Sun
Disclaimer: I do not own Buffy. I wish I did though.
I looked up at the glowing sun, wishing that he could be there beside me. But he wasn't. He had to be a hero. Of all the times not to be selfish, he chose then to do so. I hated him for that. I loved him for everything else.
We hated each other for such a long time. It's still hard to believe that he's the one I cried for every night in my sleep. The one I think about when I walk down the street. The one that will forever remain in my thoughts.
I could never bring myself to say those three words. The ones that he needed to hear. I was just to afraid. I knew his feelings mirrored mine, but I just couldn't do it.
When I finally got those words out, he felt I was just trying to make him happy. We both knew he was going to die. He didn't know that I truely meant it. The words had just flown out of my mouth. All the fear that had prevented me from saying them before was gone. I knew I was never going to see him again, and that scared me more than anything. More than those three words. So I said them.
I will love him forever. Spike. William. Whoever you are now, you are in my heart.