jennifer recounted everything that had happened since Low Shoulder played at Melody Lane.
"So, do you think I'm totally bonkers?"
"No. I believe you."
"Then why aren't you shoving me away and wondering if I'm going to eat you next?"
"Well for starters, I enjoy that, when it's not violent and fatal." Jennifer laughed and squeezed her hand. "Plus I know you wouldn't hurt me."
"but I want to right now...I'm so hungry needs you have to let me go, I have to feed the monster," Jennifer said. Needy shifted in Jen's arms to see her better. Needy kissed her gently.
"I know," she whispered "I know you can't eat anything else. Just please...don't eat people we know anymore"
Jennifer rolled her eyes. "I won't eat your precious chip." she stood up and headed to the window.
"Jen" Needy grabbed Jennifer's arm, but she didn't move. "Turn around...please"
"What?"
"I love you. And... I never loved chip. Just please don't eat anyone we know. Go to the city...I'll stay right here waiting for you."
Jennifer grinned and kissed Needy roughly. "God you are so cute when you try to be sexy." Needy blushed and Jennifer smiled before disappearing out the window.
Jennifer returned to Needy's room a few hours later, her skin glowing. She looked a lot healthier, less sickly. Needy felt herself yearning to touch Jennifer, to hold her, to kiss her and hug her, to just cuddle with her. Jennifer must have sensed this, because she reached for needy almost immediately after needy felt these urges. Jennifer pulled needy onto the bed and kissed her softly. "I'm sorry if there are still um...remains from my meal. I didn't run home to freshen up. I was hoping you would want to do that with me." Jennifer gave needy a devilish grin and needy laughed. "My mom is home, or I wouldn't think twice about showering with you."
Jennifer laughed. "You are better than any boyfriend I have ever had. And I wish we could just be together."
"You know I'd do anything for you. If you want to tell people, I don't mind."
"Nobody would mess with you, and if they did...I could take care of the problem."
Needy smiled as Jennifer lightly kissed the top of her head. "And nobody would mess with me because I am Jennifer check."
Needy smiled and said "What about the boyfriends and all that? Wouldn't you miss that stuff?"
"Not if it means I get to spend that time with you and doing that stuff with you."
"Jennifer Check, are you asking me out on a date?"
"Yes Needy Lesnicki, I am. Dinner and a movie"
"If I didn't know any better I would think you just wanted in my pants."
Jennifer slid her hand under Needy's underwear and sighed. "Oh, I'm already in your pants."
Needy woke to find Jennifer smiling at her. Needy smiled back and Jennifer threw Needy's clothes to her. "Come on, we have school, Monistat."
"All right Vagisil," needy mumbled, stretching she put on the shirt Jen had tossed her and then got up to find real clothing. "How come you are already dressed?" Needy asked as she grabbed clothes from her closet. Jennifer rolled her eyes.
"Hello, demon, remember? I ran home got a shower and everything."
Needy's face fell. "Oh"
"Geez clingy much? I didn't leave you alone for more than twenty minutes," Jennifer said. Needy smiled half heartedly "Needy don't get your feelings hurt I was kidding"
Needy nodded. "I know"
Jennifer lounged on her bed, watching her dress. "God, I wish I would have woken you up earlier so I could've had your hot bod all to myself for a while."
Needy, who had already started feeling self conscious with Jen watching her, blushed and got even more nervous while trying to change shirts. "Well, your lost I guess."
Jen's brow furrowed. She dropped her teasing tone and asked "Needs why are you being weird? Did I do something?"
"It's just...I've been thinking, about everything you told me, and...Are you Jen or a demon? ...you're not my Jen."
Jennifer got up from the bed and went over to needy. She snaked her arms around the blonde's waist and nuzzled her neck. "Needs I'm yours. I'm still Check mark. I'm your Jen...I just have this...thing living inside me, I treated you all weird after it first happened because..." Jen pulled back from her and looked deeply into her eyes, searching.
Needy frowned. "What is it? Why Jen?"
"I was scared."
