A/N:

So this is my very first fanfic :D. I hope you like it! (and please review! But no flaming pls. thx and enjoy! – the characters are now 17(Freddie, Carly, Sam,…. You know what I mean^^)

Prologue

The young man went out to one of many fire escapes that the Bushwell Plaza had. He sighed and breathed the air of the fresh cold night. He always came here if he wanted to escape from his life and that day he needed to sit on the fire escape more than in his entire life.

"What have I done?" Freddie asked himself and at that he had to think about all the good times he had in the previous years. Everybody was happy and things went great but then he did that big mistake and all the good was gone. The love of his life left him and even his friends turned him their backs.

He was alone…..

The rage and sadness were overflowing him. He hated him for what he said to her, Sam Puckett also the love his life. Yes, Freddie Benson didn't love Carly, it was only a crush he had on her. After a time he realized that he truly loved the girl, who was supposed to be his frenemy. Then Freddie remembered the hurt in her beautiful blue eyes, tears rolling down her cheeks and her breakdown as those heartless words left his mouth and his heart broke into thousand pieces.

He didn't mean it. He never hated her. He LOVED her, but now he had no chance to tell her that.

Tears were welling up in his eyes. He clenched his fists. "Why did I have to lose control! I love her and then I had to yell at her like that! WHY GOD! WHY!" the young man screamed out. (A/N: I thought about writing teenager instead of young man. what do you think?) Suddenly it began to rain…hard. It was pouring. Freddie stood still on the fire escape and let the rain drop on his body. After few seconds his whole body was wet.

Then Freddie realized something. He always wanted to make Sam happy, but he only gave her pain…. Every time she saw him in the school, the hurt in her eyes returned and she avoided him the whole time. She wasn't the only one… also Carly and Gibby started to ignore him.

Suddenly an idea appeared in his head and he went back inside.

He knew what he had to do…. He made his decision….

Marissa Benson never saw her Freddie act like that. So full of sadness and pain... She sighed and walked into the elevator. The woman went out to buy some hygiene stuff and was returning home.
She stood in front of her apartment, but turned around to look at the neighbour's apartment. After the incident Freddie didn't speak with Carly or even Spencer... The mother sighed and entered her appartment.

"Freddiebear, I'm home!" she announced' but didn't get a respond. "Freddie? Sweetie, were are you?" Still no answer. Marissa went into her son's room, but didn't find him. She knew that something's wrong. First Freddie always responded her greetings and second he always was in his room since the incident. Then she looked around the room and saw the video camera that she bought him for his last birthday on his desk. The worried woman went over to the desk and found a CD with a lable on it.

At the lable was written: Mum, watch this CD. I'm sorry. Thanks for every thing. I love you. -Freddie

For what was he sorry? The woman was now very worried and put the CD into the player. She narrowed he eyes when she watched the beginning. Then her eyes grew wide in shock.

"Oh my god..."

A/N: So this is the prologue of my story. I know it's a bit short but though...PLEASE REVIEW :D and give me advices for next chapters. Thx