"Jen, you know I'm right here, always. Why were you scared?"
"I was afraid that you wouldn't believe me, that you would walk away from me...but most of all I was afraid of it...the night it happened I wanted to see you so badly that it came here. At first it didn't think anything of it, but once we were here...it was so hungry and it could feel how much I cared about you and you smelled soo good and you kept getting so close to me and that was driving it crazy and it almost got you," Jen paused and looked at needy. "I'm sorry. I just didn't know how else to deal with it, but I've kinda figured out how to control it better."
"So you're still you."
Jennifer nodded and kissed the other girl on the neck. "I'm me and I love you and I don't want anyone else...except to have for dinner."
"How often do you have to...eat?"
"If I want to be around you full time, probably every night or every other night."
"Oh, does it want to kill me that badly?" Needy laughed.
Jen pulled away and looked at her seriously. "You have no idea how delicious you smell."
Needy grinned and suppressed a laugh. "What?" Jen asked
"You just sound like fucking Edward Cullen is all."
Jennifer laughed and rolled her eyes. "Oh god, that loser. I'm much better than any sparkling faux vamps."
Needy laughed and agreed with a kiss. "Come on, school, remember?" she said breaking the kiss.
Jennifer smiled and said, "I wanna try something actually...if you're up for it."
"What is it?"
"You know how I can move really fast and shit? I want to try taking us to school without a car. We'd have to walk out of the woods if it works."
Needy shrugged. "I don't care, if you want to that's fine."
Jennifer grinned playfully. "Are you done getting ready?"
Needy shook her head. "Slomo! Get ready."
"Hey it's your fault I'm not done," needy replied.
Jennifer laughed and leaned against the window while she waited.
The plan worked well. They weren't late for class but needy felt a bit sick to her stomach. "Geez, man up Needy." Jennifer's teasing was counteracted by her gentle smile as she took the pale girl's bag from her while she got sick in the bushes.
"I smell potato Chips." Jennifer's eyes narrowed.
"Huh?" needy mumbled wiping her mouth.
Jennifer handed needy her bag and sighed. "The tool that thinks he's dating my girlfriend. I smell him, so he must be near."
"I really need to break up with him," Needy muttered more to herself than to Jennifer. Jennifer grinned slyly.
"I'm gonna go wait for you inside. Leave you two lovebirds alone." Jennifer rolled her eyes and laughed.
"Needy!"
Needy turned towards the voice that called her. She stood next to the track and saw chip waving as he neared her. She forced herself to smile and waved back.
"How's it going, babe?" Chip said greeting with her with a kiss.
"Hey, I actually wanna talk to you about something," Needy said taking him by the hand and leading him to the stone steps next to the tennis courts. "I feel like it's time for me to start focusing on myself. And I don't...have time for us anymore. I don't want to be your girlfriend anymore."
Chips smile fell and he blinked rapidly. "What are you saying? That we're over?"
"Yes chip. I don't...want to be with you anymore."
Chip blinked and sniffled several times. "This is probably about Jennifer fucking check."
"What the hell chip? I break up with you and you blame Jennifer? What is your deal?"
"Never mind. I have to go."
Chip grabbed his bag and blinked away tears and left Needy sitting on the steps alone. Needy sighed and pushed her glasses up her nose. She stared after him for a few minutes, thinking. She liked chip, but she loved jennnifer in a way she could never even come close to feeling similarly for chip.
Jennifer met her at her locker. "you look smug," Needy muttered.
"I am."
Needy saw Jennifer's smile and the electric look in her eyes. "Chip and I are over. He blamed you," Needy said quietly. Her smile widened. "Of course he did," she said.
"What did you do?" Needy asked looking at Jennifer with a raised eyebrow.
Jennifer grinned at her and shook her head. "Nothing. Sometimes things just work out, you know?" Needy looked at her for a moment and sighed. Whatever Jennifer had done, Needy may never know.
After the last bell, Jennifer met needy at her locker. "We're going out tonight."
"Where are we going?" Needy asked grabbing books out of her locker.
"On our date, dork."
"Gee, it's such a turn on when you tease me." Needy rolled her eyes.
"You know you love it," Jennifer said grinning playfully.
"I'd love to go out with you," Needy said ignoring the girl's last comment.
Jennifer bit her bottom lip and smiled. "I'll pick you up at five."
Needy nodded. "All right."
"Let's go. I've got this date to get ready for," Jennifer teased grabbing her hand and pulling her out of the school and over to the woods.
Jennifer wiped her mouth and looked at the limp body in front of her. She felt disgusted with herself, but the demon was so full and satisfied she wasn't sure how discontented she was due to its happiness. She closed her eyes and pulled herself away from the poor boy's remains.
She made her way back to her house and brushed her teeth and took a shower. All the while thinking about Needy and how she was finally hers. She'd wanted her for a long time but she had always been too afraid to do anything about it. She had slept with the blonde many times, and she knew she had taken Needy's virginity, but they had never been more than best friends...who occasionally fucked. That was the one good thing about the demons presence; it gave her courage to finally ask out the one person Jennifer check was too nervous to ask out herself.
Needy was shaking with anticipation as she got ready for her date. She had gone to movies and she'd gone to dinner with Jennifer before, but they'd never called it a date.
Needy took a deep breath, trying to steady her nerves. Jennifer was downstairs. Needy opened the door to her room and found Jennifer grinning on the other side.
"Ready, beautiful?"
Needy smiled.
"How's that for nicknames?"
"Much better than dork," Needy said, pecking Jennifer on the lips.
Jennifer smiled. "i've got my mom's car. So you don't have to vom on me."
Needy blushed a little, and smiled sheepishly. "Thanks."
Jennifer took Needy by the hand and led her to the car. "We're gonna miss our movie."
"Isn't usually dinner then a movie?"
Jennifer rolled her eyes. "Guys only do that so they don't have to listen to you talk about the movie during dinner. Plus by the time the movie is over they've had time to digest and can hope for sex."
Needy laughed. "I already like your way better."
Upon arriving at the theater, Jennifer paid for everything despite Needy's protests. "I said I wanted to take you out," Jennifer said as they entered the auditorium that would be showing their movie.
"What about the workers? They go to school with us," Needy said, trying a new angle. "What will they think?"
"That those two do that all the time. It's already a huge rumor at school that we're like married or some shit, isn't it?" Jennifer said rolling her eyes as she grabbed a handful of popcorn and cradled it in her hand, crunching each piece up with her free hand. One at a time.
Needy didn't know how to respond, so she simply shook her head. "I mean we go on dates all the time," Jennifer said. "The only difference is this time we're calling it a date, too."
The house lights dimmed and the previews began playing. Jennifer dropped the remaining uncrunched popcorn on the floor, and wiped her hands on the seat. She slid her hand into Needy's lap and laced their fingers together. She felt the monster stirring inside her and retracted her hand for a moment. Needy waited patiently. Jennifer regained control of the demon and found needy's hand again. She forced herself to stare at screen, although the demons night vision turned it strange colors.
The credits started rolling and Jennifer felt relieved, the demon was a little cranky. It had wanted to feed on the defenseless blonde right then and there. "Did you like the movie?" Needy asked, grabbing her jacket. Jennifer smiled and noticed she didn't put it on, probably because she didn't want to break up their hands.
"Yes," Jennifer answered. "Did you?"
"Yeah, it was cute," needy said. Jennifer let go of Needy's hand so that she wouldn't freeze to death upon leaving.
Needy put on her jacket and Jennifer linked arms with her.
"Since I can't eat food without spewing tar everywhere, where do you want to eat?" she asked as they slipped out theater's front doors.
"Oh," needy said remembering the first night Jennifer had shown up after that shitty city band had fucked her up. They both knew what Jennifer was referring to, and Jen hated it. Jennifer rested her head on the other girl's shoulder and squeezed her hand. "I'm sorry," she whispered. "Please stop thinking about that...where would you like to eat?"
Needy shook her head. "I can just eat at home."
"No, no. I can't cook very well," Jennifer said. "Plus we're still on our date so I'm not just dropping you off to eat alone."
"You can stay while I eat," needy said.
"Needy, please just pick a restaurant. Any place you feel like eating, somewhere you've always wanted to eat. Anywhere at all," Jennifer said. She looked at her with pleading eyes. The demon didn't like their playful, loving conversations. It didn't want them playing this stupid game, it just wanted to eat needy.
Needy bit her lip and tried to figure out where she wanted to eat. She sighed and said, "I don't know. Surprise me, Jen."
Jennifer smiled and kissed her. "I'm sorry if I'm being pushy Needs. I just...I've thought about our first date for a long time...And I have always wanted it to be special. I'm just sorry that I can't...be normal on it, now that it's finally happening."
Needy shook her head as she buckled her seatbelt. "It's gotta be hard...to have to battle with that thing every day, all the time."
Jennifer nodded and said, "yeah and being around you drives it nuts."
"I'm sorry if we need to stop-"
"No," Jennifer said. "I can't…If I lose you..."
Needy smiled gently. "You can't lose me. I won't let you."
Jennifer kissed her gratefully and started the car.
Needy was surprised to find them sitting outside the fanciest restaurant outside of devils kettle. "Jen, what are we doing here? I mean, it's really expensive."
"I've got my mom's card, chill."
Needy bit her lip. Jennifer reached for Needy's hand and squeezed. "It's all right. Seriously."
"You aren't even eating. It's really not necessary..."
"Yes Needy it is," Jennifer said. "I only wish I could be a normal girlfriend and fucking eat too."
Needy realized this was something Jennifer needed them to do, so she nodded and let Jennifer take her to dinner.
Jennifer pulled up in front of needys house and put the car into park. She got out of the car and ran around to Needy's door. She opened it and took needys hand and walked her up to her front door. "I had a really great time with you tonight," Jennifer said quietly.
"This is the best date I've ever been on," Needy said.
Jennifer smiled, trying not to feel too smug about needys comment. She leaned and kissed needy softly on the lips.
"Good night," Jennifer whispered as she rested her forehead against needys.
"Do you want to stay over or do you want to pretend this is a real first date?" Needy whispered back. Jennifer grinned.
"I'd love to stay over. But really, we're just sleeping."
Needy returned her smile and opened the front door.
"Is your mom home?" Jen asked closing the front door quietly.
Needy nodded. "Yeah, this week she's working during the day."
"Oh that's cool."
Suddenly Needy felt weird. Jennifer had been in her room a million times, they'd had nights similar to this many times before. Yet, now need felt weird. Jennifer Check was in her house, and they were walking into her bedroom.
Needy turned and stood in front of Jennifer once they were in her bedroom. "Can I ask you something?"
"Anything."
"Why are we friends...I mean in junior high when you got all drop dead gorgeous, and people made fun of me, why did you...choose me over the popular kids that fawned all over you?"
"Because you were my Needy."
"Did you think I needed you?"
"No, I needed you. You have been the only person in my whole life to constantly be there for me. You're the only one who knows the real me, you don't treat me weird because I'm attractive...you love me for me, you always have and I love you for that. I trust you needy, and you're the only one who I've ever trusted."
Needy looked at Jennifer and wanted to cry. This was her Jennifer all right. Needy exhaled and draped her arms around Jennifer's shoulders.
"Jennifer. I love you. I hate that this thing is living inside you. Jen, I want to make you better. I want to make this better...I just...I know there's gotta be a way. If there was a way to get it into you, there's gotta be a way to get it out."
"Are you going to save me Needy?" Jennifer said, as she slid her arms around needy and pulled her in for a kiss.
"Yes, Jen," needy said. "I hate that you're suffering."
"I must admit that it's pretty cool to have all its powers, but I'd rather be able to be with you without it getting all angry."
Needy laughed softly. "Come on, let's go to sleep."
Jennifer leaned in to kiss her. "Goodnight Needy," Jennifer said, kissing her again as she led them to the bed. She gently leaned needy back onto the pillows.
"Good night Jen," needy finally breathed.
Jennifer felt the monster stirring and slowly got off of needy. "I love you," she whispered. Jennifer could feel the demon getting annoyed. She took several deep breaths and balled her hands into fists.
"I love you too Jen."
Needy's voice made the demon rebel harder and it also made Jennifer fight against it harder. Needy lay beside Jen, watching Jennifer staring up at the ceiling. She looked like she was in pain. She slowly slid her hand onto Jennifer's arm and gently rested her hand there.
"Are you hungry?" needy whispered.
Jennifer didn't respond at first. Needy leaned over to kiss her cheek and Jennifer hissed. Needy recoiled and stared wide eyed at the dark haired girl. Jennifer seemed to be losing the battle with her inner demon. Needy bit her lip and waited, she wasn't sure what to do if Jennifer lost. She wasn't sure she could hurt Jennifer or a demon that looked like her girlfriend.
Jennifer exhaled and sucked in a deep, sharp breath. "Needy."
"Jen?"
Jennifer took another deep breath. "We should discuss what needs to happen if I ever lose that battle," Jen said quietly.
Needy tried to keep the worry off her face. "Okay," she said. Her voice sounded shaky. Jennifer opened her eyes and looked at Needy; yellow, snakelike eyes had replaced the deep blue eyes that needy loved so much. This change caused her to jerk a little and Jennifer blinked rapidly. She reopened her eyes and her eyes were blue again.
"I'm sorry if that scared you," Jennifer said. She looked as if she were about to cry.
Needy shook her head. "I just expected for your blue eyes to greet me and the change startled me." Now it kind of seemed silly and had her best friend now almost lost control to the demon that wanted to kill her, Needy would have laughed.
Jennifer tentatively reached towards needy and rested her hand on needys hip. "We really do need to talk about some more serious stuff...if that ever happens again, get away from me, I don't want to hurt you...and please, if I ever hurt you... Or if it ever comes down to it, and it's your life or mine...kill me, please. Because at that point, I'm in pain too and I don't want to suffer."
"Jen, I can't kill you."
"No, it's banking on that statement right there. It wants to have you because it's positive you wouldn't put up any fight since you wouldn't hurt me. Also, Needy..." Jennifer took a deep breath. She didn't want to tell needy this, but she had to. Needy had to know, or at least Jennifer felt she did.
"This thing...it has access to all my memories. Everything you've ever told me, everything I've told you...everything we've ever done. Don't let it use that against you. If it ever teases you about any stuff, it's not me talking." Jennifer closed her eyes. "I have enjoyed every moment we've ever spent together. Even our fights mean something to me and the demon is not...opposed to hurting you emotionally as well as physically." Jennifer was sure needy was going to get mad. The things they had done growing up, their fights, their memories...some of that stuff they never talked about and other things were private. Jennifer hated the demon for having access to all of those private moments; the demon already taunted Jennifer with some of the memories. She didn't want needy to endure the same teasing.
"Oh," Needy said. "That's weird...so it knows about that time we, uh, um...we did that one thing with the uh..." Needy blushed and looked down. "Dildo," she whispered as her face turned a deep shade of red. Jennifer nodded, she was less embarrassed than needy-but it did feel weird to talk about that with a third ear listening even though the demon already knew. But the dildo thing had happened so long ago. They'd been thirteen, and Jennifer had had a knack for stealing things. Needy watched the memory unfolding in her mind, unwillingly. Jennifer had stolen the dildo from a store in the mall. They had taken it home and spiced up their boyfriend/girlfriend game. Needy remembered Jennifer staring into her eyes as she gently worked the dildo into her friend; in hindsight needy realized even then Jennifer's eyes had always been an open book: Needy glanced at Jennifer now and realized Jennifer had always loved her-even when they were thirteen.
Needy smiled at her. "It's okay. I can handle it."
Jennifer was a little surprised by her reaction, but grateful.